(17) Tape

"Mom, it's been a while." I said to my mother when she opened the door for me, she smiled at me then after that she come up to me hugging, I hugged back my mother leaning into her shoulders, after a few minutes the two of us separated ending the hug, she let me come in the house then letting me sit on the couch.

"I'll make some coffee wait there." I nodded to her as a response, when my mother has gone to my sight because she's in the kitchen I looked at my bag opening the lids of it, then saw the camera that's been with me for a while.

This is the reason why I'm here, since Jihoon and my mother is close to each other I think this would be a lot of help, truthfully I don't even know what am I doing right now, I've been taking videos for two weeks and all the videos contains my daily routine, the sceneries or me telling stories about our past. Maybe I want to tackle this tapes seriously kore than I thought.

I placed the video recorder in the table just waiting for my mother to take the coffee.

My mother showed up with two cups in her two hands, she placed the cup beside the video camera then she takes a seat across from me.

"What brings you here Guanlin?" My mother asked me.

"How can I say this?" Scratching the nape of my neck as I tried to explain to my mom what's my intention why I'm here right now, but it's kinda uncomfortable that My reason is that I want her to say all the things she loves about Jihoon or the pictures she have with Jihoon.

"Well mom, you know that Jihoon is on coma right now and the doctor said that there's a high possibility that he's gonna have an amnesia, but they're not sure of it. So i..." As I continued talking to my mom, when I looked at her her eyes traveled to the video camera and she showed a faint smile.

That's where I think my mom knows my intentions.

"Before that, I want some time with my son who's away for years, you can't even visit your mom, where did I raised you wrong?" My mother pouts at me but let the both of us laugh it off, this made me think that I miss this kind of warm too.

The two of us talked like it's been forever since the last time we've spent some time together which is the truth though. I looked at my wrist watch and it's going late but I haven't started the video for today.

"Mom, let's start I have to visit Jihoon after this." I said to her, she didn't refused instead he nodded, that's when I opened the video cam but in my direction first, while my mom stands up in her seat walking out of the scene, it didn't bother me and I started the video.

"This is the 17th tape Jihoon, and I still miss you." I smiled at the camera "By the way I'm here in my mom's house, do you remember how close you are to her, you even ignore me when you're talking to her, then I'll be sulking about it." I giggled with the memory, and I looked at the camera closing my two hands together.

"Jihoon let's visit my mom again, together, hm?" Suddenly my mom butted in the video holding a photo album, well this family likes taking picture.

"My jihooniee~ if you watch this video visit me again, I don't need this son when you come here, it'll be fun just the two of us." She said at the video excitedly, then he pushes me over that made me stumble out of the couch but fortunately I balanced myself.

Seriously, I don't even know if she's my true mom now.

  My mom started blurting words out nonstop while showing the pictures that has Jihoon in it, it's the same as I did.

"Oh! I remember this one, it was when we went to the beach, Guanlin's was sulking all day because he can't have a moment alone with his cute boyfriend, well I'm good at borrowing your time Jihoon." She winks at the camera which made me cringe, god does this mom even know what's the borderline of how to act cute.

"Well in the end you grab him while he's still sulking and I took this photo." She faced the photo album in her direction smiling at it. My mom really liked Jihoon a lot, she even want us to get married so quickly.

"Mom." I called out to her and I was successful catching her attention.

"What?"

"Thank you." With just the two words I've blurted out my mom flashed the biggest smile I have seen.

"Of course I'm your mom, who do you think am I?" She joked at me.

"An alien." I straightly answered her.

"Watch your words young man." She darted fiercely eyes at me, but I shrugged it off.

"Fine fine." After that my mom goes back at the video, it takes more minutes after she ended her long story, but I wasn't bored at all because I'm listening to it which made me laugh on the other parts too.

"Jihoonie, don't forget my son loves you, okay? He may be reckless and selfish but when you wake up." She bowed in front of the camera. "Please love him like you do, make him smile like those years you've been with him, that's the only thing I can ask you Jihoon." She ended with a smile, I paused the video.

"Thank you mom, I'll visit again sooner." She nodded at me, I hold the camera and hanged my bag in my shoulders.

My mom guided through the door, I hesitantly opened the door and looked at my mom once again.

"Next time I'll go together with him." I said and finally stepping put pf the house, waving a final goodbye to my mother, then lost sight of the house as I walk further and further.

I guess I'm going to visit Jihoon again.

