It hit me with a

Knock

Knock

Knock

It hit me hard and made me

S w a y

So I held onto her

She made me FEEL
S T E A D Y

She would take my hand
We would walk down the hallways
D
O
W
N
The streets

It was fine

Because we were
Best f r i e n d s

Her voice was like music

Her words like the knives I use to cut my SKIN

Boys

Boys

Boys

There was this c u t e b o y

She would say

But it was FINE
Because we were best friends

But she didn't know

The way I felt

She made my skin c r a w l

She made my heart f L u T t E r

She filled my heart with LOVE

For her

But

Every second with her
Every tic
Every toc
Every tik
Every tok
S l o w l y
SCARRED
M Y
heart

Each time I came back
Without her
In my arms
Emptied out my eyes

BURNED them with loneliness

and heartbreak

eva
pora
ted

the tears

Leaving remnants of a f l e e t i n g happiness

And time would move on
And I would move on

But my heart would stand still

And I guess it was too much

T O O
MUCH

For me to handle

My boxed up love

So I slowly sliced open the tape

And ripped the box to shreds

And made her feel my love

And she did

And I know she loves me

The way her eyes S P A R K L E D
The way they T W I N K L E D

The way she cut herself off

'I lov-'

The way I cut myself

The way she shouted my name

'GET OFF ME -----'

The way I cried her name

The way she slapped me

'GO KILL YOURSELF'

The way I tried to

But the guilt in her eyes

Made me want

to T R Y a g a i n

Because I know she loves me

B
U
T

I also
know
That she
hates
That she
loves me so

From her flinch
From her hesitence
From the scene
she made

and so many people were on her side

When the room was FLOODED

When the temperature RISED

The way questions were RAISED

And fingers were POINTED

RIGHT
AT
MY
WAY

HER
FINGER

HER
ACCUSATION

broke my hea rt

the way they
b r o k e
my bones

strangled my heart

the way they
STRANGLED
my neck

left me battered and bruised

the way they
LEFT m e
to DIE

And I grew numb

And their slurs
were b lu r r ed
and bl e nd e d
into white noise

And the room was empty

And I was cold

And s l o w l y

dying

But then my hand became warm

Only my hand

As she knelt beside me

And took my hand in hers

And her tears

They weighed a ton each

And her eyes

Were filled with regret

and realisation

And for the first time

I was steady

Because I knew

That she knew

that she loves me.