"Ugggghhhh, I'm horrible at this." Patton groaned, his major was biochemical engineering and he didn't understand why he had to take math for it. He was at the same desk that he first saw Logan sit at and said nerd was sitting next to him. Logan looked up from his book, shaking his head with a joyfu on his face. "It's not that hard Pat,"

Patton flushed at the nickname, he had been called that before mostly because people wanted to make friends with him and did it forcefully but with Logan it seemed natural. "It's just Algebra. It's really quite simple." Patton sighed, he knew Logan was trying to help but he also knew that Algebra was difficult and the only reason Logan thought otherwise was because basically a genius at this point.

"Easy for you to say! You're really smart while I'm dumb as rocks!" Logan's smile faded pretty quickly. He placed his bookmark in the book he was reading previously. He inhaled a deep breath and laced his fingers to make a sort of triangle shape. He pressed his hands to his lips and let his breath out. He slammed his hands against the table, quietly of course because they were in a library.

Patton flicked away at the sudden, relatively loud noise. He waited a few seconds for Logan to say something, anything which he did. "Patton, you are not 'Dumb as rocks'. You're a lot smarter than you give yourself credit for." Patton gulped, a dark crimson shading his cheeks. That caught him off guard. Logan had leaned in slowly as he spoke and was now mere inches away. He could feel Logan's breath on his cheek.

Patton realized he was excepted to respond so he made a defensive reply. "Yeah, maybe but compared to yo-" Patton looked down at his own book in front of him, tracing random scribbles onto the page. He was caught off guard by Logan lifted his chin. His touch automatically made Patton tounge tied. "Patton," Patton nodded, unable to verbally prove he was listening.

"You may be less intelligent then I or even most people here but the important thing is that you're trying and you want gain more knowledge." If Patton wasn't blushing before he certainly was now. In a spontaneous decision, Patton cupped Logan's face and kissed him. All the passion Patton held for Logan was in that kiss, it meant the world to him and more.

But what meant more is that Logan began kissing back.

It was electric, like all those sparks that Patton had been feeling were mutual. Oh god, he hoped they were mutual. Patton sincerely doubted they weren't, he couldn't imagine someone kissing like this without meaning anything. He was surprised when Logan pulled him onto his lap and even more so when he bit Patton's lip, asking for entrance.

Of course, Patton couldn't bring himself to refuse. He wanted this just as much as Logan seemed to, even if they were in the library but it was midnight at this point so no one was really there at this point. Patton parted his lips and Logan went straight in. It was so pleasureful. It was honestly the experience of his life. It made all those years of never being intimate with anyone.

Then he woke up.

Upon realizing it was all a dream, he groaned and fell back onto his pillow, his hands over his face. He began recalling what happened before he fell into sleep.

Patton had reached his dorm room and had disappeared into peaceful slumber. If that dream meant anything, it's that Patton was unconsciously pinning over Logan. He couldn't stop, he needed Logan. He loved Logan. Patton had ingored that sentiment so he could fall into slumber but it was unavoidable.

He had gone from cold and emotionless to full of love and anger in under 12 hours. A change that drastic in that short amount of time was beginning to make him crazy. He was going insane from all these thoughts in his head. Patton was almost a normal person. Well, almost.

The dream had brought another thing to light, his impulse control. Parents and teachers were supposed to teach people how to think before speak and act but Patton's parents were always on business, so much Patton can't remember their faces and they died when Patton was 12 and he had a tutor in Primary to Intermediate until he was randomly put in highschool and excepted to know what to do.

His parents never showed affection towards Patton or even eachother. They tried to filled that gap with expensive parents but Patton knew better from a young age. His tutor merely taught him academic subjects, nothing about how to talk to people. He would learnt it on his own if he was allowed to go a public school from the very start.

Because of those two facts, Patton had no idea what he was doing. He got bullied for being numb and it got so bad that he resorted to violence for self defense. He often got in trouble and was barely in class. The only thing that darn school taught him was that self persuasion comes before all sense of morals and common sense.

The people who were supposed to guide him to a bright future ruined his life. Those mental issues because that neglect were resurfacing and soon Patton would have to face them. The reason mentally he held onto Logan so tightly was because he represented that hope, the hope that things could be better and Patton could be normal.

But that thought was childish.

Even if Logan loved him back and they got their happily ever after, Patton would still struggle to fight his impulseness and would miss obvious social cues. But that would not stop him. Logan represented that tiny piece of optimism that still resided inside his soul and Patton wanted to latch onto that optimism and never let go.