AN// IMPORTANT NOTE FOR THE CHAPTER!!!⬇️⬇️

So when I originally wrote this it had a much more sad vibe to it but now after I read over it I found it kinda lame😖😂 but oh well. The only thing I'm going to say about the chapter so I don't spoil it is to put yoself in Sehun's place and think about how he's tried to raised Luhan in a very sheltered environment(:

"First day of high school! Say cheese!" I say as he rolls his eyes.

"Hyung, do you really have to take a picture every year!?" He whines as I snap a picture of his mad face.

"Yes, I do. Now at least act like your happy and give me a smile!" I say with a chuckle making him try not to smile but fail.

Snap.

"Come on, give me a big smile!" I say as he sighs and looks away to take in a deep breath before looking back at me with a big, teethy, eyes pinched shut smile.

Snap.

"Okay, now give me a real smile, I can do this all day." I say as he whines and stomps his feet.

Snap.

"Have you even taken any?" He groans.

Snap.

"No, so stop your whining and smile for me!" I lie before he give me a real smile.

Snap snap.

"Okay, now let's go." I say with a smile as I shut off my camera. I walk into the garage and leave it on the counter while he gets in the car before I hurry back

Once I back out of the driveway and get on the road I reach over to grab his hand but he pulls it away.

"Can I hold your hand?" I ask as he crosses his legs to scoot away from me.

"No." He mumbles.

"Why not?" I ask, confused as to why he's upset.

"Because I don't want to hold your hand." He huffs before I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Luhan..." I say as he pushes it off.

"Knock it off." He huffs.

"Luhan?" I say again as I poke his arm.

"Hyung, stop it." He says harshly before I pull my hand away.

"Okay." I mouth to myself as I grab the steering wheel.

I soon feel him grab my arm and pulls it off the wheel before threading his fingers through mine.

That's what I thought.

I glance over to find him with his elbow on the door frame and chin in his palm stare out the window before I give his hand three light squeezes.

I love you, squeezes.

I smile when he does it back before crossing his legs up on the seat.

When we arrive close to his school he drops my hand and I take no offense before parking although he asked me just to drop him off at the front.

"Hyung! My friends are over there-"

"Oh shut up." I mumble jokingly of course as I turn to grab something from behind his seat.

It gets stuck as I hear him open the car door before I turn to look at him.

"Get back in here, you're not going anywhere." I say, annoyed that he can't wait five second.

"Hyung!"

"Stop being a brat, okay? Here." I say as I set the present on his lap.

"What's this?" He asks softly as he looks down at it.

"A box." I say sarcastically.

"Hyung!" He whines before I apologize.

"It's just a little present I got you, for being so grown up." I say as I ruffle his light brown hair. "Go on, open it." I say as he nods and carefully rips the paper off it.

"Come on, tear into it, go crazy." I chuckle seeing he's taking forever.

"You didn't." He says after peeking in the box then puts the lid back down.

"Luhan! Open it!!" I say as a huge smile covers his face before he take the lid off.

"Sehun! You didn't!" He says as he pulls the bag out. "You said it was too expensive!" He growls with a smile while playfully punching my shoulder.

"Nothing is too expensive for you." I smile before he leans over and give me a tight hug.

"Thank you so much!! I'm gonna trade it out for my backpack right now!" He says making it impossible not to smile.

He pretty much dumps everything from his backpack into the new bag before hugging me again, kissing my cheek, and saying goodbye.

I watch as he puts it on and hurries onto the campus to a group of people I assume are his friends.

I decide it's time I got home and sigh as I back out, not wanting to leave my baby to the school system for another nine months:(.

No, he didn't stay at school all day every day, I picked him up every week day at three but school takes all his energy. So he's either at school, sleeping, doing home work, watching tv, or yelling at me about something I didn't know I did wrong.

As I mentioned before, I got Luhan his own room around the time he started going through puberty and needed a little "space". Every guy knows that space is somewhere to touch themselves, and I didn't want to give him space to do that because I didn't want him doing that. I wanted him to stay my little innocent angel who didn't sneak bottles of lotion and rolls of toilet paper into his room.

Yeah. I notice.

But that's growing up, and now that he's older, he's been in there a bit more which worries me. I don't know for sure if he's doing what I think he's doing, but I just want him to go back to being my little baby who was in diapers. I hated changing them at the time, but now I wish I would have savored the times in being able to do that.

As he's getting older he's wanting to go out with friends and do things. When he was younger I knew he couldn't get into much trouble, but now I don't know what they could be doing. I hadn't realized I was telling him no so much that one day he blew up on me.

"Hey, hyung? My friends want to go out to the mall and hang out and they want me to go too." He says as I shake my head.

"No, there are crazy people out at the mall-"

"Come on! I'm gonna be with my friends-"

"I don't know your friends-"

"Then they can come over and I'll introduce you to them." He says as he begins getting mad.

"No, Luhan. Don't go telling people where we live-"

"But, hyung! I really want to go, you never let me go anywhere!" He whines and gets louder with me.

"What if some crazy person came and shot up the mall and I wasn't there to protect you?"

"You don't need to protect me! I can protect myself! I'm sixteen for fucks sake!" He yells as my eyes widen and mouth drops open slightly.

