Rosé POV

The past two weeks had been a little depressing.

YG Sajangnim called me and the rest of the girls separately.

Since Blackpink is technically in a dating ban, that means the three are not allowed to date.

The truth is, dating ban wasn't included in my contract because I was basically married before I even debut. But that secret was known only by me, Jimin and YG Sajangnim. And YG Sajangnim specifically told us that it should stay that way.

The amount of guilt that I felt when YG Sajangnim told the girls that they are not allowed to date, is immeasurable. I wanted to shrink down on the floor until I vanish.

Jisoo unnie was heartbroken and no matter how hard she tries to look like she isn't affected, it's obvious that she is.

YG Sjangnim just said that since I am already dating, Blackpink can't take the risk of allowing another member to be in a relationship.

At least not now.

I am not stupid.

I can always hear sobbing in Jisoo unnie's room. Her phone has been taken as well so she can't contact Yoongi oppa.

Jimin told me that Yoongi oppa never said a word to any of his members and is acting like how he usually does, sleeping.

If I did not tell him what happened, he won't have the slightest idea.

I wonder why Yoongi oppa isn't mad at us.

The way he spoke to me about Jisoo unnie, his heart was breaking.

He can barely finish his sentences and all he said was all for unnie's sake.

Only Jimin, me and Yoongi knew what happened.

Jimin talked to Yoongi oppa about it but the other said that it's fine.

My heart ached after Yoongi oppa asked me not to feel guilty about it and that he understands.

Why does he have to be so okay with it? It makes me and Jimin feel more guilty about everything.

Jennie and Lisa aren't speaking but I know they are also shaken up by it. Who wouldn't?

I mean, one member was dating while the rest are not allowed. Even I thinks that it's so unfair. But the sad truth is, we agreed to it. We were told from the very beginning of the dating ban and we agreed.

But I cheated.

I got married. And they don't know about that.

Should I tell them?

My thoughts were broken after I heard my phone ringing.

I bite my lips as I notice Jisoo unnie looking at my direction.

We were currently heading to another university festival. Our manager had been giving us some reminders though none of us is actually paying attention.

Jennie was tapping on her phone as well as Lisa.

As for me, I am refraining from using my phone outside of my room because Jisoo unnie doesn't have her phone right now. 

I was contemplating whether I should answer the call or not.

It's Jimin.

I decided to do the later.

I ended the call.

I'll just send a message to him later to ask what he wants to say.

Once the ringing of my phone stopped,  Jisoo unnie glances back at the window, with the busy street in front.

My phone suddenly beeps and I curse my self internally for not remembering to put it in silent.

I read Jimin's message.

"Are you busy? I want to hear your sweet voice..."

I tried to suppress the smile that is attempting to escape on my lips.

Jimin had been so sweet and I feel so guilty for neglecting him these past few days because of what happened.

To add to that,  both of our groups will be busy because they'll be having their tour while we would be preparing for our comeback.

As for us,  our song was already finished and we just need to record it.

In a few months,  we'll be super busy for both recording and practices. I'm mentally preparing myself this early because our dance teachers are monsters.

I quickly typed a new message for him, taking advantage of the fact that Jisoo unnie wasn't looking.

"We'll talk later. I miss you too 😍"

Soon enough,  our van halted inside the venue and we quickly moved over to where the dressing room is.

After a few minutes, we're already up for the rehearsal.

My brows furrowed once I notice a familiar figure standing a few meters away from us.
Park Jimin and the rest of his members.

They are going to perform here too?

"That stupid brat," I whispered.

He never told me that they will also be performing here.

As much as I love to see him right now,  I worry more about Jisoo unnie.

I don't think it is a good idea for her to see Yoongi oppa at this point.

She might break down and cry.

I turned and noticed that Jisoo unnie haven't seen them yet.

As I stood on my position,  my eyes landed on Jimin and he smiled.

My inside could have melted if I don't actually remember how he did not tell me about today.

I rolled my eyes on him and his mouth went agape.

After our rehearsals,  it was their turn.

This time,  Jisoo unnie stopped from her tracks once her eyes landed on Yoongi oppa.

My heart broke into pieces once I realized how Yoongi oppa purposely avoided her even after the rest of BTS waved their hands on our direction.

You know in dramas, when two people met, the guy would pull the girl on her arm and hug her real tight?

This time, Jisoo unnie pulled Yoongi oppa's arm and the rest of the boys were startled.

I looked around and noticed a few people looking at us.

Jimin quickly hangs his shoulder on Yoongi oppa while I swiftly moved and covered them, acting like we're all talking.

My eyes widen after Yoongi oppa released his arm from Jisoo unnie's and turned his back.

"Yoongi... " her voice cracked and I clung my arms into her as I pulled her away from the crowd.

She might cry any minute.

Once we were away from the crowd and inside our dressing room,  Jisoo unnie runs towards the restroom and locked herself.

I bit my nails in panic.

"Chaey, why is this happening?" Lisa looked at me worriedly.

Jennie hugged Lisa as we continue to call Jisoo unnie.

After a few minutes, the door opened and Jisoo unnie came out. Her eyes red and her hair was dishevelled.

She must have been shocked at Yoongi oppa's action earlier.

I was startled when she pulled me closer,  away from the others while both Lisa and Jennie was preparing for later.

"Unnie," I hugged her as she turned to look at me.

I look into her eyes and realized that the playful glint that it normally has already vanished.

Instead, all I see is pain and longing.

"I know this might be too much to ask, but can you please avoid doing or saying anything about Jimin or anything that will relate to BTS from now on?" she asked,  her voice shaking,  probably trying to suppress the emotion that is threatening to spill.

What did she just say?

"I won't ask you to break up with him. But can you at least lie low for some moment until I get better? Stop seeing or texting him in the meantime so I won't think about you guys all the time?  This might be selfish but I need your help,  Chaey." she pleaded, and I can't take this any longer.

"Are you asking me to avoid Park Jimin or any of the BTS?" I asked,  confused and she nodded.

"Just give me enough time, Chaey. I don't want to keep on remembering him. Please,  just do this for me. If I'm ever important to you. Please...." and another tear escaped her eyes.

"Unnie..." I whispered.

Am I ready to stop seeing Jimin right now?

Can I actually do that when just the moment I open my eyes from sleeping, he's all I think about?

Can I ignore him when every little thing I do relates to him?

Can I really ignore Park Jimin, my husband? 

"I'm begging you,  Chaey..." Jisoo unnie started crying and it broke my heart into a million pieces.

I closed my eyes.

I hope I don't regret this because this might break mine and Jimin's heart. But I can't let Jisoo unnie lose herself because of this.

"I will, unnie. I will stop seeing him for the meantime."

She smiled at what I said and pulled me in a hug.

Did I do the right thing?