Delirious's POV:

Everyone was standing around me. Waiting. Waiting for this maybe magical moment. As soon as I could smell that beautiful Old Spice and maple syrup smell I knew I was gonna finally do it. I leaned more into Vanoss. Then I heard Abbie screaming. "DELIRIOUS!" I shot up. "What?" When I looked at her everything was blurry. She pointed at my side. I looked down and saw a huge red spot in my hoodie. Probably from the doctor fight. I didn't care. I tried reaching for Vanoss but then fell and went into blackness. 

I woke up in a hospital bed. I looked at the clock. I started panicking. It was 6:50. "Evan..." I hopped out of the bed and ran out the door. I had to find Vanoss's room. I ran down the hallway. I barged right into his room. I ran right to his side. I had to do it. Now or never. I kissed him once. Nothing. I kissed him again. Nothing. "EVAN!" I had tears streaming down my face. "EVAN!" I looked at the clock. 7:00am. "I'm too late..." Everyone was crying. Abbie was probably crying the most. But no body was as broken as me. I sat there. Staring into Vanoss's face. He's gone. He's really gone. And it's all my fault for being a freaking wussy and not kissing him before. I couldn't take it anymore. I ran out of the room. I couldn't see him like that. I heard Abbie yell my name but I ignored her. "DELIRIOUS! JONATHAN! COME BACK!" I had to leave. I ran out of the hospital. I was in the parking lot. I fell to my knees. "EVAAAAAAAAN!!" I clutched my head in my arms. I squeezed my hair. "FUCK IT'S ALL MY FAULT!!" I ran out of the parking lot. I ran through traffic. A couple cars almost hit me and of course flicked me off. I didn't care. Run me over. I lost my best friend. My love. I ran back to the library. I hopped into my car. I drove home. I was crying so hard. I couldn't see the road. I looked in the rear view mirror. I saw something sitting on the railing I just past. It was an owl. I started crying even harder. I didn't even care where I was going. I past every single turn I should've taken. I looked in my back seat. One of Vanoss's bags were left in the car. I grabbed it quick. I opened it and dumped everything out in the passenger seat. I saw a black hoodie. A grey T-shirt. Then when I saw that blue shirt I lost it. He had one of my shirts. I saw something light up under all the stuff. His phone. He must have dropped it when we sped off to the library. I pulled over into a random dirt road. I picked up the phone. It was a text from Sydney. 

What are you talking about babe?

I didn't understand so I went through their whole conversation. 

E-Hey...um Syd? I need to talk to you. 

S-What's sup babe?

E-I... I'm in love with someone else. 

S-Lol. You're such a liar. So I'll just play along. So who is it then?

E-Delirious...

S-Him? Really? Lol. Nice choice.

E-Look Sydney I'm being serious. I love Jon. He means more than the world to me. 

S-What are you talking about babe? 

I started crying even harder than before. He.... he loved me. And I wasted it. I could've loved him forever. But I wasted it. It's all over. He's gone. I pulled out and drove home. I sat with the car running. I started thinking out loud. "What if I could go be with him?" "I have the perfect way too." I laid my head back and smiled. "Don't worry Evay bear. I'm coming." I ran inside with the car running and everything. I ran into my bathroom and shut the door. I got out the rest of my razors. I used the first razor to carve a word into my left arm. 'Jon'. I then went to my other arm. 'Evan'. I had blood and pain coming out of both arms. I put a heart beside Evan's name. It hurt like fuck but it was worth it. I threw the razors away. I ran out side to the running car. I put in my Metallica album Vanoss got for me on my 26th birthday. I listened to every song. I drove to the bridge they were re-building. I put both hands on the wheels. I had tears coming down my face. Blood running down both arms. I roared the engine. "I'm coming Evan..." I stepped on the gas and drove right off the bridge. I fell right into the ditch. I felt something drip out of my nose. I looked down. There was a piece of the windshield right through my chest. I had blood running down the sides of my mouth. I felt myself lose control. I felt sleepier. More free. I felt the littlest bit of pain. I saw the light. I saw Evan standing there waving. He was walking closer and closer to me. I walked up to him. He grabbed my chin. He looked me in the eyes and kissed me. Then he waved and disappeared. And I fell into a blackness with voices of my friends everywhere. 

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 But I have nothing to say for this other than. IT'S NOT OVER....