Kim Soo Jin

Fortunately, my arm heals quickly, and slowly only the scars testify to my former wrongdoing.

Only my soul continues to ache. On the one hand, the pain, and on the other hand, the guilt.

I miss Jong Suk so much. His smell, his voice, his touch. His mischievous smile, the sparkle in his eyes. I can't believe I won't be able to see him again. We were given too little time by fate.

The days and then the weeks pass, the three teams try together to cheer me up, to free me from the dark cage in which I locked myself.

For their sake, I try to pretend that everything is fine, but inside I often cry.

I don't feel well this morning either. I'm dizzy again and my stomach is turning too. It's been five weeks since the accident, it's been five weeks since I last saw Jong Suk. Five weeks ago...

I suddenly have to run to the bathroom. Groaning, I lean over the shell, the stimulus is so strong that I shudder. Someone grabs my hair from behind and tries to calm me down by stroking my back. When I've spent everything, I look up to thank, ah, who?

Glancing up, I see San leaning over me.

" Are you better? What happened?" he asks worriedly.

" It's a little better, I was just thinking about something and suddenly my stomach turned and I couldn't hold it back. But I have no idea.... Wait! Five weeks ago? "

" What five weeks ago? "

" It's been five weeks since Jong Suk left."

" Yes? Is that why you're sick, because you remembered it again? "

" Yes.... That is, no.... What then... Hmmm.... Before he left, we.... We were together.... so... you know? " I mumble confused.

" Hmmm, yes? " I embarrassed him too, but he still doesn't understand.

" I have to go to the pharmacy."

" In this condition? Forget it! " he gets upset. " Just say what you need! "

" A test, a pregnancy test. "

Him eyes widen as he realizes what I said. He then comes over, takes me by the hand, and walks with me towards my room.

" Hey, I can still walk! "

" You're catching a cold! " beckoned half of my bare feet. I just ran to the bathroom because of the sudden nausea.

So I just hold on to his neck to make it easier for him to take me.

Seonghwa comes to meet us in the hallway.

" What happened? " he asks scared. My last action took a toll on him too. Since then, he has been very sensitive to everything that happens to me.

" Soojin threw up. " San answers for me " I was just halfway to my room when I heard her, so I went there to help. "

" Why did you throw up? Are you sick? I'm calling the doctor! " he worries about me again.

" I'm not sick. Probably morning sickness. "

" Morning what? Ahhhh! - He suddenly realized .

" She needs a test," adds San.

" Hmm... Yes... A test. I'll tell Hongjoong and we'll figure it out. Unfortunately, we cannot just set up for a pregnancy test to the pharmacy. It's risky even in a mask. "

It so happened that two hours later, along with me, two dozen people were waiting for that particular five minutes to expire.

Because Hongjoong, called Chan and Namjoon, do they have any idea how to solve such a purchase without being noticed. By which time RM simply asked their manager to buy one.

Now all three teams are sitting outside in the living room waiting for me to finish.

" Is everything okay? " Seonghwa knocks.

" Yes, of course, come in. "

He opens it, and when he sees me nervously drumming on the edge of the tub, he comes closer and hugs me.

" Calm down! " caresses " how much longer? "

" One minute" I look at my watch.

" I think you don't have to wait any longer. " he looks at me smiling.

" What? Why? " I will also take the test, which clearly shows the two lines.

" Congratulations!" he hugs me.

And I cry myself. Joy and sorrow swirl in me. It would have been nice to experience this happiness together with Jong Suk. But he didn't leave me alone, a part of him stayed with me. I put my hand on my stomach, where somewhere deep down, the fruit of our love is developing.

They knock again.

" Come in!"

The door opens, behind which 22 guys are standing and they look at me questioningly. When I nod yes, they burst into loud cheers. They pull me out of the bathroom and surround me.

" Congratulations! " they come there, they hug me one by one.

" You will be Noona Yong Soo! " Tae says cheerfully to the little girl sitting on his lap, and she smiles at the boy as if she understands what it is about.

" I wish he was here too" I whisper, because the crying is choking me " he would be the happiest.

" I'm sure that wherever he is are, he still will be very happy! " Jin hugs my shoulder consolingly.

" This should be celebrated! " Wooyoung shouted out loud.

" In view of the minors and the expectant mother, how about we go for ice cream? " Changbin joins the idea.

" That's right!...Right!... Let's go! "sounds from all around me. Then everyone looks at me, waiting for my consent. One or the other with such puppy eyes that I can't resist them!

" Let it be!" I agree, laughing.

I'm lucky to have them.

Seonghwa, as if he knew what was on my mind, hugged me.

" Relax, we will be here with you all the way! "

" That's right, you're not getting rid of us" Minho joins in.

" We won't leave you alone! " JK smiles at me.

" Thanks a lot guys! This really means a lot to me! " I look at them moved.

" Well, that's all well and good, but now let's go for ice cream! " Yunho breaks the idyll after a few minutes.

We all laugh at this. Then we slowly made our way to the ice cream parlor.