if i see 1 more comment abt how jungkooks gonna poop im blockin yall

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"This place still smells like beans."

Taehyung turned and chuckled at Jungkook's sudden comment. He'd been so quiet lately, so Taehyung was happy to see some normality in his actions.

"Yeah? Still don't know why," Taehyung snickered, and Jungkook almost got a small smile on his face- until a door in the hallway opened, and Jungkook got startled and grabbed Taehyung's hand tightly.

They were walking to Taehyung's apartment, the morning after. Jungkook had been in the hospital for the whole day yesterday. They reached Taehyung's apartment and the boy opened the door, or at least tried to- but then sighed.

"Can I get my hand for a sec, baby? Just need to open the door." Taehyung said softly, and Jungkook looked at him with big eyes and pulled his hand back, nodding quickly. Taehyung opened the door, but then felt Jungkook grip onto the back of his shirt.

The door opened and Jungkook rushed in behind Taehyung. Taehyung watched as Jungkook looked around the room, and then looked at Taehyung.

"You can sleep in my room." Taehyung explained, and Jungkook nodded. "And you?" Jungkook asked.

"I'll sleep on the couch." Taehyung said, and Jungkook nodded, not responding much to that. Jungkook walked towards Taehyung's room.

"I'll make lunch. Sandwiches or-"

"I'm not hungry." Jungkook replied, and Taehyung sighed. He walked up to Jungkook, leaning against the wall, seeing Jungkook enter his bedroom.

"You haven't eaten anything since lunch yesterday."

"I'm not hungry," Jungkook repeated, and Taehyung pursed his lips.

"Okay- then we'll eat dinner early. Do you wanna go take a bath?" Taehyung asked, and Jungkook nodded, getting up and walking into the washroom, closing the door behind him.

Taehyung sighed to himself.

Everything felt empty. Jungkook seemed empty. Ridden. Low spirited. Taehyung doesn't blame him at all- he knows Jungkook will be like this for a while. It just hurt Taehyung to have to see Jungkook like this.

Taehyung was about to go set up the sofa bed, but then heard a loud cry from the washroom. Taehyung's eyes widened and he rushed inside the room and to the washroom, knocking on the door.

"Kook? You alright?" Taehyung asked, worried.

"D-don't come in!" Jungkook shrieked, and Taehyung frowned.

"I won't! I won't come in. Is everything ok?"

Jungkook was stood in front of the mirror, his shirt taken off, eyes widened, face pale.

He had bruises everywhere. A big scar on his collarbone, and small cuts everywhere else. Jungkook turned a little, and then placed his hand over his mouth to conceal his cry, seeing a big bruise on his waist. The bruise that was formed because the men kept grabbing him so tightly and-

"Kook please- tell me you're fine,"

"I-I'm okay- sorry." Jungkook stammered. Taehyung sighed from the other side. "Okay just.. tell me if something's wrong."

Jungkook continued looking at himself in the mirror. He didn't recognize his own body. It seemed.. wrong.

Jungkook turned around from the mirror, taking his trousers and boxers off quickly. Just take a bath. Jungkook breathed out and stepped into the bathtub. He slid down and sat in the empty bathtub. Jungkook reached out for the water faucet, and then saw his thighs.

Bruises.

Jungkook ignored it, turning the water on. He sat back in the tub, waiting for the water to fill it up. Jungkook stared ahead, trying to rid his mind of all those thoughts, and think good things.

Once the tub was full of water, Jungkook grabbed a soap bar and started scrubbing his arms.

Such a slut.

He started scrubbing harder.

Useless little whore. Nothing like your father or brother.

Jungkook felt tears fill his eyes, scrubbing harder. Scrubbing harder and harder and harder-

The night flashed in his mind. The image of those men grabbing him like he's nothing and touching his body and fucking him and him screaming at them to stop-

Jungkook cried out, because as much as he scrubbed his skin- the thoughts wouldn't go. The bruises wouldn't wash off. The scar wouldn't heal with soap. His mind wouldn't recovered with a bath.

Jungkook threw the soap to the ground, tears filling his eyes. He leaned back in the tub, letting his eyes close slowly.

"Jungkook!"

Jungkook's eyes flew open, and he sat up instantly, feeling the cold water. He stood up, realizing he fell asleep in the tub.

"You've been in there for more than an hour, doll. Come out." Taehyung's voice said, and Jungkook climbed out of the tub, grabbing a towel and drying himself quickly.

He wrapped the towel around himself and then reached for the door. He opened it and widened his eyes when he saw Taehyung. Jungkook closed the door instantly.

"Can you leave please." Jungkook said, and Taehyung's breath hitched.

"Kook, I've-"

"Please." Jungkook said again, and Taehyung hummed and then walked to the door, closing it behind him. Taehyung sighed, rubbing his face in anguish once he was out. This was going to be hard.

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Taehyung woke up instantly when he heard crying.

"Stop-" Jungkook's voice came from his bedroom, and Taehyung pushed the blanket off him and ran to his bedroom, opening the door and rushing inside.

Jungkook was on his bed, moving around in the sheets, eyes closed. "D-don't - please- stop!" Jungkook cried, and Taehyung started shaking his shoulder.

"Kook, get up."

"No- please!" Jungkook cried in his sleep, and Taehyung started shaking him harder.

"Jungkook!" Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook's eyes opened. "You were dreaming, it's-"

Jungkook pushed Taehyung away, sitting up and shuffling to the side. "Don't touch me!" Jungkook screamed, moving to the corner of the bed.

