First I blame you, then I want you.
Fuckin hate you, then I love you
I can't help myself, no.
When I have you wanna leave you.
If you go that's when I need you.
I can't help myself, no.
You come in waves.
- Waves x Normani & 6lack

I walked into my home after mimosas with Mina, who invited Jirou and that was much needed. I placed my bag down flopping onto the couch and scrolling through my phone. Someone that I was following had posted a video of Katsuki decked in his hero costume, on patrol and taking pictures with kids. Grinning like a fucking idiot.

Damnit, Katsuki.

I chewed my lip. I hated how he consumed my thoughts so often. Especially when I've been drinking. Over the course of the month, I found myself drinking at home, just to get my mind off of Katsuki. Which didn't work considering drunk me is a horny bitch and I can't even count how many times I've talked myself out the ledge of texting him– just to see if he'd answer. I'd end up winning, and just use one of my vibrators untill I'd come so many times I'd fall asleep. It was tough.

The sickening feeling of wanting to be in his arms was the worst. Having his touch linger on my spine, leaving goosebumps, making me shudder against him. His lips on my neck– his favorite spot, while he whispered literal sweet nothings in my ear. In those times it was just us– together, what I thought was us becoming something more than just two mutuals who were close to the same person and happen to he having sex.

Fuck Katsuki.
Why can't you just be honest?

I let my head fall back on the couch, heaving a sigh.

God, I miss him so much..

The knocking on my door startled me. I jumped, listening to the knocking again. I check my phone realizing it was late in the night and my tipsy ass had fallen asleep thinking about Katsuki stupid ass. I groan, getting up to go to the door, but the voice on the other end made me freeze with sheer panic.

"So fucking stupid coming here." He grumbles. "I don't know why I listened to them."

Katsuki...

I look through the peephole, and sure enough there he was. Pacing back and forth along my porch before turning towards the steps and cursing at the air. He jammed his hands in his pockets and huffing, shaking his head defeated.

"Katsuki." I say once I pulled my door open and lean against the frame. I watch as the hairs on the back of his neck stands as he slowly turns around, looking at me from over his shoulder. His eyebrows stitched together– that intense gaze going against everything his body was telling him to do. I took in a breath, watching him fully turn towards me and taking a step forward. In two long strides, he took me in his arms, stuffing his face in my neck. He squeezed me tightly, nuzzling his face deeper into my neck. He exhaled heavily from inhaling my scent. I couldn't move.

"Ka–Katsuki." I whispered.

"Give me a minute." He mumbles.

So, we stay like that. He'd walked us further into my home, using his foot to close the door behind him. I couldn't move. I didn't want to, nor did I want him to– but unfortunately, he did.

"I'm sorry." He says. "Is he here?"

I shake my head. I lead him to the couch and he sits down, and I straddle his lap, seeing the confused look on his face.

"Your boyfriend wouldn't like this Y/N." He says. "I already apologized for touching you knowing you have a boyfriend, I don't know how'd I be able to explain this." His eyes slowly scanning over me, refusing to touch me the way his body wants to instinctively.

"I'll make it easy for you." I tell him taking out my phone and calling Makaio, pressing the speaker button.

"Hey Y/N, what's up?" Makaio's voice sounded on the other end of the phone, making Katsuki frown. I pressed a finger against his lips before he got a chance to say anything.

"Hey quick question." I say, Katsuki's eyes showing annoyance.

"Yeah, shoot."

"So, I'm sitting in Dynamight's lap right now, is that alright?" I ask.

Makaio snorted. "My concern is, why aren't you sitting on his dick already?" He says. "Wait– Hold up. He's there?!? So it worked?"

Katsuki grabbed my wrist, removing my hand from his mouth.

"What worked?" He asked with a low growl.

"Oop, gotta go." Makaio says before quickly hanging up and making me laugh.

"Answer my question." Katsuki says.

"Kai is a friend of mine that did me a favor." I say, watching his frown deepen and his eyes cross as I lean in, kissing the corners of his mouth. "And it worked."

Katsuki swallowed, his chest rising and falling against mine, his grip on my thighs tightening and making me gasp.

"Who else knows?" He asks huskily, becoming weak from my little kisses against his jaw and neck.

"No one." I say honestly. "Not Mina, Not Kirishima– Nobody. Only people knew were me and him." I lean back to look him directly in the eye, my pussy throbbing just staring into those peircing red eyes of his.

"You think that shit is cute?" He growls, his eyes glazing over, sending a shiver down my spine.

"You think trying to make me jealous is fun?"

I shudder feeling his grip on my thighs get even tighter, I smirk seeing his irritation rise.

