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Rakshit pov - 

" I will not hear anything find here where she went .. she has been missing from last night .. " I  hung my phone threw it on the bed after hearing that I am still unable to find her .. 

" Rakshit bachha please calm down we will find her , okay " mom said .. 

" Mom how can I calm down .. she is three months pregnant and  I don't know where is she from yesterday ... It was all my mistake .. " I said digging my face in my hand , tear made their way out of my eyes ... 

" rakshit please stay strong why don't you contact sweta ji or smarth ji , they also need to know this matter and may be they know where is she ? "vidya ma said I nodded while wiping my tears and called romi .. 

" hello" 

" hello rakshit how are you ?" romi said picking up my call .. 

" Romi Is drishti there ?" I asked him controlling my emotions .. 

" rakshit what you mean by drishti here .. you don't know where is she right now .. ? " I was unable to answer my voice started cracking .. thoughts of her in danger started occupying  my mind .. 

" Rakshit you are making me scared what happen there and why you are not answering ." He again asked me .. 

" we are unable to find drishti .. she went somewhere without informing us .. " I said to him 

" rakshit drishti came here today morning only and now she had went to my nani 's house to attended our sister 's wedding . when she came here yesterday she was upset , we asked her what happened but she didn't said anything , we wanted to call you but she told that she don't want to talk with anybody nor she wanted to call you all ..  we thought that because of mood swings she is like that .. so we didn't said anything .. Now tell us what exactly happened ?" 

I told a breathe of relief and than said .. 

" I am coming there , can you please make arrangements for me to reach to dristhi . I will inform you everything   by reaching there .. " 

" okay I will arrange everything .. come fast . "  he said 

I told my pilot to get ready my chopper ..  we soon reach there , I Saw romi was waiting  for me with simran and diya .. diya was waving her hand excitedly towards me .. I also waved with a small smile.. 

"rakshit tell us what happen exactly ? why drishti was so upset .. her eyes were red like she was crying whole the time .. " simran asked in worried tone .. 

"let's sit in the car than talk "romi said opening the car door and  hoping in simran sit beside him and me and diya sat on the back seat .. 

" me and drishti fought with each other .. " I said not wanting them to know whole matter .. 

"rakshit tell us the whole matter .. we all know that a small matter can never lead to this much problem ."simran said making me sign .. 

" I want drishti to abort the babies .. " I said looking down in guilt , shame and also in helplessness ..

"WHAtt ... rakshit have you gone mad and what you mean by babies ??" romi said in angry voice .. 

" Drishti is pregnant with twins and  there are lots of complications and doctors said there are only 10 % chances of survival of all three of them .. and 90% that drishti or either of two or both of them can die ..  Doctor advice us to abort the pregnancy .. I also want drishti  to abort the babies but she is stubborn and don't want to abort babies .. which leads to our argument and in her emotions she went somewhere without telling anyone .. " I said in broken voice .. I know mistake is mine , i should have made her understand calmly but I also can't think rationally , we didn't inform about it .. we came to know about it a week back from than yesterday we finally got the courage to talk about it .. we had tears in our eyes .. 

when I told her to abort the babies .. she grew angry .. 

FLASHBACK -  

" drishti I think we should a - ab- abort this pregnancy .. " I said with so much difficulty .. I was sitting on my knees in front of her holding her hands in mine .. trying to make her understand .. 

"raskhit are you gone mad .. you are saying to kill two innocent souls which didn't even come into world  . " she said jerking away her hands from my hold looking at me with hurt .. 

" I know drishti but you know na what doctor said there are only 10 % Chances of getting you all three alive .. this is very risky .. " I tried to make her understand .. 

" Rakshit .. what the hell are you saying .. you are asking me to kill  YOUR OWN CHILDREN ..  OUR BABIES.. our part .. they are symbol of OUR LOVE .. they are our own flesh .. I WILL CONSIDERING DYING BEFORE KILLING MY OWN CHILDREN .. " 

" SHUT UP .. DON'T TALK NONSENSE ." I lost my control .. when  I heard her saying about her dying .. 

