i have a very specific thing that scares me but  im not sure what it is

like...im kinda a weenie but i can handle monsters and demons and maybe even serial killers but like

there's this certain atmosphere thing that shakes me to the core

like

just weird simple stuff like a guy looking at a camera and nothing graphic is even going on, but if youre like "this is a tape of a real life serial killer" and suddenly it makes me feel sick. like im watching this video about horror for educational value and while discussing the film 'perfect blue' the guy showed clips from a irl stalker guys personal tapes and it was so terrifying i literally had to cover the screen. i couldnt see his face. the camera, the lighting, just something set off every alarm bell in my head.

the clips werent graphic, btw. it was literally soundless videos of a guy looking at a camera and talking and pointing at a diagram

but holy geez it scared me more than any clip he showed before

similar thing happened with 'dont hug me im scared.' i could barely even watch those videos, even before any of the actual scary stuff happened. the lighting/setting/camera work was so surreal and unsettling i was already terrified. the gore didnt even bother me as much as the visual feel of it did. i cant put my finger on it

im scared of more weird stuff like that? weird or somewhat unsettling irl clips fill me with more terror than monsters

like complete silence, weird camera work, stuff that doesnt look like its a movie. stuff like that. also reading about descriptions of killers or creepypasta freak me out

idk i guess im more uncomfortable with things that i can fathom being real? like it out steps what the norm is, but not to the point that a vampire does.

seeing a real serial killer doing something mundane or harmless is waaay scarier than a man getting ripped to pieces by a monster imo