"Answer me." He growls, literally growling at me with every breath he took.

Fuck..

I should make him mad more often.

"Y-Y-Yes." I stutter out, becoming hot just sitting on his lap my hands running up and down his chest.

His eye contact didn't falter. He removed a vice grip hold on my thighs, grabbing my wrist and pinning my hands behind my back making me gasp from his sudden movement. The shorts I wore being ripped off of me so forcefully, sending a moan falling from my lips. Katsuki tossed them to the side, his thumb finding my clit, moving my panties to the side. I gasp feeling his hands on me, my eyes fluttering close as I moan, my head falling back on my shoulders, instantly grinding into his hand.

Big mistake..

"You enjoyed that shit didn't you?" He says, knowing he had me right where he wanted me. "It just tickled you– sitting scross from me, letting him touch you." He slips his fingers inside of me, making me moan loudly.

"I'm talking to you Y/N." He growls.

"Katsuki please." I pant, falling to pieces in his hold.

"Please what?" His rough tone that I always found so rude and irritating, now turning me on.

I lean into him, only to be jerked back by his hand pinning my arms down. His fingers curling inside me, poking my gspot.

"You just pissed me off and you want me to kiss you?" He says in disblief. "Really?"

I moan, my head falling back as I grind into him.

"You made me watch him touch you." H growls. "Fucking kissing you on my fucking spot?! You enjoyed that shit– didn't you?"

"Fucking yes I did!" I moan, trying desperately to chase my release. "Yes I fucking did! I loved that shit!"

He growls in response, making me shudder. I missed his touch– I missed him so much.

"Oh God, Katsuki don't stop!" I yell feeling myself getting ready to explode, Katsuki stopped, sliding his fingers out of me. I looked at him, his gaze so intense I could've came from that alone. HIs chest still rising and falling with anger.

"Wha-What are you doing?" I ask, breathing heavy as I look over his face.

"O-Oh, you thought I'd actually let you come?" He grinned so deviously. "Is that what you though?"

"Katsuki!" I groan, grinding into his lap just to create some friction. His free hand gripped my hip holding me still.

"I said no." He grits. "You don't get to come after all that last night."

"Katsuki please!" I whimper, my legs trembling. "Please I was right there."

"I know you were baby." He coos, leaning into my ear. "That's why I stopped."

"Katsuki, God please!" I yell, feeling his lips graze against my neck, his spot. "Please let me come! Pleast Please Please baby, please! I'm fucking begging!"

"I hear you baby." He coos so sweetly, I almost melted in his lap. "The answer is still no."

"Katsuki!" I yell his name, my head falling back as he licks his favorite spot.

"You can scream and yell all you want babygirl." He says. "You're not getting it, so stop asking."

I whimper, my body tingling, clit throbbing My pleasure quickly being replaced with my own irritation.

"Katsuki fucking Bakugo!" I growl gaining a grin from the blonde.

"That's my name, babygirl." He grins, running his tongue across his teeth.

"You have no right to be upset, while you've been flirting too." I say, wiggling to break freee from him, which only made him chuckle. "You probably fucked her too, didn't you."

"Tsk." He clicked his tongue, flipping us over so quickly, I couldn't breathe His body pressing against mine. His hand now pinning mine above my head. HIs eyebrows stitched together as he glared at me. My breathe hitch.

"Is that what you think?" He growls.

"It's what I know." I grit back.

"You're an idiot." He says. "Do you think I'd be here if I did?"

"Maybe." I reply.

"So what if I did?" He says "Then what?"

I take in a breath, feeling my chest heave with each breath I took. Which only fueled Katsuki even more, knowing he was getting to me.

"It was real good too, baby." He smirks. "Almost as good as you."

"Get the fuck off me." I growl, my entire body rising in anger.

"What's wrong baby girl?" He coos with a grin. "Can't stand to hear about me fucking another woman?"

"Katsuki, your body is made up of over 70% water." I narrow my eyes at him, watching his stupid grin widen. "I can kill you, you do realize that?"

He bites his lip, leaning further into me, pressing his forehead against mine. "Kill me baby." He whispers, trying to kiss my lips but only making me turn my head. I shut my eyes listening to his cocky stupid laugh.

"Get the fuck off me Katsuki." I warn.

"Kill me." He taunts. He loosens his grip on me, enough for me to push him onto the other side of the couch with every ounce of strength I had. His gaze intense on me as I sit up.

"Get out." I tell him.

"What?" He furrows his eyebrows.

"Get out!" I yell. "Get the fuck out and go back to her! Leave me the fuck alone!"

"You don't want me to do that." He scoffs shaking his head.

"Yes, Yes I do." I nod towards him.

"Y/N–"

"GO Katsuki!" I yell, surprising myself at the slight jump the both of us did. Staring at one another, our chests heaving and anger written on both of our faces.

"Fine." He huffs finally, getting to his feet and making his way towards the door. "Now you feel how I feel."

He let that be his last words before the door clicked closed. My body shook angrily. I grabbed my phone calling the only person I knew I could run to.

"Hello?"

"Mina.."

"What's wrong babe?" She asked. There was shuffling on the other end, her mumbling something to I'm assuming Kirishima before returning back to me. I clear my throat, choking down the tears that threatened to fall.

"Y/N, babe talking to me." She coos. "Take a breath, and use your words."

"Use your words, babygirl."

I went to open my mouth, but once I did I couldn't stop the tears from falling as I let out a scoff.

"Fucking stupidass Katsuki!" I scream into my phone, more angry than hurt.

"Katsuki?" She says. "What's going on with Katsuki?"

"I fucking hate him!" I growl, furiously wiping my eyes.

She lets out a breath, pulling the phone away from her I'm assuming. "Your fucking friend Eijiro fucking Kirishima. I'm gonna end his fucking life, you hear me?" She places the phone to her ear, her voice becoming more clear. "I'm coming babe, give me ten minutes."

I nod, not even realizing she couldn't see me.

"Give me ten minutes Y/N I swear I'm coming!" She says. "Swear to god Eijiro get your fucking–"

Beep.

I looked at my phone, before tossing it aside and tossing it on the table, curling into a ball. Tears continuing to spill from my eyes. I can't believe I allowed someone to treat me this way. I knew he was nothing but trouble, but like an idiot, I ran straight into it. When will I learn? Mina arrived in record time, throwing my door open with a bang, and slamming it almost even harder. She rushed over to me, taking me in her arms as I cried harder, just finally having someone there with me.

"Tell me what happend." She coos.

I replay everything to Mina, detail for detail, trying to catch my breath as I speak. After finally getting my breathing in order, I wiped at my eyes once more.

"Goodness you two." She says. "I feel like this is my fault. You wouldn't be feeling like this if you didn't come out with us."

"It's my fault, not yours." I say shaking my head, looking back on the first time I laid eyes on Katsuki. How helpful and attentive he was with me when I couldn't even remember my own address. It only fueled my anger more. "You didn't tell me to sleep with him."

"Y/N I swear I'll beat his ass." Mina began cracking her knuckles, blinking at me as if all I had to do was say a word.

"D-Do you think he really messed around with her?" I ask quietly.

"Y/N think about it." Mina says, her hands falling in her lap. "To him, you had a boyfriend. He seen it with his own two eyes. A girl he's into being with another man– in front of him. Do you really think he'd be at your home, knowing you had a boyfriend, if he fucked her? Make it make sense."

I chewed on my lip shrugging.

"So you two were just fucking and not getting to know each other?" She says. "Then neither of you have a right to be upset at all." She crossed her arms over her chest.

"We–" I stop, sighing heavily. "Fuck."

"Exactly." Mina says. "You two can work, yall just so fucking stupid."

I frown at Mina as she goes through her phone, before a few rings filled the silence.

"What, Mina?" Katsuki's rough voice made my heart skip a beat. I didn't want to hear his voice now.

"Katsuki, what happend?" Mina asks softly.

"I don't want to talk about it." He says. "I'm sure she told you anyway– that is why you're calling me right? Gonna cuss me out for hurting your friend? Kick my ass– what?"

"Katsuki." Mina rubbed her temple with her free hand. "Answer me something."

"What is it?"

"Did you really mess around–"

"For fucks– NO!" He yelled into the phone, making the both of us flinch. "I walked her to her table she was sitting with her friend whens he saw Deki, Ei and I walking in. I left after that. You. I had no intentions of bringing her to my house. You of all people should know I don't fuck random whores in my home."

"I just wanted to make sure Katsu." Mina says softly. "She's really hurt about this you know.."

"Yeah?" Katsuki says after an exhale. "Well, tell her to use her fucking words next time instead of being a fucking brat and trying to make me jealous and prove a point."

The phonecall ended when Katsuki finished his sentence, making Mina curse under her breath, calling him a dick.

"Two peas in a pod." She says shaking her head. "Just give him time."

"Will Ei get mad if I ask for a cuddle puddle?" I mumble looking down at my hands. I honestly just wanted to be held at this point. I didn't care by who it was.

"Of course not." She says. "I'll text Jurou to bring some wine."

"Tequila." I correct.

She giggles. "Okay Babe."