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So Payne didn't show and even though I thought I stopped waiting I really didn't. I had hoped he got busy or he was fighting or something and couldn't show but he didn't come the entire day. It was night now and to be exact he was ten hours late.

I wanted to talk to him so badly, there was so much on my mind.
I wanted to scream with frustration but I decided against it.

Getting off the ground and walking into the bathroom I took a long bath in hopes to clean the dirtiness I felt.

Payne didn't need me. He didn't want me either. I am nothing compared to him, at least he has a respected reputation, I have nothing but the reputation of a worthless slave. I've been a slave for so long and now my mate will be using me as his personal slave and even if I do get to talk to him, it wouldn't change the fact that he doesn't want me. I'll be a burden to him, same as I was a burden to my parents that never returned to me.

I couldn't hold it in any longer. I hated being unwanted and now I realize I've been this way since birth, my parents didn't die, they left me and my pack definitely didn't want me and Payne has made it VERY clear he didn't want me either.

Tears were streaming down my face and my sobs echoed off the walls in the bathroom.

I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate being a burden to everyone around me.

I went full on with the crying. Tears that I had held back for a while finally surfacing. I didn't love Payne but I was attached to him through us being mates and I couldn't help but feel sick to my stomach that I wasn't good enough for him. He was already broken and adding another broken toy to his collection was pointless.

When what felt like hours passed and my fingers were getting wrincles I washed off once more and exited the shower.

Wrapping the towel around me and staring at my reflection in the mirror I noticed how red and swollen my eyes got and the blue color was pale and life less.

My dirty blonde hair was wet and flat against my back. My complexion was an unhealthy pale color and I truly looked sick even though I wasn't.

Leaving the bathroom not even bothering to look at the door in hopes of Payne coming in, I walked over to the closet and pulled out a T-shirt and some shorts. My body was getting accustomed to the cold.

I was about to drop my towel when someone cleared their throat.

I almost died in the process of turning around and was beyond surprised to see Payne standing against the door.

Fixing my towel more closely to myself I moved my stare from him and walked into the bathroom without saying a word.

After changing and drying off my hair I re-entered the room half expecting Payne's absence.

He was still there.

Ignoring Payne because I honestly didn't know what to do or say anymore, I went over to my spot on the ground and sat with my back leaned against the bed. I looked straight ahead at the wall but I could feel Payne's eyes on me.

"Are you trying to ignore me?" He asked genuinely curious. He was dressed in the usual dark clothes he wore but after what happened in that bathroom a while ago I was in no mood for his taunting.

"Why were you crying?" He asked in a softer tone, It was a gentle tone as if he was trying not to startle me into crying again.

I shook my head not bothering to answer him because he wouldn't understand or care.

The silence between us stretched out for a couple of minutes again then he surprised me by talking again.

"I don't like seeing you on the ground," Well that's a first for any type of anything! but he didn't mean it as if he cared, probably just wants me on the bed so I could hear the alarm better and get up earlier. Not that he showed when I did get up early.

Looking up and finding his stare I flinched back, his eyes were not as threatening and scary as they usually were but I didn't fall for it. It would snap back to the coldness in a few seconds.

"Why didn't you come?" I asked and my voice sounded sore from my crying but it didn't seem to affect him.

"I had an unexpected visitor today." He stated and I looked at him, strangely expecting him to continue and when he did I was beyond surprised. Payne actually talking? Something must be wrong.

"It was your Alpha, well, past Alpha. He wants you back," At this point Payne's eyes drifted away from mine and I felt my brows furrow. What the hell did they want me back for? Did they not find another weakling to beat the shit out of?

I got frantic my breathing rate picking up and then.... O God, Payne was going to give me back wasn't he? I can't go back. I can't live like that again.

"Don't send me back, please" I felt a lump form in my throat while speaking and tears were building up in my eyes. I truly was afraid to go back. The man I hit in the private would kill me once he got his hands on me.

Payne's grey eyes shot to mine and his lips were in a straight line, his face cold. Nothing gentle in that expression anymore.

"I'm not giving you back to them Alexis. I know what will happen to you if you go back. I'm not fucking stupid."

The relief that washed over me was incredible.
"Thank you," I muttered, it was the least I could do. I'd rather stay here and be his servant than dead or even worse a sex slave to those bastards.

"I won't give you to them but you need to answer me. What were you crying for?" His voice remained the same but the determination for an answer was evident in his tone.

"Why do you even care?" I said exhausted by the topic.

"Fine, I'll send a message to your Alpha and let him come for you in the morning," Ah, the real Payne was back.

He was about to walk out of the room but I couldn't have that. I had to answer him even if he wouldn't care or else he'd let them take me. I didn't know him well enough to call his bluff and Payne didn't look like the type to joke about such things.

"Wait. Fine. I'll answer you." He stopped and turned to me, waiting for me to continue. "I'm tired, I'm so bloody tired and its frustrating, you don't know what I've been through in my life,the only two people I cared about and who were supposed to protect me left me. Instead of support from my pack for my loss I was beaten to forget it, then to almost be raped? It terrified me, like you said before death would be a kindness to me because I'm tired of not being enough for people to stay and I'm tired of not being enough for someone just as broken as I am to at least try, so you know what, I'm sorry master if I can't hold it in forever," I stopped there feeling like I said enough and the look on Payne's face was so raw and different I almost thought I was imagining it until he shook his head.

"I never thought I'd have a mate, it was probably the last thing on my mind, the last thing I wanted. This whole mate shit isn't for me, I'm not that type of person Alexis and it's better for you this way but don't ever think its your fault," He ran a hand through his hair and let out a loud exahale of breath, "So yeah."

I stared at him amazed. Something was different with Payne tonight. The fact that he just said what he did was unbelievable.

"I have somethings to deal with now and your Alpha does want to see you even though he can't have you. I'll come for you at six. Okay? " with a quick nod Payne was off and out of my room.

In the silence that he left behind, I found myself weirdly comforted by the thought that he actually showed something toward me. It was sad, he'd just explained that he wasn't the relationship type and that this wasn't for him yet as he left me there, my thoughts persuaded me of nothing better than him being mine.

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