Manager Yoon tried to change the topic in our circle, But he can't because everyone was looking at me, and Kang Daniel hyung is waiting for my number, It's not bad giving my number, right?

"Well hyung, it's fine." He smiled so widely after I said my response to him, it was kinda cute to be honest. He gave me his phone and I typed my number into it giving his phone back when I was finished.

"Hyung you want my number too? We can hangout sometimes." Guanlin broke the atmosphere between us and reaching his hands out to Daniel hyung which it was sarcastically toned? He was kinda irritated when he said his words though.

Daniel hyung nodded awkwardly to Guanlin and give his phone to him, After Guanlin is finished he smiled at me and everyone else, Guanlin is acting funny why is that?

"Are we just gonna be exchanging numbers here?" The manager butted in the conversation, and the other hyung laughed on what the manager has said, Seongwoo Hyung.

"Well it's nice to see you again Hyung, your face hasn't change at all when I last saw you." Seongwoo said still giggling a bit. The conversation of the group was pretty long and I was right there's no customers came for today, that's how my shift ends, meeting the Manager's friends and just talking to them, though the whole time I Guanlin is preventing the contact between me and Daniel Hyung, it was kinda obvious but I just ignored it, maybe he doesn't feel good today.

I'm outside of the cafe right now, the manager and the others are still in the inside and I'm just here waiting for them to bid a proper goodbye, when the door of the cafe opened I turned around in the direction of it, I saw Daniel Hyung, he waved at me showing his smile again.

"Jihoon, I thought you've gone home? Nah?" He stand beside me and leans on the wall while scrolling in his phone.

"I was waiting for all of you, I want to say a proper goodbye." I said to him, answering his question.

"Wow, you sounded like you're going to die." He giggled between his words, I was taken back about what he said so I attempted to punch him slightly on the shoulders but his hands were fast and caught my small hand, I was quite shock because he gripped my hands, and he grinned at me, maybe mocking me literally.

"You know those kind of punch won't affect on me, midget." His grin was wider now, I was trying to let go of his grip but I can't he's way too strong than me, I tried to kick him but he dodge it, now I'm getting frustrated, why's this guy has good reflexes?

A whole minute we're like that, he's teasing me and I'm getting through it. When i heard the bell of the cafe opened I sighed of relief that someone is out now and I won't be alone with this guy, but it was Guanlin.

Guanlin stared at the two of us, he walked in our direction and he saw that my hands are in the hands of Daniel hyung, he frowned at the scene, so he pulled my hands onto his.

"Hyung, I think it's time to say a goodbye, we'll go first." Guanlin said to Daniel hyung, the two of them shared a smile to each other while I don't know what kind of situation is this, but Guanlin is still holding my hands.

"Be careful, kid." Daniel hyung emphasized the word kid looking at Guanlin, which Guanlin just responded with a glare, after that Guanlin pulled me and we started walking, he strengthen his grip in my hands it was kinda painful.

"G-G-Guanlin." I tried to call him out but he doesn't hear me and just walking straightly, just what's happening to this boy? I tried to call him again but again he doesn't hear me.

"Guanlin!" I yelled now we stopped walking, his eyes were on me now.

"What?" He said coldly, not letting go of my hand.

"Your g-grip." I said stuttering at him, he looked at our hands that's intertwined but he noticed his grip, he loosened it but he didn't let go of my hand still holding it, now that I understand what's happening, I'm holding hands with Lai Guanlin right now. Am I dreaming?

"Sorry Jihoon." He simply apologized to me while he scratched the nape of his neck with his another hand, looking at the different direction. I nodded at him and I think he saw me nodding at him in his peripheral vision, so now we're walking beside each other, slow and silent. This is the best thing that has happened to me, Guanlin holding my hands like we're lovers, walking beside each other matching footsteps, I want to cherish this moment.