(21) Tape

Walking to the streets I'm familiar with since I'm just a high schooler while catching the moments with my video camera and I can feel the breeze getting colder some of the trees doesn't have any leaves in their trunks anymore since the season of winter is approaching, it's definitely gonna be cold without you here by my side again.

I haven't noticed that I've reached the school were attending, since it's Sunday there's no classes today, which made me easier to get permission to the guards.

"Hey I'm in our school, it's been a long time since I saw this maybe it's the same as you, right?" Walking inside of the classroom and I can't hear the noises outside anymore.

What a quite place.

I came in with one of the classroom and sits in. I filmed the view outside, where the leaves are falling carelessly continuously and it was scattered everywhere.

"Now that I realize, we're not in the same class with those three whole years of high school, we can't even see each other in the same section." Now I faced the camera in myself.

"I guess it's fate that brought us when that day happened." I smiled.

The feeling of being here in a classroom again feels nostalgic, the memories here in our school, I remember myself can't wait to finish my club practice just to talk to you, that was fun too.

I explored and filmed almost all the places in the school, since it was full of our memories, it was fun looking back with what happened with those years, it was fun because you're in that memories. This isn't a waste of effort and time, it helps me too think of how much I love you, it's great.

But...

Jihoon, let me spend the winter with you.

(Tape?)

It turns out I keep making the videos, even though it's been a long time since I started this, it's like 2 months ago I lose count of it and Jihoon's won't wake up until now, though even me hasn't change, I'll always bring flowers and visit him while taking the video continuously, maybe sometimes I can't visit him but I'm trying hard to visit him because I'm waiting for him.

But for today I'm not going to take a video, it's not that I'm giving up, I'm just going to get myself a time, just me or maybe not. I've taken my jacket, stepping out of my apartment and I saw the snow covering the trees and bushes around even the sidewalk of the road.

I fished my phone in my pockets dialing my best friend's number, Bae Jinyoung. Unexpectedly he p didn't answered my call, maybe he's flirting with that guy, well I don't care. I dialed his number again ringing a few times then I heard the connected signal that he's in his phone right now.

"What do you want?" He groaned at the other line.

"Can't you greet your best friend normally?" I said while walking, I put my hands in my pocket to keep it warm.

"This is normal, freaking normal!" He complained, well this guy is not in the mood, but I don't care again.

"Accompany me." I just casually said to him, I heard another groaned that belongs to him, but I just shrugged it off.

"Where?" I immediately said in the usual spot which in the cafe, he ended the call after that and I just focused going to the cafe. After a few minutes I've come to the cafe, not wasting any of time and ordered the same we've always order.

When the orders are up that's when Jinyoung showed up, he sits to the opposite chair as mine while fixing his clothes.

"What do you want? Calling me suddenly, and why aren't visiting Jihoon?" He said like an idiot, I take a sip of the coffee I've ordered ignoring him.

"Yah!" He irritatedly said.

"I'll visit him later." I said while leaning at me palm and looking outside.

"What it's like you're gi—" before he finished his sentence I butted into it, refusing what he's going to say, it's nit like that and I'll never give up.

"You're blinding yourself Guanlin." What Jinyoung said made me snapped, what am I blind for? That I'm waiting for Jihoon, it's only been two months and what's the reason of giving up right now.

"Stop, Jinyoung you're not the one who's in is position." I just responded, that made him quite for a second, well I guess I ticked off Jinyoung today.

"Sorry for calling you so suddenly." Now I break the silence between us, he drinks his coffee while looking at me, he Just nodded at me after that.

"And I'm sorry, I know it's been hard for you too."  He said, we smiled at each othwr and goes with our conversation, I told Jingyoung all the different videos I've made for Jihoon, he even said I'm so foolish for doing something like that.

After an hour of talking, my phone suddenly rungs I picked it up quickly not looking at the caller i.d

"Who's thi—"

The next words that I've heard made my words stop, I didn't know how to express myself that time, just my tears are falling out of my eyes quietly. The other voice on the other line keep talking and repeat all the words that's been mentioned.

"Guanlin, Jihoon woke up."

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It's going to end, is story is going to end, though I'm still lazy and my break is over, I'm not crying. I-M-N-O-T-C-R-Y-I— IM CRYING UHUHUHUHUHU (T_T) I haven't finished watching all the anime(s) that I'm planning to repeat watching this week, ughhhh.
Oh! And I got lazy with the number of tapes, ehm serry.
Thank you for supporting this story, love y'all

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