~ Jimin's POV ~

I came back to the dorm and slammed the door.

Suga • You okay??

Jimin • No I am not!! I am not okay!! My life is fucked up!!

I went to my room and shut the door sitting on my bed. I grabbed my hair in frustration.. I just wanted to take it all out.

Jimin • WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME!? WHEN I AM MOVING ON, SHE CAME BACK!? SHE DARED TO COME BACK!?

I threw some things across the room and sat on the ground with tears flowing out of my eyes.. not because she came back, but because I am mad at myself. That I ever dated a slut like her. It's easy for her to come back and say that she is sorry. But it is not easy for me to accept her again.. after all she never loved me.

I got up and walked out of my room.

Suga • Where are you going?! Jimin answer me!

I didn't answer and went out again. I entered the elevator and pressed the top floor where the rooftop is. I got out of the elevator as the door opened and opened the rooftop door walking in. I sat on the edge of the wall and looked at the sky letting all of my tears out.

Jimin • Why.. why did you come back again. I don't need you. P-please stop making my life miserable. I wish I was never born! This wouldn't have happened in the first place then.

He continued to sob and let all of his emotions out.. the weather was windy as if it was going to rain. Jimin's eyes were red and swollen from crying. Suddenly someone spoke from his back causing him to wipe his tears and look back.

What is she doing here..

Rose • Are you.. o-okay?? I-i came here to get some fresh air but.. I saw you.

Jimin • I-i'm.. I'm fine.

Rose • You're sitting too close to the edge.. sit on the bench instead.

I looked at her with puffy eyes and red nose and noticed her innocently looking at me as if she was lost. I looked away and slowly backed off from the edge. I sat on the bench still looking away. She was just standing near me not doing anything so I pulled her hand making her sit down.

Jimin • You will get tired.

I spoke with a straight face.

Rose • I-if you don't mind. Can I ask why were you crying??

I looked at her eyes directly maintaining eye contact.

Jimin • I'm just.. mad at myself.

Rose • But, why??

Jimin • ..someone I hate came back making me realize my mistake again.

Rose • Perhaps, your ex?? I-i am just guessing.

I took a glance at her and looked away again.

Jimin • Your good at guessing.

Rose • Did she.. hurt you a lot??

Jimin • She's a mistake I made in the past, that somehow made my life miserable. I was moving on from her when she came back.

Rose • Do you still love her??

Jimin • I am not dumb.. I have moved on.

Rose • Then stop crying. She doesn't even deserve your tears. You are mad at yourself then forget about your past.. you said you have moved on yet you are still mad at yourself.

She is right. Why am I crying?? I have moved on from her. I don't care if she came back or not.. she is nothing but a stranger to me now.

Jimin • -sigh- You're right. Thank you. If you don't mind can I ask a question??

Rose • Yeah. What is it?

Jimin • Are you always this comfortable around others?

I looked at her. She looked away for second as she was thinking.. then she suddenly smiled.

Rose • No?

Jimin • Then how are you comfortable around me??

Rose • Maybe it depends on who the other person is. I don't talk to guys.. unless it's someone I know.

She was looking at her foot while talking.

Unless it's someone she knows?? She doesn't know me.

Jimin • You're confusing.

She chuckled and looked at me.

Rose • I have known you for a long time.. but since you don't know me it's confusing for you. Now If you are Intelligent you will understand what I mean.

I looked directly in her deep eyes.. she is so innocent. Her smile that never fails to make my heart flutter. She doesn't smile a lot to what I have noticed till now. But she smiled now.. she knows me.. meaning she is an Army. And that's why I don't know her. But don't worry little angel.. I will get to know you very soon.
I was lost in her eyes as she didn't break the eye contact either.. I smiled at her catching her off guard as her soft cheeks flashed a pink tint on them.. why is she so cute??

Rose • W-why are you smiling??

Jimin • Why?? I can't smile??

Rose • I-I didn't mean that.

There was an awkward silence between us now. She didn't know what to say neither did I.. All I know is that we both were looking at the starry sky as the cold wind brushed over our bodies leaving shivers down our spine. Somehow my mood was better now. I wasn't thinking about Suzy. But someone else was on my mind.. and it was Her.

Jimin • Do you have anyone else beside your sister Alice??

Rose • Huh?? Ah.. no. My parents died in a plane crash.

She said and lowered her gaze with a hint of sadness is her voice.

Jimin • ..I am sorry.

Rose • No, it's fine! What about you?? Anyone else besides your members??

Jimin • My mom.. I don't know where my dad is.

Rose • ..you never met him??

I shook my head.

Jimin • He left mom before I was born.

Rose • I don't really get why men leave their wives when they are literally- nevermind. All men aren't the same.

Jimin • -chuckle- I am glad you realized who you were talking to.

She nervously chuckled and played with her feet.

Jimin • It's getting late.. aren't you going back??

Rose • Ah I will go back now. What about you??

Jimin • I plan to stay here for some time.

Rose • I see.. I am going then.

Jimin • Ah listen.. can you tell Yoongi Hyung that I am on the rooftop?? He was worried.

Rose • Sure, take care.

She left. I sighed and laid on the bench with a small smile on my face. Positivity had taken over me in a few minutes. I didn't knew she could make my mood better in just a few seconds.

Jimin • What are you doing Park Chaeyoung? Why am I feeling like this. The person that never smiled in 2 years.. finally smiled because of you?? Why are you melting my heart like this? -heavy sigh- this is driving me crazy.

~ Rose's POV ~

I knocked on the dorm's door and stood there awkwardly. Jin opened the door.

Jin • Oh??

Rose • Uhm- Jimin is.. on the rooftop. He told me to tell Yoongi oppa as he was worried.

Jin • Ah okay, Thank you. By the way, are you the new trainee?? Park Chaeyoung??

Rose • Ah yeah.

Jin • Nice to meet you.. see you around.

Rose • Nice to meet you too. See you.

I bowed and went to my dorm which was next to theirs.

I went to my room and jumped on the fluffy bed.

Rose • When will I get used to talking to them? Why is it always awkward.. Aish.

..I wanna write in my diary about my day.

I got up and went towards my study table. I opened the drawer and took out my purple diary and yellow chimmy pen before I started writing.

" Date: 22nd December 2021
Dear diary,
               Today I saw something that I never thought I would see. I saw Jimin crying on the rooftop. It's not a normal thing.. I have never seen him cry so much. But I guess it's because I saw his idol side only.. I wonder who would want to hurt such an angel like him?? I wouldn't even dare to disobey him if I was dating him.. but I don't think that day will ever come. I don't think it's possible for us to date. Even if I want it, he probably doesn't. I have known him for a long time, but he just got to know me.. how can he be in love with me.. right? Every army wants to date him because he's handsome, hot and cute. But I love him for his kindness. I know every army aren't the same.. but most of them don't sincerely love the idols. It's just an attraction to them. But in my case, I don't think I am attracted to him. When I see him in real life, instead of screaming, I feel good. I feel like being only friends with him can fulfill my dream.. but is it possible?? We talk to each other. But will he consider me as his friend?? It's all a mystery.. that may never be solved. At least in my case.. it won't.

°~ To Be Continued ~°