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Alexis P.O.V

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Holy freaking goddess above.

My entire body was on fire.

What the fùck is he doing?

He's changing his mind isn't he?

I knew he would and look what he did to me!

I told him he didn't have to if he didn't want to and now look at us.

He didn't want me like that.

I could tell that just as much as I could tell I was sweating my skim off.

"Payne!" I screamed as a new wave of heat consumed me and my entire body arched off the bed. There was an uncomfortable pull in my core and it seemed a though my core was the center of the fire that was taking over me. I was aching for something that only he could give me.

I'd never seen or heard anyone speak about their heat but honestly right now I couldn't imagine anyone having anything good to say about it.

Payne and I weren't ready for this, that's why he stopped, he knew it would only make things more complicated.

"I'll get rid of it," Payne said and his voice seemed to echo in my head. Iced lips claimed mine and the fire there immediately stopped. I sighed into Payne's mouth.

His touch was cold and refreshing on my hot skin like a cold glass of water after being in the Sahara desert for a year.

His lips trailed down to where he marked me and I felt like a wave pleasure washed through me and the fire began to cool down but once his lips moved it was back on again.

When his mouth sealed over the revealed cleavage of my bra I felt like my core melted.

This level of arousal was dangerous and I didn't know if sex was anything good for us, but what if it was?

I'd never heard that sex was the answer to relationship problems but what else obstacle was there for Payne and I to get over, we'd been through hell already, so what else was there?

Maybe it truly was sex?

If it wasn't, then we'd be totally screwed after and regret would be all that we'd feel toward each other.

Right now though? All I could honestly think about was getting rid of this feeling and getting the release that my core was begging me for. I didn't know what it was or what was actually going on because obviously I didn't have a parent to have the talk with but I felt as though I knew exactly what to do.

I needed Payne, there now!

"Payne!"

In the blink of an eye Payne had stopped teasing me with his kisses and I felt his fingers hook in my panties. He was taking so damn long!

A small tug then it all stopped.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me," Payne hissed.

My eyes shot open, I hadn't even notice they'd been closed.

Payne was shirtless with his built, muscular and very much tattooed chest revealed and in a pair of black boxer briefs. A large bulk was in his pants and my thighs rubbed together on their own accord.

He looked so good at that point, I wanted to devour him, I didn't even understand my own thoughts. I would have attacked him if it wasn't for the fact that I felt like my entire body was made of unset jello.

Then his words sank in. His dark, lust filled eyes shifted away from me and I felt like crying.

DON'T ASK ME WHY!

"What's wrong?!" I practically screamed at him and he jumped a little at my aggressive tone, I think I even frightened myself.

"Rogues on the border," he groaned out as he began pacing the room.

Shit. Fuck. Duck. Everything negative and bad and nasty that I'd hate myself for saying tomorrow! Fuckity fuck fuck fuck!

"Shit!" I groaned out as I felt my body begin to tremble slightly.

"I'll send Payge to deal with it." Was his final decision and he was about to come back on the bed when my foot shot out and nailed him in the chest, he was unable to block the unexpected kick but he barely flinched back.

"Hell No! She's pregnant have you lost your freaking mind?" I exploded with a newfound anger. As much as I wanted to ... Yeah, I wasn't going to risk the baby's life because of my own selfish desires.

"You're in he-" he began, I cut him off.

"I KNOW!" I yelled and for the first time in my life as I screamed at Payne he looked a little scared, as if my ragging hormones would somehow be his kryptonite. "You're Payne Vincent! Go kill those rogues and you better return back to me in record breaking time. Go!"

With big, shocked silver eyes Payne nodded at my command.

There was no other option.

I think I'd probably have murdered him with the anger that was getting to me. My knuckles were white as I grabbed at the black bed sheets under me.

I was presently afraid of myself.

Payne got dressed quickly and had some problems stuffing his erection back into his pants but soon enough he was fully dressed and was almost out the door when he said, "I'll send Payge over to check on you."

I nodded and closed my eyes tightly trying to suppress the scream that wanted to escape my lips. Letting Payne go turned into the hardness decision of my entire life at that point.

