Rosé POV

It's been a week but I still haven't heard from him. After I cried that night, I decided that I would still trust him and listen to him.

There's got to be something. I can't easily believe that Jimin will do that to me. I mean, if he really is that bad,  he would have done it right after we got married.

I still have this feeling that he wouldn't do that to me.

He would never hurt me like that.

But then, each day that I don't hear anything from him, my hope lessen and it's making my heart restless.

I knew that the girls were starting to get worried about me.

"Yah, Chaeyoung,  wanna go play?" I look at Lisa who was smiling cheekily at me.

When she said play, she doesn't literally mean playing a game.

She meant something else.

I stared at her for a moment before a sigh escaped my lips.

Whatever.

I quickly stood up and went to my room to change my clothes and I had to cover my ears because Lisa's squealing can be heard even though my door was close.

"C'mon, Lisa!!!!! I just barely sleep." I chuckled after I hear Jennie's voice roaring throughout the dorm.

"Sorry,  unnie,  I love you!" Lisa shouted back.

"I love you too,  now shut up!" Jennie shouted back.

A smile formed at my lips.

At least I still have friends to make me laugh.

After wearing my black pants and a loose stripe shirt which I tucked in front, I grabbed a coat since it's cold outside.

I wore my eyeglasses and my cap while I have my mask on my other hand.

After grabbing my sling bag, I went out of my room and found Lisa wearing almost the same thing except her shirt was black.

"Let's go?" she asked as hung her arm around me.

"How about Jisoo unnie?" I asked.

Lisa shrugged. "Probably sleeping like Jennie."

We went our way out.

We're resting because we don't have any schedule for two days. After this, we'll have to attend another awards show which I am slowly dreading to come because now,  I'm not really sure if I'm ready to see Jimin.

We rarely go out especially after our debut but the girls and I has this habit of sneaking out and we were never once caught.

I guess we have the talent to blend ourselves to people and places or perhaps,  we aren't really that much known yet so not a lot of people can recognize us.

Well,  at least I can still go and have some fun.

Our first stop is at the restaurant where we usually eat even when we were still trainees.

Ahjumma smiled at the sight of us.

"It's been so long girls. I thought you forgot about my place." she pouted and we were glad she can still recognize us even with our cap and mask.

"Ahjummaaa...." Lisa cooed.

Lisa had always been the one with aegyo regardless of how much they say that I do.

Or maybe because our voice tends to get a little higher because we don't speak the language naturally. I mean,  her being Thai and me growing up overseas.

"Araso, just go at your usual table and I'll send someone your order. The usual,  right?" she smiled.

I gave her a thumbs up.

"You're the best Ahjumma. Sarang he." I said as both Lisa and I gave her our signature hearts.

She just shook her head as we laugh our way to our table.

There aren't many people in the resto as the school is still on. Plus,  the people who eat here don't normally mind others.

Once seated,  Lisa removed her mask and smiled at me cheekily.

"Where do you want to go next?  Shopping?  Arcade?"

I giggle at her eagerness.

When I'm with Lisa,  I always forget whatever problems I have.

"We can do both. I'll need to buy some new clothes and I haven't had my revenge on you in that shooting game,  you cheater." I rolled my eyes on her and she just laughed.

After a few minutes,  ahjumma came with our food.

"Ahjummonie, did you miss us?" Lisa pouted her lips and I covered my mouth to stop myself from laughing.

"I don't because you're always noisy. By the way," her eyes landed on mine.

"I saw your face on some articles about having a boyfriend, is that true?"

I almost choked on my saliva.

"Ah,  of course not ahjumma." I lied. I'm not even sure why but I just saw myself not telling people about Jimin.

She then nodded.

"I thought so too. That's impossible. Because that guy was definitely dating someone else." she added.

"Huh?"

Why does everyone literally tell me that he's dating someone?

Is it that really obvious and I am just making a fool of myself?

Lisa looked at me worriedly.

"Yes. That guy had been a regular here with his girlfriend before. But they stopped coming together until last year I believe. But then, they came back earlier so I was a little surprise." she added and I felt a lump on my throat.

It's always me and Jimin against the world. Why?

"Did you said they were here earlier?"  Lisa asked.

