School started, I still suck at cooking, and I blew through all my money. I know Sehun knows because he told me to be careful with how much I spent when I was first given it but I didn't realize how much things cost. I'm used to going shopping and not necessarily worrying about how much I was spending. I literally have no money, zip, zero, nada, and there are two more weeks left until the end of the month. I also got money somehow taken out of my account for texting hyung's number and now I feel nervous about my situation.

I became a hobo.

Okay, just kidding, I didn't actually do that, but it felt like it.

I received another cook book which was titled "cooking for the poor" which made me roll my eyes so hard that I thought they'd roll back and get stuck. It also came with a few bags of ramen which I was greatly appreciative for.

Woohoo, your first month is over! How does it feel to finally be an adult? Harder than you thought, huh?;) uh oh! It looks like there's three hundred missing from this months pay! Maybe start looking for a job to help pay for those extra things you want? Love you.

"Now I have to get a job?!" I whine as I sit back then groan loudly.

...

The next month more money was taken out, hyung still didn't show up, and there was a note that told me that I'm going to start paying rent soon. He stressed that I really need to get a job but I don't know how to get a job. So I asked a friend I made at school and he showed me what to do and how to make a resume which consisted of "hire me please I need money". Not really, but it screamed of that.

I found a little boba tea place that was hiring and after a bit of waiting I got the job and was more than excited. I wanted to celebrate my first real job and hoped that maybe hyung was bluffing when he said he moved out of our home. I need to see him and want to tell him all the things I've accomplished on my own so badly. I want to hug him and have him tell me how proud he is of me.

Yet when I got there I found my home looking abandoned and run down, like it's been empty for years and it broke my heart. I wanted I yell at him for letting this happen but he wasn't there. That's when I really felt empty.

It took me a while of me sitting on the porch, crying, with my back against the wall to pull myself together before driving back to my apartment. I kept my sunglasses on to hide my red eyes while I continued to try and keep myself from bawling. Maybe he'd see how sad I was, and maybe he'd be there waiting for me, making me food and would explain why he's being such as asshole. Maybe he'd bring me flowers, and cuddle with me, and tell me how much he missed me, because I miss him more than anything.

When got back to the apartment I found it empty which left me broken and crying on a day I should be happy and celebrating with my hyung. I was tired, tired of everything. Tired of being alone, tired of responsibilities, tired of hyung being an asshole, tired of crying, tried of trying, and tired of becoming so weak from crying that I have sit where I'm standing before I would fall.

After a while I decided to pull myself up, leave to my room, and allowed myself fall apart as I distanced further hyung than I already was.

...

"Hey, baby. What are you doing sleeping?" I hear as my cheek is gently rubbed.

I'm more than startled seeing I've been living by myself for nearly three months and somehow leap up to ram my head into my headboard. Surprise and shock make my heart races and add pain on top of it all and that's me right now.

"Aw, sweet heart!" Hyung chuckles as he grabs me and sits me up while tears immediately begin spilling down my cheeks.

He sits next to me and I'm positive that if he wasn't already dead I would have killed him in the hug I gave him. I'm embarrassed at how ugly I'm crying which left me feeling shy as I try to talk to him but I couldn't. I was speechless and my head hurt really bad.

"I missed you too, baby." He sighs, taking my neediness as a way of me telling him "I miss you" while he squeezes me in a tight hug.

After a good hour of me crying and sitting on his lap, squeezing him to death, I begin showering him in kisses which he gladly returned.

"I missed you so much." I hiccup as he kisses my neck and lies back then rolls us to the side.

"I missed you more." He mumbles against my neck before I hit his arm.

"No you didn't, don't even say that." I huff and try to hit him again but am too weak for it to actually hurt.

"Okay, maybe you missed me a tiny bit more than I missed you." He chuckles before I hit him again.

"Stop being an asshole!" I growl before he presses his forehead to mine.

"You've done so well, baby, you know that? You're doing so much better than I thought you would." He says in a way that makes me unsure if I it was an compliment or an insult.

"Yeah I did." I huff before pressing my lips to his.

I wrap my arms and legs around him before squeezing him in another tight hug.

"It's okay, baby. I'm here." He assures as I grab his hair in my fists, unsure if this is just some sick dream or something. He chuckles and wraps his arms around my waist while I bury my face in his neck.

"I think dinner is probably ready, baby. Why don't we get up and go get it out of the oven?" He asks.

I nod before he pulls me back on top of him and sits us up. I begin crying again as I realize he really is here before he grabs my face between his big hands and wipes my tears away with his thumbs. He assures me everything's okay and leans in to press our lips together. I can't help but hiccup and try to kiss him back but my cry face won't let me.

He chuckles before standing up and sets me down on my feet in front of him. I try to wipe my tears this time and look down in embarrassment before he pulls me into another hug.

He sends chills running down my spine when he glides his fingertips up my neck and into the back of my hair while I lean into his chest.

