I got home pretty late, later than I was planning but something weird happened to me. Water started strangely coming out of my eyes, probably because I got something in it from flying, and made them burn. I tried getting them to stop but I couldn't, and it was making my heart beat so fast that it scared me.

The lights were all still on and I hoped Luhan had gone to bed or I think my eyes would start burning again...

Luckily he had, so I shut off all the lights and went to my room, unsure if I was tired or not. When I lied down I knew I wasn't. I wasn't tired, no, no I was tired, but I couldn't sleep because my mind wouldn't stop wondering.

...

The next day Luhan avoided me at all costs. He'd stop in his tracks and turn around to walk the other way when he saw me and would wait until I left the room to come back out. I wish I would have taken his phone too when I got the keys from him.

That night I still wasn't able to sleep. I lied on my back, staring up at the dark ceiling before I heard my door opening and quickly rolled onto my side so my back was to it.

"Hyung?" I heard Luhan's soft voice call, choking me up all over again.

"Hm?" I hummed softly as my eyes burned.

Why am I like this? Why am I being like this? I need to toughen up! Man up, Sehun, man up!!!

"Can I come sleep in here?" He asks softly as I mentally sigh.

"Of course you can." I say, not ever wanting to deny him the wish of sleeping in here, but I don't think I'm going to be able to hold myself together much longer.

When he gets onto the side of the bed, I take the opportunity to lift myself up off the mattress so he won't feel me moving around. I'm not trying to be mean and cold shouldery to him, I just don't want him to see me like this, because it makes me feel weak, and how can he trust I'll protect him if he sees that I can be weak?

I snuck out of the bed before carefully shutting the door he left open behind me. I went to the living room and sat down on my chair while I rubbed my tired eyes.

I tried to sleep, but I couldn't. I couldn't believe he threw away his blankey, he always loved it so much. But if he's too old for me to take care of him, he's too old to have a child's blanket.

...

I was woken up by the sounds of doors opening and closing and sat up before realizing what time it was.

"Hyung, I need to go to school, can I have the keys." I hear Luhan ask softly as he comes into the living room.

"No, I'll take you." I say as I get up.

"If you're tired, you don't have to, I'll come home right after school-"

"I will take you, and pick you up right after school." I say sternly before leaving to my room to quickly get changed and grab the keys.

It takes me few minutes to get myself together before I'm out and leave to the front door.

When we get into the car it stays silent as I drive. I can tell he's uncomfortable and can also tell by the sound of his heart that he has something to say. I wait a few minutes to allow him to say what it is if he's going to before I decide to speak up.

"I'm sorry I didn't make you breakfast." I apologize because I truly am, I don't like him being hungry.

"If you didn't want me to sleep in your room, you should have said no instead of leaving to sleep on the chair." He says immediately afterwords.

"It wasn't like that, Luhan-"

"Then what was it like?" He asks as he tries to hide the anger in his voice. "I went in there, and I apologized to you, I explained everything and I poured my heart out into it, and I rolled over, and you weren't there. You were too disgusted with me to sleep in the same bed as me." He says before I pull over in the small tunnel we're in seeing he's crying again.

"I was never disgusted in you, don't you ever think that." I say as I look over at him to find him with his knees to his chest and hands covering his eyes as he sobs.

"Luhan, I didn't leave because of that, and I didn't know you came in there to apologize. So right now, tell me what happened." I say as he shakes his head so I move to sit on the little box between our two seats.

I pull him into a hug and kiss he top of his head before he lets go of his eyes and wraps his arms around my waist. We sit like this for a while with him crying and me running my fingers through his hair trying to calm him down.

He eventually calms down and pulls his arm that's closest to me and wrapped around my back out from behind me and rests it on my lap. He also had pulled his arm that was around my stomach back to his lap and leans against me more. It puts him in a much more comfortable looking position and I just continue to rub his back and wait for him to be ready to talk. I can hear his stomach growling before I look at the clock on the car.

8:32A.M

He's already thirty minutes late for school, maybe he should just skip today and we can talk this out?

"Do you want to go home and we can talk there?" I ask as he slowly nods.

"Okay." I say and kiss his head once more before getting back into the drivers seat and turn the car on. I'm about to make a U-turn before looking over at him.

"Do you want me to drive through McDonald's for you and get you some food?" I ask, hoping it'll make him feel better.

He shrugs, kinda as a "I dunno, I don't care" but know he really likes McDonald's breakfast.

"Let's drive through there first." I say and he nods before I get back on the road and drive to the closest McDonald's.

He asks for a McGrittle, two hash browns, an egg Mcmuffin and a chocolate milk which I order before going to the windows to get it.

