D I A B O L I K L O V E R S

Sakamaki Subaru X Reader

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[ to protect your smile ]

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"Ayato-kun... S- Stop.." I could hear the poor girl's voice squirm as she begged for the merciless vampire to stop stealing blood from her. But by heart, I was glad that she suffered. Ever since Komori Yui had stepped into this mansion, the torture over me had lessened a lot. If she ever were to disappear, or the boys should ever turn their attention to me, I would be doomed. I definitely don't want that to happen, which is why I was grateful to her.

Selfish beings, aren't we?

I tried to avert my attention and walked away. I had much more work to do, rather than being grateful towards Yui, or pitying her.

As I did my chores, I thought about each day of my life after becoming the prisoner of the Sakamaki household. Komori Yui is the bride, and no other human being should have known anything about the messed up past of this family. Unfortunately, I found out. So to prevent the word from spreading everywhere, the head of the family, Sakamaki Reiji made me their prisoner. It's been 3 years, I've gotten used to all the pain. But when Yui made it less, I was truly happy.

Although all of them never hurt me. One of the vampires had never bothered to waste some of his attention on me, let alone crave my blood. It's like I didn't exist in his world, which sometimes would make me happy, sometimes sad. Did I not matter at all? Or was it that he wanted to lessen the pain for me?

Sakamaki Subaru.
Bittersweetness was laced around the voice inside my head as I recalled his name.

And among all of them, he was the only one to pique my interest.

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After my work ended, I was heading to my room. It took 3 years for Reiji to provide me an actual room, huh. On the way, I heard some noises from the kitchen. As any normal person would do, I should've went in and asked the person who caused it about what was wrong. But I didn't, because when I peeked in, I saw Subaru. He looked like he could kill anyone right now, so I decided to pretend this never happened and walked away.

Well, at least I tried.

"Hey, get back here," His husky voice rang through the area, and I immediately made for the run. I started running as fast as I could. And as bad as my luck is, I accidentally crossed my room so that I couldn't hide there. I looked back for once to see that Subaru was chasing me. It literally made my heart jump with fear. He's never been like this before. He was catching up with me, so I decided to change route. I ran straight out of the mansion and into the garden.

After a few minutes, I had reached the part of the garden where Subaru always used to stay. I even saw him biting Yui here once. The white roses were beautiful, but I had no time to admire them. I thought I had evaded, suddenly something gripped on my wrist harshly and twisted it, turning me around. I screamed with pain, but he covered my mouth.

"Mmh-!" I protested, struggling against his grip.

"Stay still! I need blood," He said and brushed my hair out of my neck, stabbing it with his fangs. I could feel the blood oozing out, and he sucked it faster than anyone. It was always a different kind of pain, a vampire's bite. You couldn't scream for it, but it didn't feel nothing too. I let out whimpers and I struggled, but he was too strong.

"Gah, don't move! Otherwise I'll kill you!" He suddenly scowled at me, then bit me again. This time even harder. For some reason, I stopped resisting. I gave in, realizing that I have no choice than to wait for him to let me go.

He drank my blood even after he was satisfied, as if he would end up killing me. At a time, my body couldn't take it anymore. Even though I had to go through Reiji's indescribable torture, I'm still human. So I fainted, my last memory being his grip becoming less harsh but stronger.

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"Hngg..." I made a weird sound as I woke up. I opened my eyes to see that I was in an unfamiliar room. I knew almost all the rooms in the mansion, but I never saw this one.

"W- Where am I...?" I asked no one as I sat up.

"My room." The last voice I heard before fainting spoke up. I turned my head towards the direction, he was leaning against the wall beside the door of the room.

"Subaru's room.." I mumbled.

"You stayed long enough, now get out." He spoke harshly as he walked to me and looked down at me with cruel eyes. I frowned at him, but it didn't effect him one bit.

"Why did you drink from me? When there's Yui with such a special kind of blood.." I said, unable to hide the hint of jealousy from my voice.

Is it insane that I was jealous of her? She got all the attention from the boys, everyone craved her blood. It was truly a blessing for me, then why did my heart beg for doom? And it wasn't everyone's attention I wanted, I just wished that the man standing in front of me would at least notice my existence sometimes. It's like I wished for him to suck my blood. He just did a while ago... I was shocked as I realized that I was actually satisfied and happy about it.

I lost myself in my train of thoughts as I stared into Subaru's scarlet eyes.

Beautiful, aren't they...

"Does it matter to you? And what the hell are you looking at?" He growled at me, snapping me out. I shook my head, then got off of the bed. I walked towards the door, but stopped midway as I heard him starting to speak.

"[Name], you think your blood isn't special, right?" He said. "Yui always goes against us when we drink from her. But today, you didn't resist. It gave a different kind of sweetness to it. That's something you can't get elsewhere."

I caught up to what he was speaking about.

"You liked it when I bit you, didn't you?"

"No!" I resisted instantly. I felt the heat rush to my cheeks, I was definitely not liking it. But I don't know why, I didn't feel like resisting to him. He's the most different out of everyone, and it wasn't just his fault. Everyone else pushed him away too. So somewhere inside my heart, I felt pity for him.
When he bit me, I could feel how desperate and needy he was at that moment. I couldn't possibly go against him anymore, so I didn't try. Did that bring him the so called sweetness?

"You have no right to talk back to me." He suddenly turned around and growled at me. I was intimidated by him, taking a few steps back. Leaving him would be the best option now so I headed back to my room.

Call me insane, but I like Subaru.

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I waited at the rose garden quietly, making sure to finish my chores first. I knew Subaru would come here, so I waited. I couldn't deny the fact that I was attracted to him. It didn't matter how much he pushed me away, how much he pushed everyone away. I decided not to go against my own feelings and I accepted them.

"What on earth are you doing here?" I heard the ever familiar voice, and it brought a smile to my heart. Oh God, I'm totally infatuated.

"N- Nothing." I stuttered, taking in his intimidating profile.

"Are you going to be stuck with me like a leech from now on? Such an attention-seeker.." He mumbled.

Maybe I'm being too clingy and fast...

I started to walk away, until I heard him speak again. "Argh, you humans are so complicated... Where are you going?"

"Does it matter to you?"

I don't know what got into me, I suddenly decided to give him the taste of his own medicine. Probably it won't matter to him, but I still wanted to try. And the reaction I received was nothing I expected.

"You're getting too ahead of yourself, aren't you?!" He growled at me, I was scared this time.

He had gripped my wrists tightly, making it hurt. He looked down on me with his mean eyes which mine couldn't meet. I stared at the ground, my subconscious mind grabbing the fact that I was way shorter than him.

"I- I... I'm sorry..." I apologized; I was actually scared of him.

"[Name]. Tell me one thing." His voice got calmer and his grip loosened too. "Why are you always finding ways to spend time with me? What do you expect from someone like me?"

"Someone like you as in?" I immediately asked, my eyes wide as I looked up to him.

"Someone so weak, someone only able to destruct... Someone who can't even protect what's important... What do you want from me?" His voice seemed lonely and sad.

What indeed...

"Subaru, smile." I said, he was taken aback by it. He raised his eyebrows and his eyes widened ever so slightly.

"What..?"

"See? You never smile. For some reason, I want to see it. I want to see you smile. Because even if I've never seen it, I can just tell that your smile would be one of the most beautiful ones. It's just wrong, how can someone live without happiness?" I spoke slowly yet clearly.

"Someone can, I've lived that way forever." He now completely let his guard down, holding my hands in a normal manner.

"But I'm sure, there was a time when you used to smile genuinely. You know what happiness is. I feel like it's my responsibility to protect your smile. Even if it's not, I feel like it." My voice had clear determination in it, which he inspected with unreadable eyes.

He let go of my hands and stood in front of me for a while, the distance between us was very small. I didn't mind, it seemed that he was in deep thought. Did I throw salt in his wounds? Uncertainty took over my entire existence as I stood there, staring at his beautiful red eyes that were looking down.

"[Name], thank you." He spoke lowly.

He still hadn't opened up entirely, but he was at least letting his guard down. That gave me a ray of hope and that alone was enough to make me happy.

I smiled. "My pleasure," I mumbled.

Maybe, just maybe, I could be the one to protect his smile.

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Hello, there.

How was it? Leave your thoughts. This is my first time writing a one-shot, that too, a Diabolik Lovers one. I am absolutely head over heels for Subaru, so the first one is about him. Feel free to tell me about any mistakes. Help me become a better writer.

Bye bye, see you later.