"Let's go get some food in your belly." He says as he pulls my hair to tip my head back. His lips to my forehead before he grabs my hand to lead me to the kitchen.

The smell I get after opening the bedroom door makes my mouth immediately water while my home fills up with the smell of hyung's cooking.

He leads me to the kitchen then let's go of my hand to open the oven to check on the food. He then turns it off and grabs pot holders to take it out. He seems more than familiar with the placement of things in my kitchen which makes me think. Yet my thoughts are stopped by the beautiful, golden brown chicken legs he pulls out and sets in the counter.

"Go get a bowl for rice." He instructs as I cling slightly to his side and realize I'm holding onto the corner of his shirt.

I shake my head no, not wanting to leave him for a second because I just don't feel like this is completely real. He chuckles at me once again before ruffling my hair and leaves to the cupboard to get me a bowl.

He serves it for me before taking it to the table that's already set with silverware and a drink for me.

"Sit down, baby." He says as I stand next to him, gripping his shirt again.

"Sit with me." I say before he grabs my cheeks and kisses my forehead.

"I'll tell you when I'm going to leave, I won't disappear when your back is turned." He assures before I pull him into another hug.

He gets me to sit down and ends up feeding me, seeing I'm too shocked to do anything but stare at him. He moved his chair so he can sit right next to me before he chuckles at me. He feeds me one more bite before leaning over to press his forehead to my neck.

"I'm so lucky to have you, baby." He says as he presses his lips to my skin.

I don't know what to say and just enjoy the compliment and kissing as I continue chewing. His kisses are so tender and soft that it pulls my mind away from eating. When I felt his hand rest on my thigh I knew this was it. I was so unprepared for him, and I always wanted this to be perfect. I haven't shaved in a long time, I don't even know if I have a razor for that matter!

"I missed you so much, baby." He says as he squeezes my thigh while also pushing his hand between them.

I let my legs slide apart as he glides his hand up to grab my inner thigh. I tip my head down, wanting to watch his hand, before he moves his lips to mine. My lips follow his before remembering I had just been eating salty and tangy food.

"Is something wrong?" He asks as his hand immediately flies off me.

"No, no, I just, I was just eating and my mouth probably tastes like chicken." I explain before he chuckles and slowly leans back in.

"I don't mind the taste of chicken." He says as he watches my lips while I watch him.

His lips once again wrap around mine before he slowly stands up, guiding me up with him.

"Tell me to stop." He whispers against my lips.

"Why?" I ask, unsure why he wants that.

"I don't want to do anything you don't want me to." He explains as he presses his cool forehead to mine.

"You know I want you." I say, annoyed that he's stopping for me.

"Are you sure?" He asks as he slips his fingers into the buckle hoops on my jeans then forcefully pulls me to his chest. "Because I'm ready this time." He assures as he slowly backs me up.

"Yes, hyung." I say as my heart begins to race.

"You'll tell me if I'm hurting you, won't you." He says as he stares into my eyes so deeply that I'm scared I'll drown.

"Yes." I sigh slowly before he presses our lips together and my back hitting a wall.

I feel his crotch grind against mine while he tips his head back down to kiss me and make me feel so high. My arms wrap around his neck while he pushes his behind my back.

The more we kiss, the more I begin dreading having my clothes taken off. I need to take a shower and shave so badly because I couldn't stand to have him see me otherwise.

"Hyung." I mumble into his lips.

"Yes, baby?" He asks as he backs off slightly, but doesn't stop kissing me.

"Let me go get cleaned up." I explains as he bites my bottom lip.

"It's okay, baby. I don't mind-"

"I do, please, it won't take long." I assure him as I try to stop kissing him, but I can't.

"Okay, be fast or I'll have to join you in there." He grins as he pulls back.

"O-okay." I stutter which makes him smile.

"Go, hurry." He says as he moves off me.

I nod and get two steps away from him before feeling him spank my bottom. I yelp and laugh at myself while he wraps his arms back around my waist and kisses my neck. He presses his body against my back while mumbling, "do you have to?" Against my skin while walking with me.

"Twenty minutes tops, okay?" I say as I eat up the attention.

"It better only be twenty minutes or I'll have to punish you, baby." He says as he grinds his crotch against my bottom.

I want to beg him to just fuck me already but I'm embarrassingly hairy and I have to take a shower.

"Okay, daddy." I say before immediately regretting it.

I'm more than embarrassed by my words before he squeezes me tighter to him and begs me not to be like this with him.

"You're lucky I don't just take you right here." He growls in my ear before nibbling on it. "Now hurry before I change my mind."

AN// HELLO everyone! Sorry it's been so long but I've been so busy these past few weeks! But schools finally out and it's time for summer school! Yay haha, I really don't mind summer school. I also traded my iPhone to a galaxy 8s and omg is it a challenging trade but I was so over the iPhone lol! Hope you loved the chapter!!(: