This isn't really something that happened to me, per se, just something that I hear my family (mostly my parents) throw around way too often.

They always talk about how suicide is a permanent answer for a temporary problem. While I do agree with them on that front, they also say things like "suicide is a coward's way out", "suicide is selfish", "the people who commit suicide are just keeping themselves from getting better."

And just... how dare you?

Suicide is a coward's way out? They're keeping themselves from getting better? As someone who has tried to no end to make everything better for myself, someone who has tried almost every trick in the book to try and better my outlook on life, myself, and everything in general, who tries so hard to differentiate myself from what I currently believe and tries to be a better person to both myself and others, but is never taken seriously since I'm always made fun of for my 'sudden change of attitude', and who has genuinely contemplated on the subject, recently even.

How can you even try and say we're trying to make things worse for ourselves, when we try absolutely everything to make it better before we commit the inevitable? Some of us work our asses off to even consider ourselves to be humans worthy of life, love, or happiness, and we don't want to stay depressed, we only want to die because all of our efforts seem to be fruitless and this is the absolute last solution. A way to nullify pain, a way to end all the suffering and unfairness both the world and ourselves throw at us. Some of us are the strongest people in the world for dealing with it until we find solutions, and those of us who can't take it anymore, no matter our efforts, are suddenly lazy, self-destructive bags of shit when we just can't take anymore of our own issues?

And the selfish part, sometimes it's become to unbearable for us to handle anymore, and we see it as a way of finally being happy, or finally being free of whatever pain we feel. It's like a form of disgustingly awful self-care, as much as I hate to say it. I don't want people to continue committing suicide, and I don't really want to. All of us want to get better, we all suffer with it in different ways that you can't comprehend, and, hell, sometimes people with the same issues can't comprehend it. The people dealing with their own form of depression can't even identify it. It's too complex of a system, despite being so common of an illness. We're not trying to be selfish... we're desperate to find a way to just get better. In fact, you saying we're lazy/selfish/cowards makes you enablers, and part of the problem.

You think someone who has struggled with all these issues, finds difficulty in distinguishing self-worth, and believes themselves to be just the scum of the Earth want to hear that what they're thinking of doing makes them even worse of a person than what they already thought they were? No. It drives them over the edge more. It's driven me over the edge plenty of times.

If you insult someone over their feelings of desperation, and a need to feel okay, you are fucking scum.

And maybe you should actually try and help these people who are crying out for help rather than insulting them. Then you'd actually be saving them from the grim fate that no one really wants, the fate that has been saddeningly growing everpresent in our society and needs to stop.

Try actually helping instead of being part of the problem.