" AM I TALKING NONSENSE ??? .. YOU ARE THE ONE WHO IS TALKING NONSENSE... YOU ARE THINKING ONLY ABOUT YOURSELF .. NOT YOU ARE THINKING ABOUT ME NOR ABOUT OUR BABY .. YOU ARE BECOMING SELFISH RAKSHIT ..  " 

"  DRISHTIIIIIIIIIIII " I Can't take it all now .. I can't put the strong face anymore .. 

" You know let's talk about it later .. you go and take rest .. I have some work to do " I said not wanting to argue more on this topic ..  and left the room .. and it was my worst mistake ever .. 

I Should have stayed with her .. 

I went directly to roof and cried my heart out ..  I just can't take it .. I Can't afford to loose anyone.. I don't know how many times I cried .. I hold drishti tightly and close to me in sleep so that she didn't disappear .. I know this is nonsense but I can't do anything .. 

Finally I was able to believe that drishti is with me but that happiness also didn't last long and fear of loosing her is again back .. I spend 11 years in her separation .. now I can't afford to loose her ..

Flash back end .. 

 My eyes were teary which I tried to hide from their view but I think diya notice it and she wiped my single tear .. 

"Don't cry na fufa ji. I Will beat the person who will make you cry okay .. now don't cry   .. " diya said to me giving me a toothy grin and I also smiled and  hugged and kissed her forehead ..  

" Rakshit please don't take tension .. I know this situation is very much complicated and we can't even guess what both of you are facing .. but you need to stay strong for her , for your babies and for everybody  .. You know na how much drishti love children . how much happy was she when she came to know that she is pregnant .. she can't even think of getting abortion even in her dreams .. " Simran said making me understand .. 

" I Know .. I also should not have shouted on her and should have made her understand  everything calmly and should have look for solutions .. " I said with regret .. 

" Rakshit  she is at our nani's home , there is wedding of our cousins she was looking so down and nani also wants to meet her so mom send her there , we all are also going there ..  you can come with so you will also meet nani she is already quite upset about your marriage with drishti without any relative and you also about you are not a pahadi .. and even your both kundali's was not matched before getting married .. I Know being kumaoni and kundali matching is quite absurd .. but you know na people still believe in these things .. "  Romi said explaining .. where is drishti and me breathe in relief that finally I will be able to see her after almost 24 hours .. 

I can't stay away from her for 24 hours , if something happens to her than......

NO NO NO rakshit nothing will happen to her .. 

I started looking out of window and don't know when I slept looking at the sceneries .. I was awake by romi voice .. 

"Rakshit we reached .. let's go " I nodded and we made our way through a small road between fields ,  Soon I saw a house which is decorated with flowers and some other kind of decoration which I really don't know about .. I can hear dj 's playing song .. may be people are dancing .. I Was following simran romi and  an overexcited diya ..  she is jumping in the way and simran is stopping her , romi is behind them with a smile on his face ... I also want to spend time with my kids like this ..  I snapped out of my thought when I saw her standing there in the corner , clapping  looking at  people dancing with a smile .. I saw romi and simran also made their way towards an old lady with diya who is hugged by the old lady , diya  also waved her hand in direction of her bua to which she also waved back .. I was still standing there and watching her every move ..  

I saw some girl started taking her to middle of dance floor and she also started dancing a little but when I notice she is putting her hand again and again on her forehead and opening and closing her eyes .. oh god she must be feeling fatigueness again ... and she is about to fall .. before she can fall on the ground and hurt herself .. I rushed to her , pushing the person who are coming in my way and  grab her in my arms before she can fell down .. god she fainted in my arms.. I panicked and tapped her cheecks .. 

" Drishti .. drishti .. drishu .. open your eyes dammit you are scaring me .. " I Didn't notice that everybody stopped around us seeing us .. AND I Really don't care .. romi and simran also came to me asking me what happen to her .. 

" nothing I think  she fainted because of too much heat and she used to get some fatigueness before also .. " they nodded I pick drishti in bridal style .. 

" There is a chair you can put her there ,.. " one of the women said to me .. I nodded and make her sit on a chair .. 

