Rose POV

It has been a week after the incident between Jimin and me, and I never heard back from him.

No explanation.

No apology

Not a single word.

And it kills me.

The girls had been worried as I became a mess not just emotionally but physically.

I have huge bags under my eyes and I can barely eat.

All those happy memories with him have been exchanged with hatred and sorrow.

I can't believe he did that to me.

I hate you, Park Jimin. I told myself over and over. 

I don't even know how I ended up home but Lisa said Ten from NCT brought me to the dorm.

I'm not sure why he was there. Maybe he's with Seulgi but I'm glad that he's Lisa's friend and he's kind enough to bring me home without getting any attention from around us.

Imagine the horror it could have been if I was caught with Ten at that state.

Jennie and Jisoo unnie were so angry that Jennie called Taehyung and asked him to relay a series of cursing for Jimin.

I was too preoccupied to even bother.

What's even worse is that an article was published by Dispatch the next day confirming the relationship of the two. Of course, with a photo of them kissing along the alley. Though BigHit never really released a statement.

What a sweet sight. I thought bitterly as I see their photos. 

My Mom and Dad called me the next day and I felt so bad for lying.

I told them it was just a front between two companies.

My throat tightened as I tried my best not to cry when talking with my parents. The truth is, I wanted to go home, away from all of this.

YG Sajangnim also called me yesterday and told me to stop seeing Jimin in the meantime.

Well, he did not need to tell me twice because I won't be seeing any of him at this time.

Not after what he did.

He played with my heart and after all the trust and understanding that I gave, I've had enough of his bullshits.

"Chaeng, stop moping around. He's not worth it for your tears." Jennie scoffed and though she may sound harsh for a minute, I know what she's trying to do.

"He doesn't deserve you Chaeng. There are a lot of guys out there who would die for your attention." Jisoo unnie added and I noticed how her phone kept ringing but she didn't bother answering. Instead, she turned off her phone looking so pissed off.

Even Lisa is no longer checking her phone. I wonder if she stopped messaging Jungkook because of me.

Lisa wrapped her arms around me as she sits beside me on the couch.

"Chaeng, I miss you." she cooed and I have never been so happy to have my girls beside me.

I'm glad that I decided not to tell them about my marriage with Jimin because they may have flipped him over.

The necklace that I was missing, I didn't bother to look for it. It's useless anyway.

He said we're over. I won't be shocked if I receive divorce papers on my front door.

"I miss you too.." I smiled at Lisa.

There's no point in crying.

Like what I said, I've had enough. Jimin and Seulgi can kiss each other's ass.

I'm in my twenties and I won't allow their selfishness to ruin my happiness.

"Hey, are you not going to prepare? Today's you shoot for Fantastic Duo." Jisoo unnie reminded me.

I sigh in relief after remembering that I already practised for it.

"I will. Wish me luck, okay?" I told them as I went to prepare.

After a few hours, my manager came and I bowed to Junhoe sunbae once I realized that we will travel together in a van.

"Hey, Rose',!" he cheered and I smiled back at him.

Ikon, Winner, and Blackpink are close.

It may seem that we aren't but our sunbaes have been helpful ever since.

During monthly evaluations, they would give us advice.

"Are you nervous sunbae?" I asked him trying to shake off my nervousness myself.

He chuckled at the sight of me.

"I am but I'm guessing you're more nervous, huh?"

I grinned at him unable to hide my emotions.

"I'm just excited about singing in front of Gummy sunbae. You know, since I always see her in the hallway when I was a trainee."

"Don't worry, she will love your voice. Besides, we're talking about Park Chaeyoung here okay, the girl who came first place out of 400 people who auditioned," he said wiggling his eyebrows.

I just laughed at his teasing.

Before I knew it, we were already at the studio and I bowed as I see the other participants for Gummy sunbaes duo.

After the meet and greet, we all practised in the studio and I'm so glad because they are all so kind.

"Ottoke." I muttered as I fail to hit the high note.

My voice is a little hoarse from all the crying that I did the past few days.

"You can do it like this." I followed Sungjae sunbae's advice.

He is so good at singing, oh my God.

"That's good!" he said clapping as I finally hit the note. "As expected from you Rose'-ssi." he added as he claps his hands.

My cheeks blushed a little.

"Do you know Eunkwang hyung had been praising you a lot after your performance on King of Mask Singer last time?" 

After a few minutes, we already started the taping and I felt my chest about to burst in excitement.

"You're going to sing something for us Rose'-ssi right?" Hyun Moo said and I shyly nodded.

Finally, I will be singing in front of my idol.

"Let's hear it!" and the audience started clapping.

"Cue!" I said a little loud and I felt embarrassed after they all laughed at my actions.

And then I started singing.

https://youtu.be/BZY3F6ZSMhc

To the left, to the left

To the left, to the left (mmmmmm)

To the left, to the left

Standing in the front yard

Tellin' me, how I'm such a fool

Talkin' 'bout, I'll never ever find a man like you

You got me twisted

You must not know about me, you must not know about me

I can have another you by tomorrow

So don't you ever for a second get to thinking

You're irreplaceable

As the audience clapped for me, deep inside, I was wishing someone will hear the words that I am dying to say to him.

Don't think that you're irreplaceable, Park Jimin.

Fuck you.