Alexis P.O.V

Its been a week since I've been up from my little almost dying activity.

Payge left yesterday to go up to the mountains and I hadn't seen Payne since I told him to stay away from me.

Rumour has it that he had destroyed the entire interior of the house and was presently in a state of anger and depression and the whole part of the estate where the cottage was located was off limits to anyone in the pack unless they wanted Payne to release his wrath on them.

Currently I was staying in the pack house, in a bedroom on the top floor, furthest to the right since Payge said it'll be easier for me to move in here than for her to set up everything in a completely new house. She also said it was better for me to be around more people instead of being alone where Payne could have easily found and kill me.

I was grateful for her concern but I knew he wasn't going to hurt me.

 Sitting up on the bed I yawned and stretched out my arms. In the mansion it seemed as though the curtains were set by a device and every morning the bedroom curtains would open at approximately seven in the morning, letting the bright sun rays in and evidently waking you up unless your face was stuffed into the pillows.

The light completely covered the interior of the room I was in and the purple furniture and walls was a bright contrast compared to the gray sheets I was lying on.

Throwing off the blankets I walked into the bathroom where I did my morning business and fixed myself up.

A few minutes later I stepped out of the shower and faced myself in the mirror over the sink.

I looked completely exhausted and tired, despite now getting up.

Most importantly, I hadn't cried in like, a day or two.

So my eyes weren't all that puffy.

My hair was a honey blonde mess that needed Christ intervention.

I didn't even bother with my facial features.

Going into the walk in closet filled with the clothes Payne had gotten to me my heart sunk –like it had, every time I came in here to change– and pulled out a long sleeve blue sweater and white cropped pants.

My hair, that looked like it had the devil inside, I wrapped into a huge messy bun.

I couldn't deal with my face. So I pretended it wasn't there. I had no one to impress here and from what I've seen, everyone here keeps their distance from me other than a few hundred glances and some serious eyeballing as if I was a ticking bomb waiting to go off.

Maybe I was.

Payne's bomb had already exploded but the damage was
extensive in a portion of the estate.

I missed him. I seriously did but what little pride I had was telling me to stay away just a little longer.

Space.

We needed space and time.

Leaving the room I made my way down the hallways then down two staircases then into the huge lobby.

Walking down the staircase it was no surprise that I caught the eyes of everyone around. The people staying in the pack house were around my age or a few years older. None of these people here were mated and maybe the fact that I was mated and more specifically to their alpha gave me some sort of authority over them but that wasn't like me. I couldn't be a Luna. I'd take the title but I wouldn't be able to act the role.

With the ringing of a bell to signify breakfast everyone cleared out and rushed to the dining room.

I followed the bunch and once I'd gotten my plate of food I walked over to a seat, situated in the far corner of the room, away from prying eyes but with the perfect view of everything, where Payne usually sat when he ate here. Going to the vacant seat I tried picturing Payne before I met him sitting there. Silent, angry and alone.

At first, in my vexation toward Payne since I'd woken up and was placed here I'd studied about the possibility of making Payne jealous and getting revenge on him for everything he's done to me but as I'd seen the reactions I'd gotten from the people here, the guys were too terrified to look at me for more than three seconds far less speak to me. Sad part was, I couldn't even make a friend here because the same went for the girls. Luchas had left a few days before Payge so I was completely alone here and I wasn't going to my parents.

Wait a second. How could I? They were dead.

After eating I washed up my dishes and walked out of the mansion. It was a sunny day but there were clouds beginning to form. From tonight there would be snow, I could feel the chill more than evident in the air.

Walking down the short staircase I walked around the fountain and memories of the dead blonde guy came to mind but I couldn't find myself to be affected by that anymore. I had too much on my mind as it was.

"-I love you and I want to be with you. I understand now. Alexis don't say that. I'm not leaving you,"

Payne's words echoed in my head and I felt tears build up but I closed my eyes concealing them, resulting in my stopping right in front of the fountain.

Pressing my fists into my eyes for extra force I tried to control my breathing that was turning ragged.

I love you too!

I want to be with you!

I'm sorry!

I'm so sorry.

Why did you even listen to me?

If you truly loved me you'd stay!

Why am I even pushing you away?

Why can't everything just for once work out!!

An image of Payne's face as I yelled at him to get out of the clinic room painted across my mind. His brows were drawn down. His mouth a deep frown. His eyes a pale, transparent gray.

Though I was angry with him at the moment I knew I'd broken my own heart doing that to him. I'd destroyed myself even more than what I'd done to him.

I was just frustrated and exhausted.

How many times were we supposed to go through this? How many times till we could finally work?

How many times must I cry? Must I feel pain and how long do I have to wait till Payne can actually say he loves me and mean it?

I don't exactly know how or when but I eventually ended up sitting on the floor beside the fountain in front of the mansion steps with a hand stuffed over my eyes trying to hold in my tears and another one over my heart. Trying to hold its broken pieces together.

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Read !! Very Important!!

I have huge news for you guys.

You know Payge Vincent right?

That hot headed, bad attitude, pregnant, queen bitch who's the twin sister of  Payne Vincent.

I've been recently thinking about this, since VT is almost finished and we can't just leave it as Payge is gone!!

So instead. Payge is going to have her own book called, uhm... Something with Vincent in it .. I haven't figured that out yet but I wanted to get an opinion from you guys first and possibly book title ideas and also, if you can, a book cover?

Don't judge or laugh at me but I was actually thinking, if I was to write this book, to name it *Vincent's Due*

Lol. Don't laugh! Or hate!

Because, like how Payge is pregnant and people have the saying, like, baby's due date and those stuff.

but anyways .. That's just an idea I had. If you have any cool names, comment!!

And tell me what you think about starting her book. I'd start it immediately because although I already have an entire story line for the other story what I told you about before, I was thinking on starting that one over the summer vacation?

But this one would be fun and cute!! Plus everyone loves Payge!! And now that she's pregnant there's gonna be hell up in those mountains!!

So... Comment.. Next update on VT will be Saturday and much longer than this so don't worry my people!

Xoxo
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