TW- dysphoria, swearing

Why does my body and face have to be like this?

I'm so fucking ugly.

No wonder I can't find a girlfriend, or anyone for the matter.

Even If I wanted to use makeup to make myself feel prettier, I can't even apply it right.

And why does my chest have to be big? Why can't I just have a flat chest, or a boy's body? 

I just wanna rip my skin, bones, and muscles apart. I just wanna be a pile of blood. 

Or a frog, being a frog would be nice...