Previously:

Your name is written on it. Namjoon."

Present:

Two days later:

Yeosang pov:

Its been two days since I come back at home, if its even call that anymore, now I get all that treatment, everything makes sense, all of their reasons etc, still it hurts,

Its been two days since my sleep is being taken away from me.

Its been two days since I left my room.

Knock! Knock!

I didnt response as usual since past two days. I heard the door open and didn't even bother looking at the door as I am sitting on my window's frame with my head resting against the cold closed glass of the window.

"Sangie?" The voice was of mingi hyung, I again didnt reply and kept looking outside. He sit on my bed and after a sigh start talking.

"I know, heck! I know you are angry and felt numb and all right now, but please.. don't make your brothers suffer more, don't make any of us suffer anymore, we are all worried for you, sangie. Please.. eat something, talk something, leave this room and come out, have some sleep, please?" He said softly. I just hum in response still not looking at him but at a lone tree outside.

"Why are you here?" I asked mingi hyung with a straight face as I face him but as he started talking again I look back outside.

"Well, seonghwa and yunho are at work, san and jongho are at school and I have to go somewhere urgently as well,.. will you be-" I cut him off in a rude voice still looking at the tree.

"I will be FINE!" I yelled as mingi hyung sigh again and after a small 'ok', left.

I kept sitting their for like one hour?

Maybe.hyung is right... my brothers had suffered because of me as well.

Suddenly the next thing I know is I was standing in wooyoung's room. His room looks the same.

His untouched basketball game place, computer, pictures, bed sheets everything look updated. I am sure its yunho hyung who kept wooyoung's room updated, in these past two days I heard someone open wooyoung's room door and cry in their.

I walk around wooyoung's room as my left hand traced everything as I walk until I reached his piano.

I took the cover off the keys and play few keys and sit on the seat in front of the piano while playing the keys with left hand while right on my lap and started singing as well.

"How can I say this without breaking?
How can I say this without taking over?
How can I put it down into words when its almost too much for my soul alone?"

I then raise my right hand and start playing with both hands while closing my eyes pouring all my feeling I held inside in this song.

"I loved, and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.
And it hurts like hell.
Oh, yh, it hurts like hell~

[MUSIC-piano]

Ohh,

I don't want them to know the secrets.
I don't want them to know the way I loved you.
I don't think they'd understand it, no
I don't think they would accept me, no.

I loved and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.
And it hurts like hell.
Yeah, it hurts like hell~

Dreams fight with machines
I

nside my head like adversaries

Come wrestle me free
Clean from the war
Your heart fits like a key
Into the lock on the wall
I turn it over, I turn it over
But I can't escape
I turn it over , I turn it over.

I loved and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.
I loved and I loved and I lost you.

And it hurts like hell..."

Tears fall on my lap as sob left my lips. Hands reach up to cup my face as I sob in them.

Two warm arms embrace me and I just let myself break down while clinching the soft fabric of the shirt that person is wearing.

I didn't care in whos arm I was crying but it felt warm, similar to wooyoung's.

I didn't break the hug and look at the person to get disappointed nor do I wanted to rise my hopes.

Hongjoong pov:

I enter the house with emotionless face, no one here and so I come here, well, the truth is, as I told before no one is home, I have come here to meet only with yeosang, but was shocked when I heard singing. I recognize the voice, its of yeosang's, I followed the voice and it lead to me in front of wooyoung's room. I open the door quietly don't want to disturb yeosang. I kept standing their, observing him, those lyrics, the way of his singing that song, his emotions, tears roll down his face and him not even noticing it.

Tears roll down my face as I kept looking at yeosang without doing anything with right hand on door knob.

I saw him broke down in front of me, I started taking slow steps to him amd lower myself to sit besides him and embrace him in my arm. He kept crying.

I kept quiet as well, letting him breakdown, I know he's going through many emotions right now, tears roll down my eyes as well but I kept emotionless face.

Even tho I try I couldn't break down like him.

After what felt like two or three hours, we finally broke the hug, I shales my head slowly as I wipe his tears from his pretty face.

He just hiccups looking at me with tears more rolling down his face.

"I can't, I can't do this anymore" he broke down again.

"Shh.. hey hey, come here" I hug him again and he starts crying again.

"I can't do it anymore" he kept repeating this while crying and I kept telling him to just calm down.

After some time we again break our hug and put my hands on his shoulders.

"Yeosang, look at me, we-we have to be strong for-for woo, right now" I glup and continue.

"We-we have to fight. " I close my eyes as tears roll down but look at yeosang when he wipe my tears.

I give him a small smile , he return my gesture but it disappear immediately and nods while averting his gaze from anywhere but me.

"You-you're right." He said in his horse voice from crying.

I look down in my lap as well.

"Yeosang..please.. we all need you right now" I look up to him playing with his fingers placed in his lap while looking at them.

I sigh as I place a hand on his shoulder, he look at me with his puffy, red eyes and hum.

"Ik I am in no place to tell you this, but lets hope everything will be fine soon, lets-lets be normal, i-i know it hurts." I look outside the window of wooyoung's room.

"It hurts when you had so much on your mind and you don't know what to do, everyone except from you, and you-" I take a deep breath and continues "and you don't know where to go and what to do, life feels stuck, and...."

"And you feel stuck, not knowing what to do or what you can do." I look at yeosang who had cut off me and complete my sentence, looking at me from before.

I just nods slowly looking at him.

"Lets just-i am not saying forget everything and move on, I am saying that just move on, you don't or not, anyone is telling you to forget what past holds, but it is in past and it will never come again."

I was again cut off by yeosang who laugh bitterly while looking at front with a shake of head.

"Everyone say this, then answer me, why he come back! And why the hell it happen to me AGAIN,!" He yelled as I look down.

"Ans me hyung!" He look at me again and I look back at him with emotionless.

"Cause it already happen."

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I am alive!

Anyways, song used:

(Nightcore-hurts like hell)

But plz imgine yeosang has sing it for the sake of story

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