I wanted to be his, but this is wrong, this is super wrong, Guanlin has a Girlfriend why are we holding hands, why is he taking me home? This is not right, Guanlin don't have feelings for me.

I shoved my hands out of the hands of Guanlin, securing it with my other hand, Guanlin suddenly looked at me wearing a confused face. He tried to hold my hand again but I harshly slapped his hands just to reject him, I'm sorry Guanlin.

I want to cry with my stupidness, this is just ridiculous, no matter how perfect his hands fits in mine we will never be together, no matter how his warmth I feel from him won't be mine, he has someone else.

"What's wrong?" He asked me trying to get close to me, but I stepped backward which made him stop walking towards me. I can't even made an eye contact right now.

"This is... Wrong." I sprinted to get out of his sight, Jihoon why are you being stupid right now? Why? Why did I fall for him?

"I-I can't take i-i-it anymore." I whispered to myself while I felt my tears are falling down.

The weather was good, my surroundings were silent, I could here the cold breeze of the wind, making the tress leaf dancing with it, but here right now running away from the person I like, crying because of him, experiencing the feeling that is new to me, I want to end all of this, How can I stop loving Guanlin?

Next time I cleared my eyes and opened it fully, I was in front of my apartment, panting and tired, my body feels so heavy, my whole existence feels so heavy right now but I pushed myself to get into my room, I exerted all the strength I have in me.

I throw myself into my bed without changing clothes and just leaving my shoes on the floor scattered, Hugging my pillow crying onto it.

I can see myself having a swollen eyes tomorrow.

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I hear my alarm rings so loud, I tried to closed it and succeeded onto it, wanting to sleep again but I remembered it was Monday, a day where school are starting again.

I stretch up and stands out in my bed, looking my face at the mirror, great it's really swollen because of last night. It was hard for me, but I won't I'll be going to school today I don't have a choice for my own, study is relevant and very important too.

After a whole 30 minutes I was ready to get out of my apartment, I'm only wishing that I won't see Guanlin today it would be awkward but my biggest problem is during weekends, we have the same shift, what to do Jihoon. I locked my apartment and straightly going outside of the building going to the direction of my school, since it's just walking distance just like my part time job.

After a few walks I reached my destination, here I am at my school gate, am I too early? Whatever, it's better not to be late.

Since I'm in senior year now, my room is on the third floor, groaning at how far I would walk, add the stairs, damn too much effort, nevertheless I came to my classroom successfully but I'm exhausted running into my chair and laidmy head onto it.

Why's everything that happens to me are very exhausting, I want fun too not temporary fun. Minutes passed and I heard the door opened.

"Yah Jihoon you're already here?" Hearing the voice I know who is it, so I ignored it shifting my head on the other direction.

"Yah! Don't ignore me." Now I think he sat in his chair which is in front of me, why is my best friend like this? I don't know too.

"Bitch, what happened?" Thankfully he knows what to ask, I raised my head seeing my face made him shock but it showed concern, wow I surely looked pretty pretty swollen a lot.

"Things aren't going smoothly." I said simply to him trying to held my tears not to fall. I'm sick of crying.

"Jihoon, it-"

"I want to give up Woojin, fuck I wish I don't like him." I cupped my face, I failed holding my tears shit how many tears should I waste? I felt Woojin's hands circling in my back to comfort me which made me cry harder.

"Jihoon, you should stay in the clinic." Still his hand is circling in my back. I nodded to him because I can't say a word right now.

"I'll just tell the teachers that you're not feeling well, okay?" I nodded again to him.

He guided me to the clinic and he said to the doctor of the school that I needed rest, the doctor gave us permission to feel free to sleep on the clinics bed and that is what I did, Woojin leaving me after.

And I was left alone in the clinic, just me, alone.

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Jihoon is sho dramatic, I'm not okay with it 😢😂

I don't know how to write drama but whatever, But I still love Panwink. I was bored you know, and I hope you liked this chapter.

deonie🚬