I heard his footsteps as he made his was down the hallway and I heard another set of feet.

Feminine voice was softly heard and I recognized the voice to be Payge. She said something about coming to find him for them both to go after the rogues but he stopped her.

Saying something I couldn't quite catch, I heard Payge's laughter fill the halls. Then in a hushed tone he said and I perfectly heard him, "She's going crazy in there, I think the heat is fucking with her head, be careful, I'll be back soon."

I decided against screaming something at him because he was totally right. I felt like I was about to literally explode out of my skin and honestly, I couldn't decide whether I was happy, mad, sad, anxious, nervous or any other emotion. I just felt really fudging hot.

At least I had some control to filter some of my words.

Payge cracked the bedroom door and as if the heat waves slapped her in the face she stumbled back a bit.

"Damn, Alex, you okay?" She asked getting her footing and coming in and leaving the door slightly open.

"No." I groaned out and turned to my side pressing my tighs together but honestly, the small case of friction didn't help, it felt like I made it worse. I turned to her.

"Relax, just breath through it, I've never gotten heat before because obviously I'm not mated but I've heard this girl Dana went through it and the exact second after her mate bit her he tripped on something and broke his arm. She had to wait an entire day after he'd gone to the pack doctor and they set his arm back and he healed, then they finally dealt with their problem," by the end of Payge's story I was completely petrified.

"Are you trying to tell me that Payne is going to break his arm and I'd have to wait a day until I get rid of this?!" I almost cried at the thought. Why was I feelimg to cry so much?

Payge looks dumbfounded at first then shook her head no quickly. "That's not what I was try-"

"I'm going to die!! That's what's happening! I am burning alive and Payne broke his arm and he can't save me." It was at that point that I began crying. "The goddesses hate me, I'm a walking clad of bad luck............. Payne doesn't want me!"

Payge entered into the room further and came an sit on the bed, "oh shut up, I get that your hormones are fucking with you but you sound like shit and you're talking even more shit, from what I could tell, if Payne didn't want to go through with all of this he wouldn't have started."

Well..

"No, don't over think it, you're mind is going to ruin everything for you. Payne should be back in a couple of minutes -unharmed- and he'll deal with this." Running a hand through her hair she pulled a few black locks out from her bun. "I could have fought you know, I can more than protect myself, if I cage myself because I'm pregnant now it'll just be torture to me."

Sighing I nodded. Payge could protect herself but, I just didn't want to take the risk but after tonight I knew there wasn't going to be another chance where Payge would back down from a battle.

Sweating profusely still I began to fan myself and breath harder trying to cool myself, the air conditioning in here definitely couldn't have been working.

Payge smiled at me, "You know, I think everyone in the entire pack wants to know how the fuck you got Payne to be with you, I mean, no offence, I've seen some super model material girls from this pack and others try to at least get his attention for more than a second to acknowledge them and they failed miserably, Payne just isn't .... Easy, you know?"

"I know," I interrupted her and her grin grew wider. Memories of the past few months came to mind and more so the memory of Payne hitting me and telling me mean things, I've come a long way, if this didn't work, I'd probably have been gone already. Either by him letting me go or the next route.

"He marked you. Do you have any idea how many girls in this pack would love to be in your position right now? I never got it but I think they liked the whole mystery, badass, murderer shit and the obvious because he's the alpha."

A spike of jealousy plunged through me at the image of girls looking as good as Payge trying to get with Payne, then I thought, Payne is too much of an asshole to let them even say his name, but then it dawned on me, "He's never been with anyone from the pack then?" I knew she just stated that but I needed to dig deeper into that.

Payge shook her head no, "or out of it. He's never been in a relationship before you."

Yes, okay, good, I could have guessed that but, "I mean, he's slept with some, right?" A mischievous smirk twisted Payge's mouth and she giggled loudly.

"Never, I had hoped he did but I never saw anyone ever come or go from his room, there were no sounds either." She shrugged and a smile still played with her lips.

"What if he did it in their homes?" I asked too baffled to believe that Payne was a virgin.