He eats it on the way home and is finished by the time we get there and seems to be feeling better. 

When we get inside I sit on the couch and he sits next to me before rubbing his eyes. I can hear his heart beating quickly in his chest as he sighs and looks over at me.

"I'm sorry I said I hate you, I didn't mean it at all." He says firstly as I nod.

"I know you didn't, sweetie." I say as he leans his head against my arm.

I pull it out from between us and wrap it around his neck as he scoots closer to me.

"I got caught up in a really bad group of friends, and I didn't know what to do. After school they all got to my car before I did and asked for a ride home so I said yeah then they convinced me to come in and were saying all this bad stuff about how you don't let me go do things. I really never cared until they started saying I should be mad and that it's messed up that you won't let me and it made me mad. I'm sorry I let that happen, and I read your messages and I felt so guilty," he says as his voice begins getting shaky, "and I couldn't get out of leaving their house. Th-they peer pressured me into drinking, and they were smoking around me and... and I only did it once because they were all calling me the p word and a baby and so I did it. It was getting late, and all this stuff happened... and they made me do thing I didn't want to do." He says and begins crying again.

"Did they touch you?" I ask, seeing I don't think he wants to say it.

He nods slowly with his eyes covered as my heart beats.

"T-they didn't do anything with me, t-they just, touched me, and grabbed me. I was so scared." He says as he begins bawling again.

"Luhan, if anything like that ever happens, just text me and I'll be there within a matter of minutes. Okay? I can even act like all crazy tracking your phone to find you if you don't want them to know you told me to come, we need a safe word." I say as he chuckles before wrapping his arms around me.

"Hyung, I love you so much." He says as he buries his face in my neck while he sits on his knees.

"I love you more." I say as he squeezes me tightly, but of course not tight enough to hurt me.

"No, I love you more." He whines with a soft chuckle.

"Well I love you mostest." I say as I kiss his cheek and hug him back.

"Now, tell me where they live and I'm going down there to talk to their parents about this-"

"Hyung, please don't!" He begs and squeezes my tighter.

"If you hug me any tighter my head is going to pop off." I say with a chuckle before it softens. "Are you sure you don't want me to?" I ask.

"Yes, that would just make everything worse." He whines.

"Okay, that's fine." I assure him as he nods.

"Hyung, will you wash my hair?" He asks, something he hasn't seem to outgrow yet.

It started once when he was young, but we got in a little argument and after we resolved it I offered to wash his hair because he needed to take a bath. He ended up just wanting me to shower with him and wash him which I couldn't say no to. It was the cutest thing ever and I missed washing my baby in the sink and as he got older he always asked me to wash his hair as a way of asking me to shower with him.

"Baby, I think you're getting a bit old for me to be showering with you." I chuckle as he sits back and looks down before I push his hair out of his eyes.

"How about I get you a bubble bath ready and I'll wash your hair for you once your in?" I ask before he nods.

"Okay, I'll go get it ready." I say before getting up.

Just like I said, I got a bath ready for him and filled it with bubbles to make it so you can't see through the water. Once it was filled with a nice layer of bubbles I called him and left to get a towel for him while he got in.

When I got back I didn't see him in the bath but his clothes were there on the ground.

"Luhan?" I called as I peeked out of the bathroom door for him.

I heard the water splash before he comes up out of the water with his hair covering his eyes.

"Hyung, can I have some fresh water because I'm scared I'm gonna get soap in my eyes." He whines cutely making me smile.

"Of course." I say as I grab the cup I was planning to use to wash his hair with and fill it with water from the faucet to help him get the soap off.

I pour some water over the top of his head making his hair fall over his eyes as the memory of me first bathing him flashes through my mind.

I get more water in my cup as he pushes it out of his eyes only to have it fall back over them. I do it again after he moved it before he whines and asks if I could stop before I grabbed his head and kissed him with a chuckle.

"What?" He asked as he turned to look at me.

"I just remembered something that happened a long time ago." I sigh before grabbing the shampoo.

"What was it?" He asked as I poured shampoo into my hand and shut the bottle.

"Well, the first time we met you were really dirty. I remember putting you in the sink to wash you and I had a cup and was pouring water over your head like this. It made you so upset because with your chubby little hands you tried pushing it away but I'd pour more to make it go back right after you pushed it away.  You didn't use your fingertips either, you used your palms. Oh, it was so cute." I say as he rolls his eyes.

"You've been messing with me my whole life." He fake huffs as he crosses his arms.

"Only because you're so fun to mess with." I say before he splashes water at me.

AN// It's been a while everyone! I wanted to wait a while before posting again so here you go! I hope you enjoyed the chapter! There are more to come as well so stay tuned!! Haha