Dedicated to HarishVaid

I'm in a world that is neither black nor white,

A world that couldn't be bright or dark,

I'm being stuck in a world of grey.

Because I don't know how to make myself as bright as the pure, white light,

Nor do I have the tendency to drown myself into the darkness of black,

The color has only one definition- Blank.

I sit and watch the people around me,

Grabbing the orb of light and moving on,

They walk further and further away leaving me,

While my world struggles-

to remain motionless and silent.

Their worlds have already transformed itself,

While I'm still stuck in the world of grey.

I stretch my hand to grab it,

Only to fall deeper into the abyss of grey.

And, then, I give up completely,

This feeling,

its hard to explain,

At times, I smile and enjoy life the way it is,

At times, I'm disappointed for accomplishing nothing,

I hate this grey,

It doesn't let me shine,

Nor it lets me to give up on me,

I hate this grey,

Because it doesn't let me fall outside the cliff,

Nor it lets me to climb up on it,

The sadness,

the agony,

the disappointment,

the jealousy,

it chains around my neck,

Begging me to give in and fall,

They devour me, making me the person I never wanted to be,

Tell me what should I do?

Who should I give in to?

Who should I call out to?

If only I knew,

If only I knew...

I wish I knew where I belonged,

I wish I knew my way out of this cage,

I wish I had a choice to make,

My raising questions have no answers,

With nothing else to do,

I silently wish for the darkness to lure me in,

But still nothing happens...

Because I'm bound to the world of grey,

I'm bound to this cage of emptiness,

I sit alone in this world of grey,

As it slowly draws my soul away,

I raise my eyes to the colorless sky,

Holding on to a small glimmer of hope in my lifeless hands,

That maybe one day I'll rescue myself,

From the dullness I created,

And return to the world of white,

Where I once stood,

Rising to the blue sky,

Maybe one day,

One day...

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-Shaily

I imagined this while being in a bad mood myself. Haha, moods can be useful sometimes.

So how was this dark poem? Do tell me your views. Have u felt like this?

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