Update later than usual but I've recently became busy with some extra activities and I'm not longer free to write as I like :'( ... But I hope you guys do enjoy this chapter ... It's gonna be long and please guys, vote ! And comment .. I'd really appreciate it.
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"We need to talk."

"Bye," His deep voice spoke then there was the door slamming in my face. Not surprised though.

"Open up!" I demanded as I began pounding on the door not caring if it annoyed him.

"Go away Alexis," He growled out and to that I ignored and kept banging on the door.

"Open the frigging door! You threw me down and now you don't have the courtesy of talking to me about it. What's your deal!" I yelled and kept up banging my knuckles against the wooden door that was actually resulting in causing me pain.

"Frigging? Really? You're ridiculous you know that?" Said Payne's voice from the other side of the door."Go away Alexis! "

"No!" I yelled back ignoring how he made fun of my own version of obscenities, I did my last knock in a bang and gathered up my courage. Time to push my luck some more, I already started and with Payge not too far away I felt confident with myself and my anger was building up over any sensible thought my mind could have come up with for me to shut up and leave.

"You know what! You're an asshole! I want to talk to you and you refuse me? Its okay though because I know why" giving him a second to realize that I called him an asshole I went on again. "You're a coward."

Well that had the door opening.

In a rush the door flung open and an angry Payne came out but before I could even process what was happening I was up against the wall behind me and my throat was in his large hands with his height towering over me and his face starring down at me with pure anger in his eyes.

I crossed the line, yes, but right now I didn't care. He crossed the line by throwing me down.

"HOW DARE YOU!" he growled out in my face and I kept my gaze steady and swallowed my fear as his grip tightened on my throat. "I'm not a coward. I refuse to tolerate your annoying presence, you are the most infuriating person I've ever met and I could do much worse to you than throw you down." He paused as a grin spread across his face because of my clawing against his hands. They were getting even tighter. Panic started to flare inside me but I needed to see this again, the beast in action.

"It would be so easy for me to snap your little neck and watch your body go still as you die. I thought you were smart by hating me, running after me for reasons for why I do what I do proves you very stupid now. You're Alpha using you like he did makes sence, he was right to do so after all."

It was almost as if the world paused for me to the focus only on what he said and when I did, it hurt. That was one of the worse things someone could have told me. Saying that I deserved what my Alpha did to me even when he didn't know everything that, that sick man made me do, some of those things I refuse to even think about anymore because if I do there's no doubt I'll break down.
I felt a hot tear slide down my face and I saw what I always saw in Payne's face, nothing.

Payne's grip against my throat was getting tighter by the minute and the grin on his face didn't move, staying there and haunting me as I struggled for breath. I could easy call Payge from in the other room, all I had to do was scream or create some type of noise to alert her, that was if she still stood by her word. I didn't know what to trust when it came to these two but either way I wasn't going to call her. I needed to do this for myself. I've lived a hard life that might not be so long but before I was taken in here I craved freedom and maybe that freedom I craved only came one way. Releasing the grip I had on Payne's hand I took both my hands and pressed for him to go even tighter. The surprise that washed through his face was pleasing and the grin on his face quickly fell. "P-put yourself out off y-your misery then." I stammered through short breaths.

Confused was one thing I never thought Payne Vincent could be but here he was with his perfectly arched eyebrows shooting up high on his face causing tiny wrincles to form on his forehead.

"Do it," My voice was hoarse and I knew that from the way his face was getting blurry and how my throat felt like sand paper to every swallow I made that I was getting closer to the end. My lungs were screaming in my chest but I couldn't help the pain but instead I welcomed it. I wanted to die. I had nothing to live for. I didn't have a mate that loved me and didn't suffer from his own demons or a happy, safe place to call my home. My entire life had been hell and the short time my parents were around didn't really account to much but I was thankful for the little they gave me. Not being loved isn't something new to me since everyone either walks out on me or hurts me.

Tears were continuously falling down my face so the blurry sight wasn't only because I was about to die. I've known Payne for two weeks now and he's been a terrible mate, nothing like prince charming, more like the opposite. A cold blooded person that couldn't feel if you sliced off his arm.

Taking my last shaky breath that didn't do me any good, I closed my eyes and welcomed the darkness. His hands didn't losen around my neck and I was positive he wasn't going to let me go. He was tired of me and so was I of him. That was my last thought as the darkness fully consumed me.

