I need to go to sleep. But I can't. "Why can't you go to sleep?" You are probably asking. Well, my heart hurts at the moment. Not just physically, but emotionally as well. My father was yelling at me for something today and my little brother pushes his way into the conversation and tells my father all the things he does right, even though he listens to no one. Then, my dad goes on to rant about how my stupidity will get me nowhere and I should be practicing for school next year instead of sitting around, occasionally cleaning up here and there. I just feel emotionally numb. Before, when my father yelled at me, I cried like the crybaby I am. That, of course, led to more yelling which led to more crying. But now, I keep a straight face and leave my sobs for when I'm alone. Why do I bother trying anymore? I'm sure my parents regret the day I was born, because I know I sure do.