" please bring a glass of  water .. Romi  there must be a bag with me , where it is the bag contain her medicines ...  ? " I asked to them ..  

" I Think some one must be coming with it  .. look they came with the bag.. " he handed me that bag and I started looking for glucose pouches in it .. till than some women also bring water glass ..I sprinkle some water on her face and started gaining her consciousness .. I made her drink the water after mixing glucose in it .. 

" God you scared shit out of me .. can't you take care of yourself .. can't you even drink water by yourself on time .. I am damn sure , you haven't drink a single drop of water from the morning and must have starve yourself , because you felt like vomiting na .. can't you take care of yourself .. " I started scolding her as I found that she is conscious and listening to my every talk .. she was continuously looking at me .. and make me halt my speech when she threw her arms around me and hugged me tightly .. I can felt her tears ..  

than now I realize that everybody is watching us with strange expression , god we are in village and in here nobody hug each other and they don't even know me ..  I Glance around me drishti is still hugging me crying on my shoulder hiding her face , I Was holding her .. and all were staring us... 

" fufa ji bua kyu ro rahi hai ?? " diya voice snapped us out our moment and  than drishti realize that she is hugging , she broke the hug and started wiping her tears harshly .. 

" nothing bachha , aapki bua ne aapko bhutt miss kiya na issi liye ro rahi hai .. " and she nodded .. without saying anything .. 

" kon ho bai humne toh tumhe kabhi nahi dekha .. aur  drishti ke itne karib kyu ho ??" one of a old woman asked with a frown on her face .. 

" Oh I am sorry .. Namaste mein Rakshit shergill .. drishti ka pati .. " I said in polite manner .. I should have introduce myself before..  

" agar aapko koi problem na ho toh main drishti ko under room mein le jao .. voh todha rest bhi kar legi ... aur aap sab bhi apna function continue kijiye .. " I said in polite manner .. wanted to talk to drishti who is looking so worn out .. she didn't have anything .. I guess .. 

" aayiye andhar chalte hai . mujhe bhi aapse baat karni hai .. main drisha ki nani .. " she said to me and tell others to continue.. 

"namaskar nani .. " people started doing their own things and I helped drishti to get up but found that she can't able to walk properly .. so I just picked her in bridal style heard few gasps but right now  my wife is more important to me  .. 

We went inside a room , I Made her lay down on the bed , I Saw romi , simran and diya also followed me with nani. I think she is curious to know me .. 

" You take rest , romi can please arrange something for her to have .. and also give my bag to me , it all contains her medicines and other useful stuffs .. 

"fufa ji aapke bag mein chocolate bhi hai mere liye hai ?? "she asked with such a cute face .. I smiled .. 

" aap ek kha sakte ho vaise yeh aapki bua ke liye hai unka mood aajkal kafi jaida badal ta rehta hai  , toh chocolates unke liye hai .. " I took two chocolates from bag and open for both of them adn gave them ... both started munching as kids .. making me chunk .. I rubbed diya head and went outside happily munching chocolate .. and I saw drishti also having chocolate and now her mouth is  covered with chocolates ..  I wipe it with my hands .. 

" you are a kid and  now you are going to become mother , How I Am going to handle three kids ?" I Said to her trying to give  my message  ..  she look at me with wide eyes.. 

" Yo- you you mean you will not ask me to to ab- ab.. "  

"no never .. we will go through this .. okay now stop taking and take rest .. " I Said to her and made her sleep .. than I found that nani is also standing behind romi and  simran .. 

" mujhe tumse kuch baat karni hai .. "nani said in strict tone .. I nodded and followed her out giving romi a quick glance of question to which he replied with a shrug .. 

"toh tum rakshit ho .. itni jaldi kya thi shadi karne ki jo humme bhi bulana jaruri nahi samjha sabne .. " she asked after we got settle down in one room .. 

" actually nani ji woh .. humare shadi kafi jaldi huie thi , issliye kisiko bhi kafi pehle nahi inform kar paye .-" 

" thik hai jaida safai na do .. chalo ab yaha aa hi gaye ho toh shadi tak yahi rehna .. äur main koi behane nahi sunugi  .."she said in no excuses tone .. to which I only reply positively .... 

