A whole month of school went by as fast as a week and I was blown away by the homework. It gave me an excuse to see Ash a few times a week, as I couldn't look him in the eyes without remembering that one mistake. One stupid mistake. I felt like going back to sleep but the day had already begun.

"Serena, sweetie. I have left some breakfast on the table and I am going to be work" My mom called from the bottom of the stairs. I got up and wandered down to the kitchen.

"Right mom, have a good day at work" I slumped my shoulders and lazily sat down.

I zoned out at the table and slowly exhaled. I must have been daydreaming because my toast was stone cold. I dumped it into the bin. I wasn't hungry anyway.

I ran back upstairs and my thoughts of Ash were so overwhelming that I screamed.

The scream was met with silence as dead as the night.

Frustrated by myself, I buried my head into my pillow, before a knock on the door broke the ever lasting silence.

I rushed into my outfit and ran down the stairs.

Please don't be Ash I begged as I opened the door. It was Cilan, for some reason.

"Erm.. may I come in?" He asked. Cilan looked serious and I could read it in his face. As he walked in and I closed the door, I span around and began to beg.

"Please don't tell him, Cilan!" I started crying and hugging his legs, but he stared at me until I stopped.

He sighed deeply "Sorry, Serena but you have to tell him, it will hurt him less. Lets try and think about everyone else too" Was Cilan suggesting I was being selfish?

"Get out of my house, please" I angrily said, before turning to him with fire in my eyes "GET OUT"

He slowly walked to the door "Well you leave me no choice. Either you tell him by the end of next week, or I will" Cilan slammed the door shut and I instantly regretted answering it. I knew me and Ash were never meant to be but why did it have to go like this.

I spent the rest of the day in bed, crying. Nothing was going to heal the pain. I ran Cilans words through my head one last time. Everyone else? I knew he was right. Now that he knew, keeping it a secret would ruin their friendship. Also, Calem would get the other end of the stick. I didn't want amyone to get hurt but myself. I deserve it after all. One stupid mistake. One life costing problem.

That night, as I refused to get out of bed, there was a text in the group chat.

'Lets go out to the park tomorrow guys and girls? It is meant to be great weather'

'Sure'

'Sounds great'

Everyone replied instantly and I stared at the messages until a particular message from Ash popped up.

'You coming, Serena? I haven't seen you all week'

I mentally felt like jumping out of my window to give myself an excuse to say no.

'Sure, what time?' My body replied. I mentally said no and replied yes.

'About 12 or so?'

'Sure, see you then :)'

I couldn't bear the texting any longer and went to sleep. Cilan said one week and I realised something that made the dilemma one hundred times worse. It was October. Only a few weeks until our one year anniversary. I swear I never cried more in my life.

One stupid mistake.