"He doesn't like people touching him, the night you arrived was the first time I've hugged my brother in years, I highly doubt he had sex with anyone here, I would have the rumor."

So then, did that mean ..... "I was his first kiss?" Payge laughed and nodded her head yes.

"You'll be the one to take his virginity tonight too."

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Payne arrived back ten minutes later and as soon as he entered the room Payge left. We'd been talking for a bit as she tried to get my mind off the heat but as soon as Payne entered the house my body knew and it went back to five hundred degrees in here.

Dressed in his full black outfit he'd been wearing before there wasn't a drop of blood anywhere on him. His hair was still a tousled mess but he looked as fresh as if he'd just gone for a walk.

He began to strip immediately.

"Stop," I didn't recognize the voice that left my throat. I was thirsty but I knew water wasn't the problem right now. Payne stopped and eyed me cautiously.

"Whats wrong?" His voice sounded slightly tired and despite how much I wanted him right now I couldn't bring myself to do it.

He came to the side of the bed and sat down next to me. Most of the covers were off the bed because of the extra heat and as I lay in my bra and panties before him I couldn't bring myself to care about the mess I must look like.

"Was I your first kiss?" Payne looked taken aback by my question for a second and then by impulse ran a hand through his dark hair and then down his jaw. Was he embarrassed?

He couldn't answer.

"You were mine too," I put it out there trying to get rid of the awkward tension in the air but it didn't go. He knew what I was about to ask next. "Have you ever been with someone before? " I didn't need to state what I specifically meant but he didn't need more detail to my question.

"I never had the interest before you," he added.

My hands were shaking as I stretched them out and ran them down his bicep. The feel of him on my skin was enough to let the fire calm down but it wasn't ready to go just yet. From his bicep to his muscled chest feeling the hard and slightly, bumpy skin underneath. Beside his minor faults as I looked into his silver eyes all I could see was perfection because everyone had their issues and scars but Payne was different, despite everything he's been through and what was done to him, he was innocent just as I was, forced to be the way he was now.

"I have something to tell you," he added and my hand stopped as they reached his abs. I was blindly trailing and going to his V-line.

"What?" I asked softly curious as to what he had to say.

Payne let out a shaky breath and looked away from me, he'd been silent for a few seconds then he finally said, "My father castrated me when I was ten," I had to swallow down a gasp, " I don't know what he did or how he did it but I know what's done. I can't... " He turned to face me for a second and I could see how ashamed he was of himself, he looked slightly pale and I knew he was uncomfortably self conscious right now.

He expected me to look at him differently, I could see it in his eyes, maybe he expected me to regret ever starting this with him or something but honestly, "I don't care about that Payne, I want you and nothing is going to change that."

He let out a relieved breath and bent down and kissed me softly. He whispered something against my lips but I was too caught up in his touch to pay much attention.

Payne couldn't have kids so that meant we both couldn't have. It made me sick to my stomach the numerous things that monster of a father did to him and words can't express the hatred I had toward that man. He deserved what he got.

Payne pulled away from me and kissed my mark before getting to his feet.

Tugging off his T-shirt exposing his natural golden skin under his multiple black tattoos, his muscles flexed as he began to take off his pants and I let out a low embarrassing groan.

He wasn't even touching me but he was taking forever.

His pants fell to his feet and his briefs came into view and the bulge was ever present. Payne grinned at me, "Do you have any idea how hard it was to kill thrity eight men with this?" He grabbed his bulge for emphasis but even as I giggled I was still feeling my desire to get to that part of Payne driving me.

He took off his briefs and Payne's member was bare to my eyes.

I gulped.

A sheepish grin took over his face and I knew a blush was just under there.

"Let's figure this out then."

I nodded eagerly to that.

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Shit is about to get real.

See, I slowly worked my way up for this and honestly I was starting to feel like maybe this would be good for them? Or nah? Who knows?

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I'll enjoy writing the next chapter though, I have no idea how I'm going to do that but I'm not writing a porn here people!

I'll give you details but I'm not going over board :P

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