Letter 17 of 20

I was leaping with joy
like a green small frog.
I was wandering in the hall
like a red subtle ladybug
but as I passed a room,
I froze like a big hard log.
The cause?
You and her were enjoying
a big warm hug.
I should've known
that it was a fool all along.
You were smiling
in her embrace and care.
You were looking
from her face to
every strand of her hair.
I see! you and her were back.
God, I was so dumb.
I should really clap
because once again,
I have fallen into your own trap.

Seventeenth is for
the first time I cried.
No one had lied
and I have also tried
but it keeps flowing.
The light from the bulb
was the witness.
The bedsheet of my bed
was my friend.
The pillow caught
every single drop of my tears.
I thought,
we are on the next level
I guess, I was wrong.
I guess, those 4 years long
of liking you was
'cause over and over
You don't see me as
you lover but just an admirer.

-writeful_bunny