Taehyung's eyes widened and he gulped, eyebrows furrowing in worry. "Baby, it's me, I'm not going to hurt you-"

"You are!" Jungkook shouted, and Taehyung frowned. "Y-you're like all of them! D-don't come near me-" Jungkook said, voice shaking in fear when he saw Taehyung take a step closer.

"Okay- okay but- I'm-I'm not going to hurt you. I'm right here. I'll keep you safe-"

"You didn't!" Jungkook said, and then had to take a pause, tears flowing down his face, words stuck in the back of his throat. "Why-why didn't you come earlier? You let them- y-you let them rape me!" Jungkook cried, grabbing the blanket and sobbing into it, his cries loud and hurting Taehyung's insides.

Taehyung felt like breaking down as well, and he shook his head. "I d-didn't, doll, y-you- If I knew, baby I- I tried to come earlier a-a-and when I did I-I killed them, baby, I-"

"You s-should've j-j-just killed me instead," Jungkook let out weakly, voice breaking. Taehyung felt tears rise in his eyes at Jungkook acting like this.

"No, baby- I-"

"Why? W-why did- why did my father let them?!" Jungkook cried, practically a child, shaking in fear and wracked with his tears. Taehyung moved closer to him, sitting down beside him.

"He's horrible, that's why. And-and he'll suffer for that, Kook, he will. I promise." Taehyung said, and Jungkook shook his head.

"You p-promise a lot of things-"

"But this time I promise to God I will always keep you safe, baby. I'm going to put you above me- b-because I love you so much, doll, and I don't want to see you hurt." Taehyung said softly, voice breaking too. "I-I d-don't want that t-to happen to you ev-ever again, baby." Taehyung whispered, tears filling his eyes.

Jungkook looked up at him, and put his hand out. "Promise?" Jungkook whispered, and Taehyung nodded with all his heart.

"Okay. You'll keep me safe." Jungkook said, feeling his sorrow go away slowly. Jungkook lay down on his bed, clutching his blanket tightly. "Safe." Jungkook said, and Taehyung nodded with a small smile, crouching down and pressing a kiss to Jungkook's shoulder.

"Always." Taehyung whispered, and Jungkook felt his eyes drift slowly.

Taehyung stood up and walked out of the door, about to close it, when-

"Taehyung?" Jungkook piped, and Taehyung looked back to see Jungkook. "K-keep the door open. Please." Jungkook said in a small voice, and Taehyung smiled and nodded, not closing the door.

Safe.

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"Good morning. Are you alright?" Taehyung asked, and saw Jungkook pad over to the 2 person dining table and sit down.

"Yeah." Jungkook said, and Taehyung watched him grip the glass of orange juice and take a measly sip, but then place it back down, pushing it away.

"Are you sure? 'Cause last night you had a-"

"I know. I'm fine now." Jungkook said quickly, and Taehyung nodded, not wanting to distress him further. "I actually wanted to talk to you." Jungkook said, and Taehyung looked at him with a small smile.

"Yeah? What is it?"

"That-that day. The day you- um- you told me all those things. That you loved me, and-"

"I do. So much." Taehyung said, and Jungkook almost smiled a little, but stopped himself.

"Y-yeah. Um- you said something else, too." Jungkook said, and Taehyung felt a little confused.

"What?"

"You said.. you said you could take me somewhere else." Jungkook said, and Taehyung furrowed his eyebrows. "Out of Busan. Y-you said you could put me on a train and-"

"Oh!" Taehyung said, eyes growing big. "Yeah! I could, Kook. Do you really want to?" Taehyung asked, and Jungkook took a deep breath and nodded.

"Y-yes. I just- I don't wanna be in Busan. Too many people- too much disturbance. I wanna go to someplace.. quiet? Like- may-maybe in the hillside. Or-or beach. Or-"

"I get it." Taehyung said, getting up from the seat and going to grab his phone. "We could go to a farmland. My father used to own a farm! We used to go there in the summer sometimes. I don't mind moving, honestly, I kinda wanna get out of this life too, I mean-"

"No, Tae." Jungkook said, and Taehyung looked at him, a bit confused. "Not we."

Taehyung froze.

"Just me. Not us. I want to go alone."

Taehyung looked at Jungkook with a confused look, and then let out a small chuckle. "You don't- Kook, alone? That's unsafe, and-"

"You promised you'd help." Jungkook snapped, and Taehyung's breath hitched.

"I know that- but-but what about-" Taehyung started, and Jungkook looked confused. "What about us?"

Jungkook paused, and blinked in confusion. "There is no us." Jungkook spoke bluntly, and Taehyung let his eyes trail away, heart crumbling.

"O-oh. But- Kook, I-I love-"

"I know. But this isn't good for me, Tae. None of this is. I need something new. I need to meet people my age and see things I've never seen. I wanna cut everything off. I don't wanna link anything to my past. I'm sorry." Jungkook said, and Taehyung gave him a quick smile.

"No no- don't apologize. Don't worry. It's fine. I understand. I'd do the same too." Taehyung said, and Jungkook nodded. "And- I'll help. I did promise." Taehyung said, and Jungkook returned the smile.

Yeah, he'd help. And he promised. And he wants Jungkook to be happy. But it'll still hurt. But, that's fine. He deserves that. And Jungkook deserves only the best things.

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