i had A Gross and Bad Thought a couple days ago and yikes,,

i was picking at my arm and my dumb brain is like "hmm i want more places to pick at. if i take a knife or scissors and cut a little bit into my bicep ill have more stuff to pick at yay" and immediately i was like "WAIT NO THATS BAD HURTING MYSELF IS BAD"

and then i was like "but,,more scabs and dried blood,,is good and nice" and i was like again "no. bad idea. bad."

like geez @ fancy chill out smh

kinda startled me ive never actually considered cutting myself ??