Connor's POV
'How did I get here?' I ask myself as I look at the gates of Hell in front of me. School. Where I'm the freak show to everyone.

I walk to the office to get my schedule, after that I make my way to the school hallways and start reading my schedule-

"Hey, Connor." I hear someone say my name so I look up and it's non other the the insanely stupid Jared Kleinman. "I'm loving the new hair length. Very school shooter chic."

I glare at him.
"I was kidding. It was a joke." He tells me in a reassurances type of tone.
"Yeah, no, it was funny. I'm laughing. Can't you tell? Am I not laughing hard enough for you?!" I start shouting at him.

He chuckles nervously and backs away slowly, "You're such a freak." He finally said, he turns around and walks away.

I then here a little chuckle coming from an injured midget.
I turn to him still pissed about Jared,

"What the fuck are you laughing at?" I ask him

"What?" He asked almost in a whisper. I can feel everyone's eyes on us almost like they are waiting for me to kill him.

"Stop fucking laughing at me!"
"I'm not." He said nervously.
"You think I'm a freak?!"
"No I don't-" I cut him off still angry.
"I'm not the fucking freak!"
"But I wasn't-"
"You're the fucking freak!"

I finish shouting and push to the ground pushing him down storming away and pushing other people to the side.

- time skip-

Evan's POV

I hang up the phone and actually start typing my letter to my self.

Dear Evan Hansen,

It turns out, this wasn't an amazing day after all. This isn't going to be an amazing week or an amazing year. Because...why would it be?

Oh I know. Because there's Zoe. And all my hope is pinned on Zoe. Who I don't even know and who doesn't know me. But maybe if I did. Maybe if I could just talk to her, then maybe...maybe nothing would be different at all.

I wish that everything was different. I wish that I was apart of...something. I wish that anything I said...mattered to anyone. I mean, face it: would anybody notice if I disappeared tomorrow?

 
    Sincerely, your best and most dearest friend,
Me

When your falling in a forest and there's nobody around do you ever really crash or even make a sound? When your falling in a forest and there's nobody around do you ever really crash or even make a-

"So....what happened to your arm?" I hear a voice ask, I snap my head to see who it is and it's Connor. Connor Murphy.

"Oh, I fell out of a tree actually." I told him fiddling with the end of my shirt, a thing I do when I get nervous.

"You fell out of a tree? Well...that is just the saddest fucking thing I've ever heard." He said not sympathetically but plainly.

"I know."
"Um. No one signed your cast."
"No, I know."
"Well I'll sign it." Fuck.
"Oh, you don't have too-"
"Do you have a sharpie?" I know if I keep declining he'll either snap or just keep going so I just stopped declining.

He tugged on my arm which hurt a little but then started writing his name in big letters.

CONNOR'S POV

"Oh great... thanks....." the injured midget said as I finished writing my name on his cast.

"Yeah well, now we both can pretend we have friends."
"Good- Good point." He responded.

"Um, is this yours? I found it on the printer." I told him.
"Dear Evan Hansen is that your name?" I ask him looking over the letter.

"OhthatsjustanassignmentIhadto-" I cut him off looking at a name I knew on the paper. Zoe.

"Because there's Zoe?" I say in confusion.
"Is this about my sister?" I said starting to get pissed.

"You wrote this because you knew that I would find it." I said everything started to come together in my fucked up mind.
"What? No-" Evan started to talk but I cut him off again.

"Yeah...you saw that I was the only other person in the computer lab so you wrote this and printed it out so that I would find it."

"Why...um why would I do that?"

"SO I CAN READ SOME CREEPY SHIT YOU WEOTE ABOUT MY SISTER AND FREAK OUT RIGHT?! AND THEN YOU CAN TELL EVERYONE THAT I'M CRAZY RIGHT?!"

"N- no-"
"FUCK YOU!"

I can hear him start to chase me saying, "No! But I need that back!! So can you please can you just give it back!!!"

But then he just stayed in the computer lab. Fuckin freak. Who the hell does he think he is writing about my sister like that.