Playlist: someone you loved by Lewis capaldi.
This chapter is dedicated to claudia-143.                                                        The sound of an ambulance and their taking him away. I run towards the ambulance and i meet a lady wearing a nursing outfit and I tug on her dress. She asks me how I'm connected to him and what happened.

I explain everything in detail and tears keep falling from my eyes and she hands me a lollipop and gives me a tight hug.

"Don't worry, he's with you" she says giving me a light squeeze.

"Where is he?" I ask sobbing.
She looks up and I do the same.

"Up there watching over you" she says pointing to the sky and she gives me an assuring smile.

I look around and sight the car that ran into my brother at a length a bit far from where I was. It looked damaged and it seems that the Hitman ran away and deserted the car.

I couldn't do anything to save himand that made me weak and silent. The nurse lady used chinedu's phone to reach my parents. They took me home.
      I wasn't able to talk for days, I cried every single day and every single thing reminded me of him. My mum was a ghost of her former self and my dad cursed me everyday of my life for the death of his 'heir' as he said.
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Days passed then it was the day of his burial. We all bid him farewell and I ran to his coffin and cried there  that day but I was dragged back home by my parents. It was really hard and I slept in his room everyday.

My dad couldn't concentrate on his work and it was literally driving him crazy. My mum became so distant from me and called me the black sheep of the family

Every street, road and view in Enugu reminded me of him and it was unbearable.
My dad decided to move his company from Enugu to Lagos because he couldn't bear the pain and my mum burnt all things that reminded us of him.

I sneaked out the photo album and hid it because I didn't want to forget him no matter how hard it was to live with the memories.

We all moved to Lagos and my parents went back to their professional lives. They never spoke about him again and anytime I had those nightmares, my mum will beat me and tell me never to speak of it again. I had to keep all my emotions to myself.
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A year after, my mum was heavily pregnant and when she conceived, she gave birth to Levi. Levi became the light of their lives and I was being shunned at the age of seven.

I began to bottle up my feelings and remain strong. I promised myself and Chinedu never to she'd a tear for anything unnecessary and since then, I only cry at the thought of him.

Levi got all the love and happiness from my parents and so did the twins when they were born, but ME? I remained the unwanted parasite that they couldn't get rid off.

This is it, my tears only drop for Chinedu.

'And that's what happened. It's my fault'. I hug the album and cry tirelessly on the floor and that's why I can never really be happy.

I get off the floor, wash my face and I wear a face of hardened heart triggered by all that has ever happened.

I listen to the lyrics of someone you loved:
now the day bleeds into nightfall
And you're not here
To get me through it all
I let my guard down
And then you pulled the rug
I was getting kinda used to being someone you loved...

I hug my knees and lay my head down.

I really feel so sad and I can feel her pain. She's really gone through a lot *sobs*, I really wish Chinedu didn't die.

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