A few days had passed since the proposal and I was still not over it. I. Was. Going. To. Marry. Alder! I didn't know why I was so excited. Surely the excitement should've died by now? It's not like we'd decided on a day yet. "Someone's excited," Alder commented.

"Well, yeah," I said. "Aren't you?" Alder gazed at me, smiling.

"I think you're MORE excited than me," he laughed. He walked over and pecked my cheek. I blushed a bit. "I guess you're really excited?"

"Seems that way," I admitted. "I was sure of it for so long, and now it's actually happened." I rubbed my neck in nervousness.

"Don't get ahead of yourself," Alder said, smiling," we're engaged, not married yet." He looked at the floor smiling softly.

"I know, but..."

"I'm excited too," he assured. "I can't wait to marry you. As you now know, eight years ago I would've never expected something like this because, first, I didn't think you could reciprocate and second, for a time, I believed were straight."

"Uh.... yeah," I said now looking guilty. "That time I was an oblivious idiot."

"A cute oblivious idiot," Alder said. "You were so cute, and I fell for you but yeah, you were kinda an idiot. Not in a bad way, but it was kinda obvious after a while that your fanboying over Ben Platt was... unusual."

"In what way?" I asked. "Surely I fanboyed over other people?"

"Over them it was never quite that... consistent," he explained. "And not to mention, you actually sounded ATTRACTED to him." I felt myself blush.

"H-how so?" I said glancing away, pouting. Alder rolled his eyes while smiling.

"Sullivan, mon amour, you never shut up about him. You kept going on and on about his voice, how nice he was, you basically forced me to watch all of his interviews." This made my blush darken. "I didn't mind watching them with you, but the way you acted when we watched them was suspicious. You gazed at the screen with a soft expression, you BLUSHED once or twice."

"R-really? I don't recall b-blushing at him," I stammered. I heard Alder breathe in.

"Sullivan, I know blushing when I see it. Your crush on him became obvious to me after I suspected you weren't straight. It amused me, that you were unaware that you had a crush on him and also made me secretly hopeful."

"Because you then knew that I could reciprocate," I said. "Well, if your suspicions were correct, which ended up being true." Alder gazed at me, blushing now.

"Yep," he agreed. He sighed and leaned on me with his head on my shoulder. "I was hopeful, that maybe, just maybe, my crush wasn't unrequited. That I had a chance."

"You know," I said, glancing at him. "I never picked up on the fact you were crushing on me."

"I know," he said. "You were as oblivious to it as you were to your crush on me or Ben Platt." He smirked. "And that was pretty obvious."

"Please don't remind me of how embarrassing it was to not realize I had a celeb crush on him please."

"Well, I didn't realize it at first either, but then well, you know."

"Unlike you, who knew who you had a celebrity crush on."

"I'd go as far to say that maybe he wasn't the only male celebrity you were unaware of your feelings for, but that's just a hunch," he said. "I don't know who that would've been but yeah."

"Probably," I said. "Didn't I also have crushes on female celebrities too?"

"Oh yes," he said. "But I never really took notice of those because you were being you, and I couldn't relate. It was the Ben Platt era that I took notice of after a while. I'll repeat myself, you'd never reacted that way with the other male celebrities you fanboyed over."

"Oh."

"I... uh... was also a tad jealous..."

"Oh?"

"I knew he was a celebrity and that your crush on him would go nowhere, but it hurt. It hurt me. Even with Savanna, I was jealous, I wanted to be happy for you but I just... couldn't. I never showed my jealousy, preferring to not look at you two. I was also conflicted, you stammering and being awkward in her presence was f**king hilarious. I mean 'fricking'," he added quickly noticing me flinch. "But with her... it especially hurt, because at that time I still believed you were straight. And you really seemed to be, so it hurt me knowing that you could never reciprocate, but now...." He looked at the ring on his finger, smiling. "....now, I know otherwise." I smiled at him.

"You do," I agreed, bending down to kiss him. Alder blushed but smiled and looked up at me.

"And now I'm marrying him, a person I thought I had no chance with. I love you, Sully."

"Je t'aime aussi," I replied, kissing him again.