2 weeks later

The hotness of the sun burned against my skin it was a nice change compared to the coldness of hunting ghosts. I soaked it all in laying down on baby blue beach chair which contrasted against the pale yellow sand. I closed my eyes and listened to the crashing of the waves and undefined chatter of the other beach users.  

I was enjoying it until a family of two adults and four young kids came and sat near me disrupting my peace. I sat up and fished out my earphones and iPhone from my bag placed next to the chair. I put the earphones in my ears and turned on the music, 'Back in Black' by AC/DC boomed through the speakers. I lay back down and relaxed reminiscing about Dean, Sam and Castiel but mostly about Dean.  It hurt to think about him but it was harder to try and push it out of my head, we were in love after all. "Really Catherine? Is that all you can do listen to classic rock and mope around missing me?" I sprung up from the chair and looked around for the familiar voice but he wasn't there. I scanned the crowd again and called out "Dean?" three times before realising I must have imagined it.

I slumped back down in the lawn chair in defeat and grief, I missed him so much. I laid back down and went back to remembering all the good times and bad because I wanted to remember anything to do with Dean...any memory with him was practically a good memory.

"Damn it Catherine you are not coming with us it's too dangerous, you are not ready!" Dean growled as he slammed his hands down on the table facing away from me. "You know I hate it when you call me Catherine and I am ready! I have been training day in day out and you said next hung I could join!" I yelled back and threw my hands up in the air. "She's right Dean you did." Sam defended me but I think he only said it because he was secretly enjoying the argument he wore a smirk that showed it. "Shut up Sammy." Dean barked and ran his hands over his face sighing in frustration. "No, I can't I just can't. You're staying here at Bobby's until the next hunt." I threw my head back and groaned in anger almost sounding like a dying cow. "And then the next time you will tell me I can't go again. Why won't you let me go?" my voice was lower and I was not yelling but more pleading now. Dean took two paces towards me "Cate...I couldn't forgive myself if you got hurt or handle it." His voice was also significantly lower but hurt not pleading. "I won't get hurt after all you, Bobby and Sam are the ones who trained me, I couldn't be any more prepared. Dean I am as prepared as I can get." I looked up into his eyes, pleading and trying to convince him. "Fine, Cate but you don't leave us you stay as close as you can and follow every one of my orders! Understand?" I nodded in excitement and almost screamed displaying a goofy upon my face. "Thankyou!" I wrapped my arms around his neck and hugged him. His body tensed up at my action but after a second he quickly hugged me back.

I hadn't realized I had started crying at the memory until I felt warm tears drip on to my shoulders, it made me glad I had my sunglasses on. "Cate seriously I'm fine." I heard his voice again and stood up turning around in the spot getting a 360 view of the beach so I could find where his voice was coming from but again he could not be found.  "Dean?" I called out again but no reply "This isn't funny!" I screamed out thinking someone was playing a joke on me but all I got was strange looks from the crowd of people near me.

I decided that I needed to go home so I packed up my things and walked back up to city. My flip flops felt rough against my skin due to the sand stuck to my feet so I walked up to the showers and washed off my feet. I turned off the water but the only way to do that was to bend over and turn it off from the bottom and because of that I got a wolf whistle from some prick. I spun around so fast I got a little light headed, I saw the perv eyeing me down and I gave him a disgusted look as well as the middle finger and it took all my strength not to go and slug him. I quickly walked away covering myself because I was just in my red halter neck bikini.

I arrived back to my small beach condo, which I reckon was built in the 1970's and has not been touched since. I say this because of the pealing pattern wall paper of orange diamonds contrasting against a white back ground. The floors were a cream shaggy carpet that had not been treated in years and was now flat and looked like 3 month old dreadlocks. The doors were all maple wood and really heavy to manoeuvre and the furniture was creaky and falling apart.

