Let me tell you one thing...it sucks. Depression is not at all like sadness. In fact its far from sadness... When you are sad. You talk about it. You go out and do stuff. While depression you don't wanna talk about it. You don't wanna go out you wanna stay in bed.

Reasons why its hard for me to talk about my depression is cause. I'm still with depression. I don't like telling my friends about it because most likely they won't understand or they will tell me to be happy like I can automatically be happy. Honestly if I could trust one person in the world to talk about it. It would be Marco. I trust him with the talk.

And what's worse about it. Is that... It can lead to suicidal thoughts. Like the ones I'm having right now....

It in fact is weird how I came to be depressed....one moment I'm enjoying life and I'm all happy...the next.... I just hate life and wanna stay in my room all day...and it's hard.

I honestly don't know why I am doing this...