"ji main aur drishti shadi katam hone tak yahi rehenge .. " I was about to get up when her next question stopped me ..  which is more like a statement .. 

"Drishti maa banne wali hai na .. " to which I nodded .. I don't need to  ask how she knows because it is easy for her to guess or maybe she heard our talk.. 

" kya koi problem hai uski pregnany mein ??" her this question caught me ofgaurd . 

" hum iske bare mein shadi katam hone ke baad akle mein karenge ..  agar aap ko koi problem na ho toh .. " I said to her and she nodded motion me to take care .. 

DRISHTI POV -

I don't know what happened to me and after our  argument , I just can't able to think straight so I went from there without telling any one anything .. I switched off my phone but before that I received my  nani's  call .. she was angry at me first than invited me to come to their home for my cousin wedding and I also said yes , and went there directly .. she was shocked and happy ... she must have notice my unusual behavior and my red eyes but she didn't said anything ... 

Next day I compose my self .. whole the night i was unable to sleep because I Can't sleep without him , this is the first time after our marriage we are living away from each other.. I didn't talk to him not to anyone except bhai and told him about me being with nani .. I knew that rakshit must be worried but still I didn't have the guts to face him nor I Have think about it how to talk to him , I need time to think no I am not going to give up on my child .. never .. but I just need to convenience rakshit for not giving up on the child .. There was haldi ceremony in the morning and than sangeet in the evening and everybody was busy so I didn't get a chance to say someone about food .. there was breakfast in the morning but I can't ale to have it due to nausea. Which is again notice by nani but she didn't said anything ..  

IN evening everybody was dancing but I have no mood to dance first I didn't have anything from the morning and now it is taking toll over me , second I am missing rakshit badly .. I Know I should have talked to him instead of running away like this , he is also in pain like I am but I don't know what has gotten inside me and I ended up here.. I  am standing in a corner clapping with a fake smile which turned into normal when I saw two small girls dancing between the elders and they both in there own world not caring about anyone around them.. Suddenly  A thought came to my mind Will or kids will be this much fun loving  or they will be serious type , Will they will be introvert or extrovert .. I ghost smile appear on my lips thinking about our kids ... my thoughts were broken by my cousin who dragged me to the dance floor but suddenly I started feeling dizzy and I started holding my head again and again .. and started shaking my head to clear my vision but nothing worked and soon I lost my consciousness .. last I remember I fell in someone's arms which were oddly famillier .. 

when I woke up found my self sitting on the chair and the person is scolding me whom I was missing too much .. I didn't care about the surrounding and threw my arms round his neck and started sobbing.. which was slowly converted to a small smile knowing that he is actually here for me ... we went into a room and the words he said again made my eyes water .. he told that he will not talk about giving up on our babies .. and we will look for other option of keeping we all three save .. 

 Rakshit decided that he will also stay here till my cousin marriage , later at dinner I introduce him to everybody and we got lots of comment from everybody due to the behavior of my husband .. and which irritate me a lot but I also know that this is all for us only .. he didn't let me have anything before tasting it ,, yeah when we received our plate I was about to pick up spoon but his hand stopped me and he tasted everything first from his plate than removed spicy dished from my plate and than motioned me to have food , unfortunately it was seen by my some cousin and they teased us a lot .. I mean really a lot .. 

"jija ji toh didi ki kitni care karte hai , dekho khana bhi pehle khud chak rahe hai phir didi ko khane ko bol rahe hai .. " said one of my unmarried cousin .. 

" haye kabhi humare pati toh puchte bhi nahi hai khana kaya ki nah aur yaha dekho har ek - ek ghante mein jiju pani ya phir juice le kar khade ho jate hai di ke pass .. " said one of my married cousin .. 

"woh toh hai dekha tha kitni halat garab ho hayi thi bechare ki jab drisha behos huie thi , bechare ki toh jaan hi nikal hayi thi.. " said one of my aunty .. 

and we both just look down and had our food .. 

Marriage was ended pretty well , we all enjoyed through the marriage rakshit never forget to give me my medicine , juice or food and we again and again become topic of tease in which my own bother didn't support us  but he  also started teasing us ..  