We both just kinda freeze. I don't know if he was expecting to say that, I defiantly wasn't expecting him to say that. I can't believe he just said that. It made my heart sink, and mouth get dry that he just yelled the swear of all swears at me so easily.

"What.. what did you just say?" I ask as I stand up.

"Petes sake, I meant-"

"Is that how you talk at school?" I ask, unsure what to think other than feeling hurt that he could say that to me. When did he even learn that word? He just used it in such a vulgar way making that sentence sit in my stomach and give me a sour taste.

"No, I don't, hyung-"

"I don't know what to say, but I know I didn't teach you to talk like that." What do parents even say when this happens?! Is there a certain phrase in supposed to say? I could say so many things right now, because I'm more than disappointed, I feel beaten at the game I tried to play to shelter Luhan. I thought I was doing an okay job, but out of all words he could have screamed at me, it was this one.

"Hyung-"

"Please, Luhan, just.." I begin as I look away from him.

That hurt me. It really did. I had no idea that he knew that word, and that's the worst of all of them. He just screamed it at me like it was in his daily vocabulary. What if that is in his daily vocabulary? What if he talks worse than that in front of his friends? To show off? God damnit, I should have just homeschooled him, he would have never been so disrespectful to me if he didn't see his friends do it to their parents I assume.

It took me a few minutes of processing what happened before sighing and getting up.

I go to the kitchen and begin unloading the dish washer then load it back up and start it. I end up trying to distract myself and clean the whole kitchen spotless before getting out the things to make him dinner. I don't make anything better or worse than I usually do, I make one of the usual dinners I make.

After putting it on a plate for him and getting him juice I hear his soft footsteps coming into the kitchen. My back is to him since I'm pouring him the juice on the counter against the back wall before hearing his lips part, ready to say something.

"I made your dinner, I'm going to go shower and go to bed. You don't have to eat now if your not hungry." I say as I take the juice back to the fridge, for some reason unable to look at him.

I go back to the plate of food and cup to grab them before going to his usual seat and set it on the counter in front of it.

I don't know what to say, maybe "goodnight" or "see you in the morning" or "I'll see you later" but they all just aren't what I want to say. They can't express the right.. the right tone or meaning I want them to, so I say nothing and leave to the bathroom.

I just want to go to bed, and wake up with my baby cuddled against me like he would when he was little. I need to stop wishing he was little, I know, but I just miss his innocence so badly. It's not his fault, he's just growing up, and I can't stop it or even slow it. He's just not my little boy anymore.

I took a relatively long shower, just thinking about things, remembering all the cute things he's said or done over the years, and know this is just a little roughy patch. Things will get better, I know they will and I know I can't change them, I need to stop wishing him to be a child again, I need to understand that he's big now and he's learned the thing I didn't want him to learn and there's nothing I can do about it.

...

"Hyung?" I hear as my bedroom door opens, waking me from my sleep.

"Yeah? Is something wrong?" I ask as I quickly sit up and rub my eyes.

"Wha- no, no. I was just, I was wondering if I could sleep in here with you." Luhan says softly as he peeks in the door.

"Yeah, yeah of course you can." I say groggily while I grab my shirt and pull it back on as he comes in and shuts the door.

I turn the light on for him before he hurries over with the little blanket I bought him when he was a baby which makes my heart beat again.

I wait until he's in and note that he's sleeping much further from me than usual but shrug it off.

"Are you good?" I ask before seeing his head nod with his back is to me.

I click the light off before laying back down and shut my eyes.

I can feel him moving around and he gradually gets closer and closer before I wrap my arm around him.

"Hyung, I'm so sorry." He says before he begins crying. "I didn't mean to say it, and I made you mad, and I hate myself so much for saying it!" He says as he begins bawling and hiccuping.

"Come here." I say as I sit up and cross my legs.

"What?" He asks before I pull him up and sit him on my lap facing me.

"Sweetie, I'm not mad. You don't need to cry." I say as I wipe his tears away while he chuckles softly.

"You're not?" He asks softly as I nod and cup his face in my palms.

"No, I'm not. I was never mad. Disappointed, a little, but I need to realize that you're growing, and as much as I wish I could keep you away from these things, I can't."

"No, hyung, it's not like that." He says as I roll my eyes slightly.

"Luhan, it's exactly like that. I'm trying to keep you as a child, but you aren't a child anymore. Please forgive me for not treating you like an adult." I say as he shakes his head.

"Hyung, I'm not an adult-"

"Okay, I mean, you said it not me." I joke making him whine softly and chuckle.

"Can you knock it off for five seconds?!" He whines and hits my arm before I make an "ow" sound and rub it. "Sorry." He chuckles and rubs it as well.

"Luhan, I just want you to know that there's nothing in the world you could do to make me mad at you. I love you too much to be able to get mad at you. Yes, I can get upset, but never mad." I say before kissing his forehead.

"I love you." I say as he nods and wipes under his eyes again.

"I love you too, hyung." He says and flies foreword to wrap his arms tightly around my neck.

AN// hope you guys are likening the daddy vampire series because I really do! We're almost to 500 followers omg!!! That's sooooo amazing so thank you all for the follows and votes and comments!!!(: