-YOU MUST BE WARNED, THERE IS A SEX SCENE, IT IS NOT RECOMMENDED TO READ IF UNDER 18-

I lay in bed thinking about what had happened. What did happen? Why did it happen? How did it happen?

It felt so real.

So amazing.

It felt like...like...an explosion.

Kennedy.

I want to hate her, and I can.

Nothing is stopping me. A part of me despises her already.

I just won't, because I knew it wasn't her fault, and I knew she had a boyfriend, but never did I think it was Josh.

Why can't he be here?

Next to me, holding me, touching me.

I need him more than ever.

The door opens, and as I am laying on my side I close my eyes to pretend I am sleeping.

The door shuts.

Probably my aunt checking up on me.

I feel the warmth of someone else so close.

The heat.

He's here, I know it.

I don't move. I stay still.

He does nothing.

Just lays there.

Then, he speaks.

"Mia, your probably asleep. And I knew that I was in the wrong. I want you to forgive me, I want you more than ever. I need you more than ever, in my life."

He breathed in and out.

"Mia, I-I..um. Damn It, I'll just say it, I love you. I love you and I know it's hard for you to love especially coming from where you come from and I understand. I really do. I just wish you felt the same way. God, I'll die for you. You might think I'm crazy because I'm confessing my love for you and I barely know you or your past. But truth is I've seen enough to know that I love you. But I don't want to see enough, I want to see more, enough isn't enough for me, I always want more."

He got closer, his lips almost touched my ear.

"I love you."

I stayed still.

A shiver ran down my spine. I felt warm inside and suddenly I didn't want to be away from him.

He turned and sat on the bed for a few moments.

He stood up but not completely as I reached for his grasp, he turned surprised.

"Stay with me." I said.

His eyes twinkled as the moon reflected off his eyes.

His messy hair, sweats with a white t-shirt that was hidden in the darkness, his soft lips.

I climbed on the bed.

I laid back down and he put an arm around me .

I turned to my other side to face him.

I laid my head on his chest.

He ran a hand down my thigh with scars.

"Your beautiful."

I blushed and was glad we were in the dark.

He kissed the top of my head.

"Josh," I started.

"Hm."

"I- I feel the same way." I said.

He sighed.

"Your not forced to say that Mia. It's okay."

"I know." I nodded.

"I love you Josh."

He ran a hand from the side of my thigh to the side of my arm until he reached my face.

I looked up at him.

I slipped a hand under his shirt and felt him.

He ran a hand through my hair.

I felt his arms.

He felt my back.

I felt his lips.

He gripped my waist.

I nodded.

He looked at me with such intensity.

I tugged on his shirt.

His face was close to mine and he spoke.

"Not tonight Mia. We're caught up in the moment."

My heart dropped.

I was ready.

"When you're really ready. Just not tonight."

I turned to my side and hugged myself.

He wasn't any one to tell me when I am ready.
I felt ready, and I knew I wouldn't regret it.

"Mia, don't." He touched my back gently.

I let him.

"I'm ready."

"I'm not sure Mia."

"Are you ready?"

"Mia, it's just that-"

"Are you ready?"

"Yes Mia but I don't think you are."

"I am. You can't tell me when I'm ready and when I'm not."

He stayed quiet.

I turned around and looked at him.

He smiled.

I couldn't resist his smile.

He leaned in.

But instead of kissing me he buried his face into my neck.

He softly kissed me.

He started from neck until he reached my lips.

He kissed me and I kissed back.

He was on top of me and snuck my hands in his messy hair.

He grabbed my waist and I wrapped my legs around his waist.

I moaned.

He kissed me harder.

I slowly lifted his shirt.

I felt his chest and his broad shoulders.

He smiled while kissing me.

He felt my stomach.

And I shivered from his touch.

My shirt was off now.

His hands were warm on my body.

My hands were ready to explore and they slipped his sweats off.

It was his turn and he took my sweats off.

He ran his hands wildly up and down my legs.

The night ended us making love.

I never felt so close to someone in my life before.

At the end of the night I was pressed against him completely naked.

I cried.

He lifted my chin.

He didn't have to say anything.

He hugged me tighter.

He rubbed my back slowly and said, "shhh, it's okay."

I sobbed.

He tried to calm me down.

Then he kissed my head.

"Josh, I can't." I said as he wiped my tears away.

"I know. That's okay, I understand."

I couldn't leave this place.

I loved Josh but I couldn't get myself to leave. I wasn't ready.

I cried myself to sleep while Josh caressed me.

"Thank you." I said just before blacking out.

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Hey guys! Sorry I took so long, I hope you are still interested! Anyway I'll publish the next chapter in a few days! I have to have 5 votes first tho!

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