My parents won't ever leave me alone. Now, I think my mother found out about me having this secret IPad. That's just great! My father got really mad at me a couple days ago because I had told a couple of my friends about my life and they apparently went to him about it. Of course, that led to my father scolding me for an hour and banning me of all electronics for the rest of the time I leave underneath their roof. Not to mention, he gave me a bunch more responsibilities from out of the blue, most of which, I don't know how to do. My mother hates me and I can't have a full conversation with her without her glaring at me. It's depressing. Then, she asks me to sew some patches on a sash, even though I don't know how to sew. So I tried and ended up pricking myself with the needle. I hate blood and it made me really nervous. Now, my thumb is throbbing like crazy and it took me forever just to type this. My parents just don't know when to leave me alone. I just want to be left to my thoughts, but even that seems to be too much to ask theses days. I try to make friendly conversation with my own mother, but she just seems to hate me now. I now know that they really do regret the day I was born. While my father was scolding me he even said I could move out and go with the government. Move to a foster home or something. I really want to, but if I did that, he'd hunt me down and drag me back.

Now, my mother just had a chat with me. She says people are always asking her why I look depressed all the time. She told me my attitude is something I could control and whatever. So what, she wants me to pretend to be happy in front of people so her image isn't destroyed!?! I can't deal with this anymore. It's too much...