Zenon Zogratis POV (Point of View)

Every since the day I was born I was never a virgin, I'll tell you about that later tho.
I was called a freak from my magic.
My siblings hating me because I was weak.
My eldest brother just wanted to use me.
But you, you changed me,
you loved me,
you cared for me.
But what did I do for you?
I stabbed you in the back, I killed you.
And for what?
So I could lose myself, and do things I wish I never did.
And more then that,
I didn't even get to change Spade for the better.
I failed.
I failed you, I failed myself, I failed my sibling.
A worst of all . . . . . . .
I didn't even get to make you're dream, a reality.
I failed you . . . . . . . .
Allen.

Years ago when we were still young, I would come home always covered in bruise, and blood. Other kids would call me a freak when I used my magic, these three kids ran up on me and start kicking, hitting, and punching me. Tell you ran up and stopped them, they soundly like they feared just the sound of your name, Allen Fiarain, アレン・フィアレイン. You helped me up and told me that magic was unique, not creepy. You told me you're dream, and I wanted the same thing, I wanted to be like you. So I trained, I trained hard like you did.
It was my fourteenth birthday, I went home after a long day of training, my body sore from training, Lucius asked me again to become a host. I denied him again, he ask me almost everyday now.
Be more like Dante and Vancia, there both way more capable the you. Lucius tells me. I try not to let his words bother me, but it does, it always does and those words, always will.
Almost every night Lucius would call me to his room, he would lay me down and fuck me.
I hated the feeling but it was either this or I was kicked out, and after I left Lucius's room Dante would force me into his. I never told you when we were kids because I didn't want you telling the King and Queen, like I know you would. So I'm telling you now, when I was born a few days after Lucius would . . . . . finger fuck me, so that way when I got older I would be use to sex.
Dante was just a rapist and thought he could have some fun with me.
The next day we would train so I never thought to tell you. I feel bad for keeping secrets, but you did keep a big secret from me, you never told me you were an orphan, you always just said your parents were out of town, and by town you meant they were in haven, then sure, out of town. 
Why did it take me this long to tell you these thing, why did I wait tell the after life? Why does it really matter? It's not like were in the same the place.
Anyways back to my story.

So I'm fourteen, suck in house with rapist, and I don't even get dinner.
I locked my door at night and went out my window and I went to your house, you always let me stay over, I feel like all this time you knew something was wrong, you just knew I would never say anything about it, and you were right, Allen. 

Well I'll tell you more later.      :|    "Zenon you should smile more." "How come?" "You always look...bored." "Oh really?" "Yeah" "Okay then.":)