Sleeping while leaned on the bed, Yibo felt Zhan's hand moving between his palms. Instantly looking up he saw his whole body trembling in spasms while the cardiograph showing almost straight line. Yibo shivered from unbearable fear, moving his stare to the doctors who just rushed into ward he whispered "it can't be, please hang in there"

"Take him out" shouted Haikuan while doing heart massage on Zhan, but Yibo was fighting with nurses trying to reach him again

"What is wrong with Zhan? Please tell me he won't leave, please doctors, please save him"

"give me defibrillator" Haikuan quickly charged the paddles and placed it on Zhan's chest sending a huge dose of electricity. his back arched and body lifted up off the bed with the shock. Desperately looking at the still straight green line, Yibo cried out and freed himself with one strong movement holding Zhan's hand

"listen to me, If you won't stay, this time we'll both leave together, so you have to come back to save me again, do it please do it for me. i love you Wei Ying, i love you to death" the body shivered again and Yibo who was dragged out forcefully, could notice Zhan's eyelids slightly moving.

"He is waking up dad, i know Zhan will wake up" Yibo fell in Mr Xiao's arms who just ran there breathing heavily. He wiped Yibo's tears and asked with shaking voice

"What happened, what is his condition"

"I saw his eyes opening, his beautiful eyes, tell me i will get chance to look in them again. Dad i'm scared, i'm very scared"

"It's ok, everything will be ok" he patted Yibo's hair, unable to stop his own body from shaking too. Almost half hour passed like that and finally Haikuan came out with other doctors. Yibo instantly held him, looking with pleading eyes. Haikuan smiled and nodded his head

"We managed to make zhan's heart work again. Guess something had strong impact on it, in situations like this it can cause fatal result too but fortunately..." He deeply breathed out "congrats Yibo, Mr Xiao, Zhan finally woke up from the coma"

"Thank you, thank you so much" feeling dizzy from too strong happiness Yibo couldn't hold himself and fell on his knees, hiding face in his palms. Tears found their ways out, as loud sobbing sounds could be heard "thank you Wei Ying for coming back for me"

Mr Xiao held his shoulders, helping Yibo to sit on the chair. Turning to Haikuan again he asked "so his condition now, is it stable? Or still dangerous?"

"The most importantly his brain isn't damaged, he could react well on our questions. Zhan was in the coma for two years, going back to normal life it gonna be quite hard. Cause of long lasting immobility his bones are weakened and body impulses slowed down. He can talk normal in few days but walking takes longer and gonna need doing some exercises"

"Thanks god, can we see him?"

"Yes sure but for the short time, try to not tire him"

Yibo followed him with slow, careful steps. Freezing at the door he couldn't move holding the handle. Sometimes the totally normal and simple things, we see or do everyday becomes too special and causes our indescribable happiness. Yibo felt his heart fluttered just seeing Zhan's opened eyes, his faint smile directed to his dad, act of trying to move his tiny hand and little pout of disappointment. How much he missed, how much he was longing for this moment. No one, no one who was never on the edge of losing someone too precious could understand his feelings now.

Zhan feeling yearning stare, moved his eyes to Yibo and his chest highly lifted up taking deep breath. The joy of relief seeing Yibo safe and healthy was clearly written on his face. But after a few seconds Zhan's expressions darkened as unbearable pain devoured his heart, with trembling chin and tearful eyes he tried to say something but being unable just sobbed and turned his face avoiding Yibo's pleading eyes.

"Zhan" he called with soft voice but getting no reaction back Yibo moved step back and left the room leaning at the wall.

Haikuan who just passed thought him, stopped and curiously looked at Yibo "you already out? Is something wrong?"

"He is upset"

"Upset? Come on Yibo, he just woke up after two years coma how..."

"I took something too precious from him before, very... Very long time ago"

"What it was?"

"Myself, that is why it's hard for Zhan to forgive" Yibo painfully smiled and sat down "i gonna wait until he can talk, so i'll listen everything he wants to say. Even... Even it hurts too much for both of us"

"But Yibo"

"I have waited for years, days is nothing brother" Yibo put his hand on the wall, leaning head at it "he being alive and awake, knowing he is well and safe now, for my happiness it's totally enough"

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Mr Xiao gently shook Yibo who was sleeping on the hospital bench and handled warm coffee to him "it's been almost week dear, you can't treat yourself like this. Literally living in the hospital without any proper rest"

"I'm ok dad"

"You're silly, no both of you are. Zhan always has his eyes on the door but still denying to see you. I'm sure he is eagerly waiting for you. Son just come in ok? I know you care about his health but he feels way too better now"

"Can i really?"

"Yes, i don't know what happened between you two, but you have my permission"

"Thanks dad"

Yibo hesitantly entered the ward and stopped at the door. Zhan was staring at the window, where two birds freely playing with each-other. Feeling Yibo's existence there he just nodded slightly and Yibo walked towards him, sitting down on the bed. lowering the head he only dared to move his hand closer but he was avoided again.

