Ash wasn't on the bus, as I had expected him not to be. I regretted that moment everday. I didn't deserve Ash after I had betrayed him like this.

Getting into school and to our math lesson, Ash done something that reminded me of him last year, when he was forced into breaking up with me. He sat on a seperate table, away from us all and kept to himself all day.

"It's ok, Serena" Misty said at lunch in an attempt to comfort me.

"Yeah, he doesn't deserve you" Dawn added. The emotion just continued to build inside me and I couldn't take it.

"You're all wrong. It is my fault things are like this now. I don't deserve Ash" I ran off in a flood of tears for the millionth time.

Somebody sat beside me and sighed. I looked up with my blurred eyes to find Ash next to me.

"Look, Serena. I will always feel the same way around you. I just don't think I can forgive you yet. Until then, we need some time apart. I don't want you to get upset anymore, Serena" He looked at me with meaningful eyes.

"I don't deserve you Ash, it's all my fault" I buried my head into my hands.

"Serena..." He hesitated for a moment "You deserve anything and everything. Just keep on smiling, for me?"

He wiped the tears from my face. I looked up and smiled. Ash nodded and then continued to walk away. Keep on smiling, Serena.

I decided to go and see Calem in hospital and see if he was ok. He had a small bandage around his head and he looked messed up.

"I am sorry, about all of this" Calem said "I was drunk and I am an idiot"

"No, Calem. You didn't deserve this" I gestured around the hospital.

"I have a feeling that soon you will say I deserve everything I get" Calem sighed deeply and I was confused.

"Of course I wont, Calem. I promise"

We spent five minutes talking before I had to go home. When would this nightmare of a rollercoaster end?

I lay in my bed, deep in thought. I wonder if the Halloween party we do every year will still be on.

I took out my phone and called up Dawn.

"Hey Dawn, I was wondering, what is happening on Halloween?"

"Duh, a party, same as ever. You can come can't you?" She seemed interested to know why I asked.

"Of course, silly. I was just wondering. Ok, I have to go now, bye!" I turned my phone off and collapsed onto my bed, exhausted from all the crying. I couldn't cry anymore. Just keep smiling, Ash told me. For him, I will smile. I wonder if he will come to the party, I don't even know if he remembers that it was at that time, that the rollercoaster started. When would it end?

I spent the rest of the week trying to be as happy as I could, after all Ash told me he didn't want to see me upset. Maybe he still cared for me, I could never stop caring for him.

Ash still avoided the group all week and only contacted the guys. Dawn always commented on his behaviour. I don't think she likes Ash. Well, I love Ash.

Then, the day came. One year ago, we started dating. One year later, it seemed like it was all over.

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A little short, I am working on ideas for other chapters, though. Also, we are nearlly on 1,000 reads for the first book. I am really suprised, I only expected at least 100-200. Thanks for the support ;)