Yibo took books from the desk and silently walked towards the entrance, Hao Xuan followed him and hesitantly patted his shoulder, Yibo shook and looked back 

"is something wrong?"

"there is nothing, it's just i can't recognize you anymore. can't we even talk like before anymore? it hurts you know?" Yibo sighed realizing how unfairly he was treating best friend after Zhan's discharge. always being quiet he was studying like crazy to not think about other things. 

"i'm sorry brother" he whispered and faintly smiled at him "i didn't even ask how are you doing, about your relationship with Ji Yang"

"everything is fine, i can't believe he has this strong impact on me, sure good one. Cause of him i want to be decent person, live better life. look my grades is so high already"

"It's just result of the love, i feel so happy for you"

"You say that but... You suffer Yibo no? it's been long time since you're honest with me"

"Ikr? it's quite complicated. Zhan doesn't allows me to be next to him, to share his pain. He goes through medical exercises in the hospital but forbid me to attend procedures. After picking up him i clearly see exhaustion on his face and he ..." Yibo's voice broke "although doesn't shows it, i know how much Zhan misses his old life, more than ability to walk he cares about his profession. A few times i heard him sobbing at nights, i wanted to hold him so badly but i know it's better to not. you know how hard it's to stop myself?"

"he forbids, but you still do it no?" Yibo's eyes widened and confusedly looked at him

"how do you"

"Ji Yang told me, you still go to the hospital every time and watch him from afar"

"mn, even he can't see me, still it feels like i'm giving strength to him, it sounds silly but..."

 "who could imagine, you're able to feel this strong love. the time we're crazy hooligans, seems unbelievable now. too many things changed" Hao Xuan smiled and wrapped hand around his shoulder  "and Yibo, let him be. I'm sure Zhan already knows how much you love him that is why he protects you. In this case just wait until he decides to open with you"

"mn, you're right"

"are you going to the hospital now?"

"yes, i'm already late. gonna hurry"

"i'll come with you"

"missed lover?"

"yep. love is so good no? even it brings pain still"

"mn, it's truly beautiful"

*****

"you're late today" Haikuan stopped Yibo, who was literally flying to the Physiotherapy room "take a breath"

"how is it going? Zhan doesn't says anything, afraid of giving false hopes"

"think it's already pretty good condition. don't worry there is big chance he will starts walking very soon" he encouragingly smiled at Yibo and left from there.  

Yibo leaned at the door and secretly started watching procedure. Zhan was laying on the special bed, while physiotherapist was massaging his legs, his fist was tightening on every touch, trying not to show the pain. When they're stretched forcefully Zhan let out low whimper and Yibo's chin started trembling, trying to stop his tears. how he wished being on Zhan's place, he truly wondered how could this fragile man endure this much suffer.

"Zhan, the more it hurts... You know it'll heal sooner. So more little, you can do it" doctor sweetly said and kept doing his work

"I'll, surely" Zhan smiled and breathed out  "i have to ... Learn walking again until next month"

"Is this for any special reason?"

"Mn, there is someone who ... I want to give surprise. I know he cares and worries more than me. i want to see his happy face as soon as possible"

"Seems like he loves you too much and you feel the same"

"Yes and you know? It's such a big responsibility, when we're dearly loved from someone, it makes us to improve, to take care more about ourselves. Perfect, sweet family... I want to give him this, no matter how much it hurts still... Gonna win"

"i like your persistence. You worked hard today Zhan, let's exercise in the swimming pool now, it's refreshing and gonna reduce your pain"

"Sure, thanks doctor"

Already floating on the water Zhan closed the eyes and smiled feeling very warm and calm. The memories from past life came back to his mind, swimming in the "cold spring"  Lan Zhan loved to lay on the back with him and hold his hand, while looking up to the sky. Like kids they're searching for some resemblance to real things in the clouds and as always Wei Ying was having dirty mind. Zhan sadly smiled and suddenly strong arms caught his back and made his body to move slowly, this touch, this huge palms was too familiar and Zhan whispered

"Yibo" without opening eyes, he raised his hand and soft lips immediately planted kiss on it. His waist was trapped and Zhan opened eyes, meeting Yibo's lovely stare "didn't i ..."

"Yes you warned me but your doctor allowed. i like him, cause he doesn't like you. This is good"

"Yibo"

"Ok, ok. But to know, not your bf, i'm here as a drug"

"What?"

"You once told me that my touches and lips can heal, so ..." Yibo pulled him closer and nibbled on his lips, too softly, too gently, Zhan felt all pain gone and almost melted in his arms. He giggled and hearing this fave sound Yibo pinned him over water, playing like kid

"I want exactly this, to experience everything with you, always no matter what to make you smile. Did you forget? We're married, we're tied together forever, so don't ask me anymore to let you do something alone"

"How can i forget this?" Zhan tightly hugged him and messed his hair "that i have best husband. Now let's go from here, or... Look everyone is looking at us, too embarrassing"

"This is weird, me being more shameless than you" Yibo laughed and carefully carried him out from the pool. After drying their bodies, Yibo moved wheelchair through corridor searching for Haikuan. Suddenly little boy stopped in front of them and stared at Zhan, he instinctively covered the scar but Zhan was surprised when boy smiled and hold his hand, caressing it.