Ahjumma nodded. "Yes. Like a few minutes before you arrive. But you know what, they seemed to be fighting."

I balled my fist in anger.

Ahjumma must have noticed my silence and stared at me.

"Chaeyoung,  are you okay?"

I looked up and smiled at her.

"Of course ahjumma,  don't worry about me. I really missed your cooking." I diverted her attention by praising her food.

She crosses her arms across her chest.

"But why are Jennie and Jisoo not with you?"

"Oh,  they are sleeping!" Lisa added joyfully while I no longer have the appetite to eat.

So he's not sending me messages because he's out on a date.

And here I was getting really worried,  trusting him until the end but he was busy eating with her 'girlfriend'.

My grip on my utensils tighten.

Is this how you wanna play Park Jimin?

"Unnie,  are you okay?" I heard Lisa asked and I looked at her, dead tired of all these dramas.

"I'm not okay. I want to cry but I won't because I can't. I can't cry here. But I'm with you so I'm gonna pretend I didn't hear anything about him and for once,  I'll try to live a day without him on my mind." I bravely told her which earned me a thumbs up from Lisa.

I thank God Limario is so weird.

We both enjoyed the food in front of us and after a few minutes,  we bid our goodbye to ahjumma.

"We'll be back soon. We promise and next time, it will be the four of us." Lisa and I promised as we bowed to her once again.

Afterwards,  we head down to the shopping mall across the street.

A girl needs to buy a dress when she's broken-hearted.

Lisa and I took our turns in the fitting room trying to check some clothes for personal use.

Yep,  because those dresses that we wear for performances aren't from us.

I was able to find three dresses while Lisa had five.

Yep. She's a shopaholic.

For the first time, I'm actually glad Jennie isn't with us or we might end up staying the mall for another hour.

"Unnie, how about we go buy a coffee before we go home?" Lisa suggested and we turned on a corner where not a lot of people are walking.

I wish we didn't because I had to stop from my track once my eyes landed on Seulgi and Jimin walking together.

Jimin was looking at the ground while Seulgi was smiling.

So they date every day?

My heart stopped beating for a second.

Seeing them together in person breaks my heart a dozen times harder than before.

I feel like my lungs stopped functioning and I can't breathe.

Lisa looked at me worriedly and before I knew it,  Jimin's gaze landed on mine, the shocked look evident on his face.

We may all be wearing a mask on our faces but that doesn't stop us from recognizing each other.

Seulgi's eyes landed on me as well and the smile on her face faded.

Jimin looked worried and I had to stop myself from shouting at him.

It seemed like he wanted to move forward to my direction but I saw how Seulgi grabbed his arms to prevent him.

And he stopped.

I felt a sharp pain on my chest.

He stopped.

If he wanted to come to me,  he should have released her hand and run.

But he didn't.

I'm not dumb. He chose her. Not me.

So you have made a decision.

I wanted to scream but I refrain myself.

No Chaeyoung, you're better than that. And you will not cry. You will no longer cry.

It's okay. After all these,  I don't think there is anything that I can no longer handle.

A sigh escaped my lips.

I looked at Lisa and smiled at her.

"Let's go?" I pulled her by the arms as we moved forward.

If this is what he wanted,  I will give in.

My eyes were focused in front pretending that I am not seeing them.

Don't look Chaeyoung. Don't.

We were almost passed them when I felt him grabbed my arm.  I had to stop for a moment.

"Chaeng," he whispered and I heard the longing in his voice.

Be strong, Chaeng. Don't give in.

I stared back at him, my eyes no longer showing any emotion.

I released his hands on my arms and bowed a little.

"You must be mistaken. I'm sorry,  we have to go."

And then,  Lisa and I walked forward,  away from them. Away from my heart breaking into pieces.

For the past weeks,  he had become both my strength and weakness.

In the end, I was left with only pain.

Sometimes,  they are things in life that no matter how much you desire,  you need to let go and give up because it's already owned by someone.

And I'm letting him go so I can be free.

A tear escaped my eyes as I walk forward, not even minding the continuous attempt of Lisa to get my attention,  forgetting everything behind.

I have lived more than twenty years without him, I can surely live another by myself.

No matter how much it hurts.