Ginger taught us at Marco's level, he was in the third grade, and I would be in kindergarten but sense I knew how to read, Ginger would have Jasper work with me on writing, and math. I really hate math, but I like cursive writing.
Jasper wasn't happy about teaching me, but did it anyway.
Ginger, is okay with me calling her mom, she tries to ask me about my birth parents, but I can't remember.
It hurts too.
It's been a few months sense I came here, and I really miss Sam and Dean.
I keep having dreams where I wake up screaming, or in a cold sweat. Sometimes I'm so scared by them, (even though I can't remember them) that I don't eat breakfast.

Mom is really worried, she has been on the phone with someone, asking questions about me. She doesn't get the answers she wants because she places her nails in her mouth like she's going to bite them, that's when you know she's thinking.

Today's one of the days where the nightmares scared me really bad. I'm staying in bed, I don't want to go out, not even to go potty.

Chester, and Graciela are taking turns trying to get me out of bed. They said I don't have to get dressed, that I just have to get up. My back's against the wall, I'm in my bunk bed Avril and I share, I know I'm here but then I'm somewhere else.

"Her." The man with yellow eyes, points to me. A chill runs through my body, I'm scared.
"NO!" Daniel yells, struggling to get away from the men.
I'm suddenly free from the force pushing me back.
"NO." Daniel growls "Run!"
I do. Then I can't move, then I'm being pulled towards the yellow eyed man, then he has me.
"You sick fucks. Let her go!"
The punch him. They do it again, and again, and again until his face is swollen. Blood pouring onto the floor.
"Angels." I hear him mutter "God, in heaven, I beg thee. For your faithful servant save her."
They punch him again and he goes limp.

I'm scared. He can't be dead can he? Oh God don't let him be dead.
I begin to struggle, the man's grip.on me tightens.
"Daniel!" I yell to the teen.
They're pulling me away, soon I'm in a room with candel light. People are there in black cloaks. Then I'm tied to something, I'm screaming. I'm scared. Daniel. Is he dead? It's all my fault he got hurt!

Everything is burning, there's words I don't understand.

Then I'm back. I'm shaking, and white as my sheet. I'm crying too, Eloise is beside me, she has my right hand in hers. We're both quite for s moment.
"You want me to get you some breakfast?" I shake my head.

"How about water?" The purple haired girl asked.

I nodded.

She came back a few moments later, Raven was with her.
"Hey kiddo wanna head to the park with us? Jasper is coming." 

I shrug.

Outside a voice in my head echoes, the word itself is really sweet like candy, and it makes my heart feel like it's flying.

I scoot to the end of the bed, my feet touching the floor, i place hardly any wait on them when I fall on the floor. Raven rushes over to help me up.
"Are you okay?" She chuckles. 

I look at her, and nod. She helped me up, helping me with my outfit for the day. I looked at her outfit, she wore a purple jeaned overalls, a dark blue button down shirt, and black sneakers, Eloise was wearing, a red shirt, jeans, and black sneakers as well. I puled out a red shirt, Raven handing me a blue jeaned skirt, and pink butterfly socks.

The four of us, got ready, mom gave me a backpack filled with snacks.

"For lunch." She said, in a serious tone, looking at Jasper more than me.

"Okay mama." I said, going to the door to put my light up strawberry short cake sneakers.

Then we left. Jasper driving, the park was twenty minutes away from our house. Raven sat in front with Jasper, Eloise with me in the back.

"So," the black haired girl said, looking out the window."Do you know what Post Traumatic stress is?" 

I shook my head.

"It's a thing where someone gets flashbacks, or anxiety from a past event. Sometimes they can remember the event, sometimes they can't."

"Where was she going with this?" I thought,  I gave her a confused look, she looked at me.

"Rave and I have it, we can't be on buses, once a long time ago. There was a really bad accident with a bus, and only seven people got out of it alive."

"You think I have it?" I said, finally understanding what she was saying.

"It's possible," Jasper said "We can't exactly get you help for it, not even you can remember it. Which is good, and bad.

"So should I try to remember it?" 

"No." they all chorused.

"It'll show up when it shows up." Raven said, reaching over to the radio, cranking up the radio.

"I HEARD THAT YOU WERE TALKING SHIT!" Blared through the radio, I grabbed my ears, Ravne turned down the radio as fast you could do.

"People hear you talking like that," The voice sang through the radio, Raven began singing along to the song.

"Getting everybody fired up. So I'm ready to attack, gonna lead the pack. Gonna get a touchdown gonna take you out. That right put your pom-poms down, getting everybody fired up."

"Few times been around that track, so It's not gonna happen like that." Eloise began to hum along with the song

"'CAUSE I AIN'T NO HOLLA BACK GIRL!"  The white haired driver yelled, making Raven and I laugh.

"That's my shit, that's my shit." I began to sing along, the teens laughing at me while I sang, I was going to keep singing, until the red eyed teen spoke up.

"Mary, hun, you can't say that word." He said trying to look serious, 

"What word?" I asked tilting my head a little.

"Shit."

"Why?"

"Because-"

"Because," Eloise said "It's a bad word, and if you say bad words, bad things happen."

I gasped, and started rapidly apologizing for the bad word, promising to never even think of another curse word.

"It's okay MJ." Eloise said "Nothing bad will happen now."
"Promise?" I said a little nervous still.

"I promise." The dark eyed girl said giving me a soft smile, and I believed her. 

I didn't know promises could be broken so soon.