she used to smile
because she didn't know what to do
now she smiled
because she didn't know what to feel
she used to love
things, people, thoughts
maybe even her long lost
blue shorts

but
every song
now felt wrong
every smile
felt fake
like all their happiness
was on stake

all her words
felt like swords
cutting in her smile
it has actually been a while
since she used them

disappearing is great
till someone misses you
and you don't want to
hurt anyone

so just look
as if everything were fine
hold on to the shine
and listen to them
say
everyone is fucked up
but you
never tell them
me too