Our whole one week of marriage passed like that , enjoying scenery , talking with each other on everything , no workload not for me , rakshit seems to be working a lot through the phone only .. we enjoyed every ruital of marriage . Now almost every guest and our relative went back to their house , me , rakshit nani and romi bhai bhabi and diya are here only.. 

Nani wants to talk about pregnancy to us so she called us and when I told her about our problems she told us something that changed our doubts and negativity to positivity  ..

"bacho tumhe kya lagta hai ki humare times par aurate ma nahi banti thi , ya janam dete samay mariti nahi thi.. ya unki pregnancy mein koi complications nahi hoti thi ,... hoti  thi , par woh uss cheej ki vajah se apne bache ko kuch nahi hone deti thi .. humare jamane ki aurate 7 mahine tak saman udaya karti thi.. kisi ko kuch nahi hoga bus tumhe exercise karti rehni hogi , khush rehna hoga .. apne ko tension se durr rehna hoga ..  ab yeh tension lena band karo aus doctor ki baat par deyaan dena band karo .. do teen doctors se salah lo aur apni sehat ka khayal rakho .. aur office ka kaam sab tumhara pati hai na .. "  

We listened to her and talked with few doctors .. and came to know if we take care of myself properly than babies and me will be healthy .. 

After 7 months  

I am now 9 month pregnant my due date is within a week , in all these months rakshit was a great support , he did everything whatever the doctor or the dai aur the elders said .. he was there for me whether I was having cravings , whether I felt dizzy , whether I had mood swings , on first ultrasound , when baby first kicked .. everytime he was there .. if he is going to office than he will take me with him , if I am unable to go  then he will also not go to office .. 

He is very happy and also made me happy .. but from last few days I noticed that he is being distance and today I have decided that I am going to confront him ..  he came back from office in evening .. 

"rakshit Is there anything that is bothering you ? " I finally asked before going to bed , he froze for a second for hearing my question .. 

"nothing like that drishti , just some work pressure .. " he said trying not to look at me .. 

"Rakshit you and I both know that there is no work that can bother you this much .. so TEll me what's the matter now .. " I asked him in strict tone  ,.. but he was still reluctant to tell me .. I took a deep breathe and asked him to come closer to me .. 

" rakshit come here ..come " I open my arms and asked him to cuddle to me .. he came after few seconds .. 

" Please tell me na what's the matter I can't see you like this bothered and avoiding me .. please na tell me .. "  I said to him and he hugged me tightly hiding his  face in crook of my neck .. I felt wetness there he is crying .. I tried to break the hug and see his face but hugged me tighter ... 

"I Can't lose you ..  not again , I Am not strong enough .. as your due date is coming near my fear of loosing you is getting more and more frightening. I can't lose you again .. I won't be able to handle it this  time .. those 11 years were like hell for me not having you beside me is my worst nightmare which I never wanted to be come true.. PLEASE  never leave me please not again .. please please .. " he cried after saying all this .. god he was going to through this much And I Never noticed it .. his fear of loosing me was because of our separation years back .. 

" shhh stop crying , I Am not going anywhere .. I Will be with you and with our kids .. okay be strong don't become a cry baby otherwise your kids will laugh on you saying that their father is crying in this age .. now stop crying and smile .. " he nodded and broke the hug kissed my forehead lovingly .. 

"ahhh "

"what happen ? " 

" I Think your babies also don't like your crying and decided to come earlier .. " I said with difficulty as pain is increasing and here my dumb husband not understanding what I Am saying ...

" MY DUMB HUSBAAND TAKE ME TO THE HOSPITAL .. YOUR BABIES ARE COMING .. I AM IN LABOUR ... " and he run taking me in his arms calling everyone in the house .. 

After 4 hours of  pain and struggle I finally give birth to two angels .. my Drikshita and my Daksh .. 

" Thank you for not forgetting our LOVE ." I said looking into his happy teared face holding our daughter in his arms .. 

" If I forget our love than HOW WILL IT BECOME OUR UNFORGETTABLE LOVE .. " 

and we both laughed looking at our kids .. 

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