It's not fair it's not fair not fair not fair not fair I want to start hitting my arms I want to start my self harm again but I'm scared I'm scared I'm scared I don't know what to do it's not fair life is unfair I feel nothing I don't know if I'm sad or mad or something I don't think I want to die I don't want to die I don't want to die I don't want to be forgotten please don't forget me please please please help me feel better please I pray to god everything sucks I'm scared but I'm not afraid to self harm myself which is slapping my arms until they have purple on them just please I can't help it make me forget please I've been a good person I think I don't even know anymore I deserve to die I'm a horrible person I suck I'm a failure my cat is all that I have right now I love her please don't take her away from me please please please stop it I don't want her to die I just want to live forever my dad sucks my life feels so not just right but life sucks I'm happy I'm grateful but I'm nothing i want to be better I want better I don't know anymore I have depression and autism and I have panic attacks I'm scared just leave me alone just make all the sadness go away please help help help help help please please please please please get out of my head you dark thoughts I don't want anyone to leave me please don't FUCKING LEAVE ME ALONE DONT LEAVE ME DONT LEAVE ME

I know I sound horrible I sound like FUCKING CRYBABY I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I hate myself