"welcome back" the voice was cold and full of pain "Lan Zhan" Yibo shivered hearing this name but stayed still, letting him to keep talking

"do you know? sometimes not the one who dies... but others left behind are the most pitiful ones"

"Wei Ying"

"when you planned everything by yourself, even just once Lan Zhan... did you think how i was going to live without you? when you covered me with your body did you even realize what i was feeling watching you die in my very arms? i was..." Zhan paused pressing hand on his chest, having hard time to breath "i was even unable to mourn you, your body was taken away from me in seconds i couldn't even leave last kiss on your lips. hidden somewhere i could only hold on our memories, it was better for me to die, die before you"

"my love please don't"

"left alone, only thing i was willing to do the most was taking my own life to finally end that unbearable pain but... i couldn't even do that cause my life, it was last gift from you, how could i give it away on my own. you left me without any chance to escape Lan Zhan. it was hell, you devoted me for eternal hell"

"i'm very sorry"

"i loved nights, cause you're coming only in my dreams smiling lovingly and taking me in your warm embrace as before but waking up in the empty bed without your scent on the pillow, without love marks on my body left by you. my face, my lips felt too lonely without your soft kisses. sometimes i was acting like sleeping whole day foolishly thinking you would come and call me lazy, like before you would lift me up and kiss my forehead. sitting alone in the tub i was imagining your hands gently running on my body, caressing it but...

sometimes i was just looking at my reflection in the mirror for hours waiting for you to comb my hair but... Lan Zhan you didn't come... never. how could you" Zhan sobbed out and raised his hands, nonstop hitting Yibo's chest with his tiny fists "you even dared asking me to smile, why? Why i had always to smile even it hurt too much? You're too evil, selfish. i hate you, i hate you with all my heart"

"My sunshine" Yibo caught his hands, holding them between his palms "please stop, yes i deserved all of this, you can tell me everything, scold and hate me but you're still weak, you'll hurt yourself"

"Don't call me that, i don't want to hear your voice, it makes my heart flutter. Meeting you again i want to let go off all my emotions, pain but still" losing the strength Zhan leaned his head at Yibo's chest, wetting it with his nonstop tears "i hate you, cause i couldn't and can't stop loving you. I hate myself too, being unable to push you back, to be upset and not forgive you but... Only thing i can feel is love, i love you my Lan Zhan, Hanguang Jun, my fuddy duddy"

"Can i?" Yibo hesitantly ran his fingers on Zhan's soft hair, shivering from finally feeling him this close "i missed you like crazy, please can i hold you like before?"

"I can't resist you, i never could" Zhan moved his head up, leaning chin on Yibo's shoulder. The latter one gently wrapped his arms around Zhan's waist rubbing their cheeks together. Zhan made himself comfier, feeling safe and protected in his embrace.

"You can hug me tighter" whispered him "it won't hurt, now when you're finally back Lan Zhan it can't hurt"

Yibo pulled him closer and unable to hold it anymore broke into loud sobs, the feeling of too strong guilt was eating him from inside "you suffered too much cause of me, in past and new life too. Yes i know, i was too selfish but i couldn't let you die Wei Ying. I'm ashamed to ask for your forgiveness but promise" Yibo broke the hug, cupping his face "i'll make up for the lost time, with all my touches, kisses, i'll try my best to erase all painful memories and replace them with happy ones. You just, need to trust me my love"

"i know but now" Zhan sadly smiled, touching the wound on his face "can you still love me same now? look i'm not old myself anymore, my face..."

"no you're dumb like before" laughed Yibo, gently hitting his nose "Wei Ying and Xiao Zhan too, when will you finally understand why i love you? there" Yibo bent down kissing his chest "your heart, your soul i fell in love with them and..." Yibo moved his face closer to Zhan's "when you want to see yourself just look into my eyes, it's real you the most beautiful man in the world and this is the fact that will never change. meeting again in another life, you think your Lan er gege cares about this slight scar?"

"maybe i won't be able to walk too, living with someone like me for the whole life it gonna be too hard Yibo"

"did you forgive me?"

"mn"

"you still love me no?"

"mn"

"that is all i need, even i have to carry you in my arms during whole life, i'll gladly do it. but together we'll handle everything my love, you'll get back to your old life, with this precious hands" Yibo placed Zhan's hands on his lips, softly kissing all of his fingers "you'll save countless life in the future"

"you talk too much, it's scaring" pouted Zhan and hugged him again "too much sweetness, i'm getting diabetes"

"you don't believe?"

"i do, actually i know everything you're doing during whose two years"

"what do you mean?"

"until experiencing it myself i couldn't believe patients in coma can feel or hear something but all this time i knew you're here. Your touches, sweet words, your love gave me strength to wake up Lan Zhan"

"So you heard my silly stories? Living without you, it was very boring"

"thanks and sorry for taking long time to come back, i did my best to fight for us and our love. we did it, we won over the fate"

"and nothing can make us separate from each-other anymore"

"never" Zhan smiled sweetly and yawned rubbing his eyes "i feel very tired and want to sleep, Lan Zhan will you sing "WangXian" for me again? Your voice... It's too beautiful and calming"

"Sure, i'll put you to sleep like baby" Yibo lay down on the bed next to Zhan and held him in tight embrace, slowly moving fingers on his back he started singing with low and soft voice. holding his hand Zhan whispered

"Lan Zhan you aren't dream this time no?"

"no i'm too real like our love"

"mn" Zhan smiled happily and cuddled at him more "this time you won't disappear, finally you're real"

They're finally together as WangXian 🥰 sorry for taking long time, I wanted this chapter to be emotional as Zhan needed to let go of his feelings until forgiveness, hope I did it 😊 and about Wei Ying's life without Lan Zhan I'll write a little more about it. Until next update dear readers
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