my mom came in to yell at me to be kind to my sister, but it's not my fault that she is a tattletale and that she flat out insults me sometimes. my mom was guilt-tripping me and stuff saying things like, "Oh you must not want to be part of this family", "you act just like your dad", and "You act like you don't wanna live in this house and you'd rather be somewhere else". I hate being called my father. she knows this, but i knew that if i said something i would be grounded, so i didn't. and i would rather be somewhere else if i wasn't being insulted and guilt-tripped all day. she also said that I never act like i wanna be anywhere. the thing is, i'm trying to get diagnosed with Autism, or ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder) and i'm not good at 'acting' the 'right' way. meanwhile my sister was in the room, playing with my things. it ticks me off when people use my things without asking if i'm not friends with them or i don't know them very well, or i just don't like them (ex. a parent's friend touching my books). When they both leave i break down crying, but because i'm sleeping in the same room that my sister plays in, she comes in a few moments later because she wanted to play. when inside she starts to say things like "You better not cry" and "Your just fake crying, crimson" while playing, i started crying again, until she called out for my mom to tell her i was crying. i quickly sucked it up, instantly saying i was fine. for the next minute she would play, then stare at me, laugh, then repeat. eventually she left because she didn't want me to cry when she was playing.

and if youre asking, yes, my family does take my things without asking, and it is the reason it ticks me off when people use my stuff or look through my stuff without asking. also before we got home, i do karate and i hate it so much, it is so annoying, and they kinda berate you a little bit on how you could be better. anyways so i was in the car with my mom and little sister, and i started crying a little bit because i have been telling my mom since october on how i don't wanna go anymore. She told me that classes began again next week, so i was instantly feeling betrayed because she knows how much i don't want to go. my sister spoke up and she was like "Crimson, youre too old to cry" (mind you i'm in 6th grade or year 7, depending if youre british or not). meanwhile my sister cries over every little thing that doesn't go her way. my mom agreed with her, telling me not to cry.

anyways, so that's all i have, if you have any suggestions on what to do, other than just watching every little thing i say or do, please comment. i have no idea what to do in this situation right now.