He was standing there, hands on his knees, leaned over, trying to breath. He looked up at me with his striking blue eyes, his mouth trying to speak, but getting air in his lungs was more important. We stared at each other in comfortable silence till he spoke.

"(Y/N) I'm so sorry! I'm an idiot! Please don't run away," he cried. I stared at him trying to find the right words, "please," he said standing up straight. "Phil I-," I was cut off by his sudden hug. "You don't have to forgive me... Just don't leave my life... Please," his words were soft, and heartfelt. "I won't," I said just as softly, returning the hug. "Can we try to be friends," He smiled. I nodded even though I wanted to scream no.

I didn't want to be friends, I wanted more... I just was too shy to say it. I love you.... He pulled away. "How about we collab, to celebrate our new friendship," smiled Phil. "I'd like that," I smiled back. You both walked back to his flat, at first in comfortable silence, then in laughs over collab ideas. I felt his hand brush mine. I was hopping he'd hold it, but he didn't. Thou I did see a blush creeping up on his face from the corner of my eye. I felt myself smile.  I wonder if we'll ever be together.

We got back to his flat. Dan was on the couch, mouth full of maltizers, crying to the ending of some sad anime. We close the door and he jumps. "Oh hey guys. What are you doing back so soon, I was uh," he turned it off and wiped his eyes trying to act cool. Key-word here was trying. "We made up," smiled Phil. "So your dating," grinned Dan and we both blushed, yelling, "NO?" Dan laughed then we all laughed. "We're gunna be doing a video," said Phil. "Yeah, but what are we doing," I asked nervously.

"I'm hungry," said Dan. "I got it!" Chirped Phil. We both looked at him confused. "The cooking impress Dan challenge!" He chimed. "What," said Dan. "We both make you something and the looser has to do a punishment!" He smiled his brightest smile. "You just couldn't do something simple like the Seven second challenge or the fucking Whisper challenge, heck even the Try not to laugh challenge," chucked Dan. "What's the punishment," I asked nervously. "The ice bucket challenge!," Phil said spookily. "So let me get this straight we are punishing a challenge with another challenge," said Dan full of sass. "Well when you put it like that it kinda sound ridiculous," said Phil nervously. "Kinda," stressed Dan. "How about the looser has to do something embarrassing on camera," I asked, I do not want ice water down my back. "Deal," smiled Phil. "Let's get cooking," laughed Dan.

They set everything up, and they begin. "Hey guys! Today we have special guest (y/n) from (c/n)!" Phil cheered. "Hello, Internet Emersion!" I chuckled. "Today we are doing The cooking impress Dan challenge!" He chirped. "Hello Internet," said Dan coming into shot. "Ok rules are, you must cook something, you can't destroy the other person's dish, and finally it must be beautiful," said Phil very serious. "Right... Let's get started," said Dan.

It was chaos as pots and pan, flour and sugar was thrown across the kitchen was a complete disaster. In the end Phil had a bowl of cereal and (y/n) had a plate of chocolate pudding. "Phil what the fuck you didn't even cook," sassed Dan holding back laughter. "I heated the cereal flakes with the stove," objected Phil. "And (y/n) you heated the chocolate on the stove. So you both didn't really 'cook' anything," laughed Dan. "We only had 30 min." I whined. "Fine well let's taste," smiled Dan nervously. We moved into Phil's room, for the ending scores. We both watched in anticipation as Dan wrote the scores on the white board. "Phil yours is cereal so 7-10, and (y/n) yours is chocolate but I see you put a certain chocolate candy at the bottom... 10000-10," smirked Dan! "I won!" I said proudly. "Awe no fair," chuckled Phil.

They were about to dish out the punishment when Phil said, "wait! Can I say something that been on my mind. I want my fans to hear this," he sighed. "What's wrong," I asked concerned. We all sat on me couch and he brought the camera over.

"Ok this has been well over do. (Y/N) I sorry," he started. "For the leather," I asked sarcastically since we were still filming. "Not for the leather or yelling at you. I'm sorry for not being brave to tell you how much I love you!" He yelled and I froze. He took a deep breath and continued. "For never standing up to you. For never being there for you as a classmate, or a friend. I just kept on hurting you, no matter what you did to be nice, or how you tried to talk to me even thou you were shy... I love you....I can't imagine my life without you....so to sum it all up. I'm sorry for not being someone who is worth loving you," he had tears running down his face in waterfalls. He tried to keep himself from falling apart. "I love you too," He stopped and stared at me. "I love you too," I repeated.

He leaned in, but blushed and looked away. "Sooo this is ok right? I can...kiss you," he said embarrassed. I couldn't help chuckle which made his face that much more red. "Yes Phil," I smirked. He closed his eyes and leaned in. I sneezed and I bent down. suddenly I heard screaming. "WHAT THE BLOODY HELL!!!!!!!" Phil kissed Dan! They freaked out and I couldn't help giggle.

"I was trying to kiss (y/n)!"
"Do I fucking look like her!"
"It was an accident!"
"Bloody hell!"

"There you go Phans," I whispered as I winked into the camera. Maybe we can have that kiss soon, I want it to be perfect...just like him.