"Who hurt this pretty gege?" He asked sweetly and Zhan felt his heart melting. Although no one cared about this scar around him and especially Yibo was almost killing him by nonstop kisses as before, still he feared someone gonna find in scaring. The pure worry in this cute boys eyes almost made him cry. Yibo knelt in front of them and answered him

"No one dear. this gege is hero, he saved someone's life"

"Really? Like spider man?"

"Mn"

"Does he have special costume too?"

"No, he has wings like angel but hides under clothes now"

"Yibo you" Zhan hit his head and smiled at the kid "this gege is crazy, don't believe to him"

"What did i say wrong?" Pouted Yibo "cutie, what is your name?"

"i'm Sizhui  gege"

"Such a special and beautiful name" Zhan petted his hair and asked Haikuan who just came there with unfamiliar woman "this kid, is he patient here?"

"Sizhui, follow this aunt ok? I'll see you soon" 

"ok doctor" he suddenly hugged Zhan's neck and moved tiny hands on his back "fighting hero gege, next time show me your wings ok? bye handsome gege" he smiled at Yibo too. Haikuan sadly shook his head after they left "he just lost his both parents in car accident"

"What is going to happen to him now?"

"He doesn't have other relatives who is willing to adopt so...this woman is here to take him to the orphanage"

Zhan looked at Yibo, whose face darkened and tightly hold his hand. In both life he had to live as orphan, without parental love and care. Yibo lowered his head and silently carried Zhan to the car. all the way Yibo couldn't stay still, until finally decided to speak up

"Sizhui, He was very lovely no?"

"Mn"

"He liked us both, don't you think so?"

"Right"

"I feel sorry for him, Zhan ... can us... i mean?"

"We can't Yibo"  Yibo frowned and Zhan suddenly cup his face, softly kissing his cheek "but dad can"

"What?"

"since we left the hospital i couldn't stop thinking about him too, it feels like that  kid is written in our fate. his name too... somehow in past and new life too, we always have to long and yearn for each-other. maybe bringing him in our life, finally we can make it complete and him happy. dad mumbles almost everyday about being alone at the huge house so this kid can make his life lively, until we can take good care of him by ourselves. What do you say?"

"are you serious?"

"mn, but are you sure Yibo? this is such a big responsibility"

"although i didn't think about it before and this is too sudden, still i'm, wish he agrees too, i know how hard it is to live in the orphanage. let's give him warmth and family. but about dad... we always bother him, at first it was me and now. I feel..."

"You don't have to my love. Only thing what matters for him is my happiness and dad truly loves you too. Saving your and Hao Xuan's life was very pleasant for him and this too, he'll be happy about Sizhui"

"you're truly angel, i didn't lie to him no?" Yibo softly kissed his forehead and whispered "you always were Wei Ying"

"Lan Zhan, Hanguang Jun, Lan er gege. all four seasons passed already and i search you in everything and everyone around, i didn't move even one thing in our bedroom, i'm not letting anyone in, fear the trace you left there gonna disappear. your sandalwood scent, i still can feel it. our bed, my little heaven, my safest place, it's still full of you" Wei Ying slowly walked into water and lay on the water, his long hair started floating and he looked like heavenly fairy "finally i dared to come here, wanna talk to you, wanna tell how i'm living. water here... it's like you, always cold but warm only for me. sky is too clear now, like your eyes, you're looking at me no? i missed you Lan Zhan, i missed you too much.

can you imagine? i became best disciple of your uncle? are you surprised? mn everyone is. i decided to fulfill your dream myself, i'll study very well and will teach cultivation to young generation, i know it sounds weird from crazy Wei Wuxian but Wei Ying carries you too now, in me, in my heart and soul, we're one and i'll live instead of you too, until i can... handle it. at evenings we always sit together in his chamber and are talking about you, uncle Qiren and Zewu Jun remembers every little detail about you and we smile feeling like you're still here, next to us. sometimes i can't stop myself and tell something naughty memory from our married life, making them speechless. 

Cheng still lives here and tries everything to take good care of me, to make me smile, just realized how much he was always loving me and Lan Zhan you know? i feel like he and your brother hide something from me. can you imagine your uncle's reaction if they become lovers like us? even thinking about it makes me laugh so hard. but... we both want happiness for them no? happiness... the precious thing, we could never have" Wei Ying closed eyes and felt something warm caressing his face, even just imagination he knew Lan Zhan was there "it's too early now, next time you come ... take me with you my love, i'll wait for you"

I couldn't end WangXian story without Sizhui ❤️ even it's in modern life 😊 past moment will be only in next chapter and rest few one only sweetness and happiness 🥰