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Payne's P.O.V

She wanted this, she wanted to die. After everything I put her through and every hurtful word I said, she wanted to die. I knew I crossed a line with the Alpha stuff and the tears that stained her face proved so but I didn't mean it. Nobody deserves to be beaten and abused by someone you're supposed to look up to. I know this first hand. Although that cute little fact didn't change the fact that I am who I am, Alexis probably thinks she knows my entire story but she's so wrong. She knows the story people tell their children so they won't go off into the woods but what about the real one that really happened all those years ago.

If she truly knew everything she'd be more terrified of me, she'd hate me even more but its not like that was the problem.

Alexis was a different type of girl, she's weak but she acts like wonder woman just to not be seen as weak. She has a natural beauty that no amount of makeup could ever create and her blue eyes speak of every pain she's been through in her past.

It's a terrible shame though, after being abandoned by her parents whether they died or not and then abused in multiple ways by her Alpha and pack you'd think she suffered enough and would run off, find freedom and a mate that would love and give her the happiness she deserves.

But no. Life's a bitch. She got me. I don't know how to express feelings toward anyone not even my twin sister and I'm not ashamed to admit it, its the truth.

I should have let her go, instead of keeping her in the cage room and then using her as my servant. I should have let her go and give her the freedom to find happiness else where but no, I'm selfish as fuck.

I want her here. It's sick but I like the way my heart leaps as I see her face and the way she tries to hide her attraction toward me and the little blush that spreads across her nose whenever I do something that she sees as unexpected. Like earlier when I offered her a seat with me when I ate the sandwich she made for me. Her blush made me feel some sort of warm bubble stuff going on in my stomach. Weird.

With her smooth skin beneath my palm and my anger long gone and in its place was a sorrow that I'd never felt before caused because of the fact that I can't be the mate for her. I can't give her what she deserves. She truly is a sweet girl that deserves a knight in shining armor and I'm not him but like I said before I'm Fucking selfish.

As her eyes began to slowly close I gave her a second to fall into a sleep because of her lack of oxygen. When she was out I released my hand and quickly began pumping my palm against her chest to start up the respiratory system, I was about to do CPR but then her chest raised and her breathing was coming back.

I was almost worried that she wouldn't have made it but I knew she had a strong heart and her body was too accustomed to fighting to give up now, even if she wanted to.

Her brain had shut down because of the whole lack of oxygen stuff and now she was partially unconcious as her eyes tried to flutter open but failed miserably.

Lifting her in my arms was one of the strangest things I'd ever done. Her body was -no surprise- the perfect fit against mine with her small form and her warm breath caressing the side of my neck. I'd never been touched before really and I was basically naked in front of her in my briefs alone. With my chest revealed and the only thing between us was her clothes I felt very uneasy with the whole touching shit.

Payge and I didn't do the hug, hand shake or anything like that really and there was never a need to lift Payge up like how I held Alexis.

It felt awkward, strange and uncomfortably warm with her face in the crook of my neck where I held her head in place with one of my hands, the other hand behind her knee and her legs hanging off the ground. Her arms were around my torso with her fingers curling into my side and I inwardly screamed. My skin was on fire everywhere we made skin to skin contact but the fire wasn't a painful sting, it was a flame that demanded more heat.

Her weight was nothing to my strenght but I carefully walked over to my door and opened it up revealing my dull, empty room. Almost as dead as the rest of the house was.

Walking her over to my bed and resting her down I remembered how she refused to sleep in the bed in her room, she thought she didn't deserve it or probably wasn't used to such things, and knowing that had me craving to give her the world but that was my wolf side coming out and wanting to serve his mate. I, on the other hand didn't know shit about how to make Alexis happy and I know I'd mess it up so why even bother? She'll get hurt and I'll have to add that onto the list of shit I hate myself for.

As Alexis laid down onto my bed, the covers creating a dark frame around her body I was afraid she'd be frighten of where she slept when she got up but then she rolled onto her side and grabbed some of the sheets from around her and pulled it to her face inhaling deeply, she seemed at rest and that was all I could give her, for now at least.

Watching her lying there. Her dirty blonde hair messy and creating a halo around her head, her eyes were closed but the glow in her never faded. Her pink full lips were paler than usual and dry even. She was absolutely beautiful and not even on my best day I'd ever think the Goddess above would have ever given me this.

Fuck was I supposed to do now?
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