oh okay i wanted to tell this to everyone even family and friends, this video was not made by me at all...i just want to show it to you i all a bit have how i felt.... i wanted to say something that there is going to be a day, i'll be sad on, it's coming up and it's not for someone who is alive..... he passed his name was Ryan...... i miss my friend so much that was going to be a day i'm going to be sad and hurt on. to say he would be 19 if he was alive still.... and to say why all this with he was my first and true friend, in the times i was disliked by others i would attack them if they laughed at me and i couldn't see light that time, it was only darkness around me but one day Ryan came and open me up and showed me a light filled with joy and care..... he showed me so much but there was a day and i never saw this but i know other well be that's a lie but i know some people out there knew what it meant when someone killed themselves at a young age.... i know what it meant, but that day i didn't see Ryan at all,

until a two days after the teacher's came in the classes taking the ones close to Ryan out of class even me and when i heard Ryan was passed i broke down and so the day he never came was the reason, i lost Ryan and to the day he passed is the day i'm not in a great mood and to his birthday it's the same but i'm a bit more sad about it, and it's coming up his birthday was.... i can't remember but i feel so sad and i'm trying hard not to think about it to much, he was my true friend i still care for him even if his gone i can't move on for that but he was not my childhood friend but he was the white kid in that whole school to step up and become my friend, but i'll be sad in one day before i can feel  this sadness grow telling me it's near..... i hope you all understand this, and thank you for understanding and do give this Ryan a happy birthday wish, i'll be writing this down to burn in a fire for him to get and to read this wishes.

Jerome out for now.