I thought back to the perv and slumped back against the door and started to sob. "Dean! Please come back to me! I miss you." I cried and look towards the roof as if I was actually speaking to him. "I'm here baby." I jumped at the voice and the figure next to me but it disappeared as quickly as it had appeared but I knew it was Dean.

I thought maybe it was his ghost but it wasn't cold, I raced to my bag wiping away the tears and grabbed my EMF machine out and switched it on but there was nothing at all. I turned it off extremely confused and looked  back around the run down condo but he wasn't there.  I slumped down in the dining chair next to the round glass table and ran my fingers through my hair trying to pull myself together.

Then it hit me I sat up straight at the realization, whenever I heard or saw Dean today it was at the time I was missing and thinking about him most. Meaning he was all in my head which was bad because he wasn't really here but good because I could bring him to me whenever I wanted.

It's the eye of the tiger

It's the thrill of the fight.

My phone started to call out meaning that someone was ringing me I picked up my phone and answered it. "Hello?" "Cate?" Bobby replied. "Yeah Bobby. What do you want?" my voice harsher than I intended but Bobby just reminded me of Dean. I heard him sigh and then ask "How you holding up kid?" I sighed as well realising I would probably have to tell Bobby the truth, he was like my dad after all. "Not good...I miss him Bobby." My voice cracked at miss and I fought back the tears biting the inside of my cheek to keep myself together.  "I know kid...look where are you at the moment?" "Los Angeles." I simply state "I have a case for ya thought it might take your mind of things. You interested." I thought about it for a minute, did I really want to go back to hunting? It was just another reminder of Dean but maybe Bobby was right it might distract me. "Yeah sounds good Bobby thanks." "Alright see ya soon Cate." And then we both hung up. 

I sat there for a minute or two rethinking my decision but ultimately decided this was the best thing I could probably do for myself right now. I walked to the bathroom which was only 8 steps away and started the shower, turning on the cold water because it was really hot outside.  

After I had finished showering I wrapped myself in a towel and put on a pair of light washed blue denim high waisted shorts, a red singlet and my black combat boots. I then brushed my long blonde curls into a ponytail and then packed my duffel bag full of my clothes and belongings. While packing I stumbled across a picture of Dean and I sitting on the hood of the Impala laughing at Sam's expense.

"Alright so when he comes around you put on the mask while I distract him." I suggest and dean nods grinning he takes out the clown mask from under his jacket and looks away while putting it on. "Hey Sammy come here." I call out to Sam who was at the boot. "Yeah Cate, I think something's wrong with Dean. Look at his face." What do you mean?" Sam looked at me confused. "Dean?" I asked dean whipped his head around and laughed manically while Sam jumped about ten feet in the air and swore. Both dean and I cracked up laughing. "Dean that's not funny." Sam retorted clearly annoyed "Oh come on Sammy it's pretty funny." Dean replied pointing to the mask still on his face. "Ok man, seriously take it off." Sam barked and then walked back to the end of the car. "That was a good one." I say still laughing. Then I saw a flash and looked over to where it had come from" Castiel what are you doing?" I ask the angel in the trench coat holding a camera. "Photography, I recently discovered it, it's wonderful." He simply stated going back through the photos. I roll my eyes at Dean and just laugh again, "I love you." He said still laughing a little but looking into my eyes, this was not the first time he had said it but it still made my heart stop when he said it. I smiled back and replied "I love you to." And then leant in and kissed him.

I quickly stashed the photograph at the bottom of my bag, I couldn't cope with seeing that.

I zipped up my bag double checking I had everything and sure enough I did so with that I walked out of the little beach condo and down to reception and checked out.

It was 24 hours from here to Sioux Falls meaning I had a long drive ahead of me hence why I was leaving straight away. I hopped into the Impala and smiled as it roared to life at the same time 'I wanna rock' by Twisted Sister blasted through the speakers. It was one of the best songs there was just to rock out to and forget everything, it was a rebellious song, and at the moment I was rebelling against life and its cruelty.