Kim Soo Jin

When I wake up, I don't know where I am, it's semi-dark, I hear a low chirping sound near my head.

" What happened?" I try to say, but only croaks come out of my throat.

" Did you wake up?" a voice comes from next to me, then someone grabs my hand. I turn to the direction of the voice where Seonghwa is sitting next to me.

" How are you feeling?" he asks softly.

" Whe.. Whe.. where am I? " I still find it difficult to speak.

" Wait, I'll give you some water." hands me a glass with a straw " drink a little, it's good for your throat. I'll tell the doc you woke up. "

He goes out and comes back a minute later with the doctor.

" Hello, I'm Dr. Park. How are you feeling? Can you tell me your name? "

" Kim Soo-jin. "

" Do you remember what happened? "

" There was an event at the hotel, then a knife was needed for the cake, then the projector.... NOOO!!!" and my tears are flowing again.

" After that you fainted due to the shock. Luckily, someone caught you at the last moment, so you didn't hit yourself. Can someone help you? It is not advisable to stay alone now. "

I'm about to say that nobody yet, but Seonghwa speaks next to me:

" Yes, doctor, we'll take care of her.

" It's okay, then when the infusion has finished, I'll let you go. "

" Thank you. "

With that, the doctor leaves.

" You don't have to do this," I sniff Seonghwa. " you have enough things to do anyway, because there is a competition on the weekend. "

" It was canceled due to the situation. "

" What? "

" The team leaders went to the directors and asked them to cancel the competition because of what happened.
You can't even work in this state. "

" Yong Soo? "

" Namjoon and the others are taking care of her, Tae is very close to her. She is safe. It's just that they are no longer at your flat, but in the dorm. "

" Why? "

" Because the police found evidence that it was an attempted murder, and before he left, Jong Suk talked to Hongjoong and said you were in danger. So we thought it best to move you out. You will live with us until the situation is clarified. Jong Suk asked us to take care of you. " he adds softly.

And when I hear his name, I start sobbing again. Seonghwa takes my hand and caresses it with his finger, then he sits on the edge of the bed and pulls me to him, then the barrier breaks inside me and I cry uncontrollably. He caresses my back, whispering to reassure me. But now nothing helps.

I'm broken.

They let us out after an hour. Seonghwa accompanies me, a black minibus is waiting for us downstairs in the parking lot, with the other seven boys lined up next to it. When we get there, they surround me without saying a word and hug me. I'm crying again. And they keep me.

When my fit subsides, we get into the minibus, and I am seated between Seonghwa and Yeosang. Exhausted from crying, I rest my head on the former's shoulder and fall asleep.

I wake up to find that the car has stopped and someone is getting me out of the car.

I look up, I'm in Yunho's arms.

I'll pass out again.

The next time I wake up, I don't know where I am.

It's dark.

I'm panicking, I'm flailing around looking for a clue, suddenly a small lamp lights up and someone hugs me:

" Sssssss, I'm here. Don't worry, you're safe. "

The familiar voice calms me, my heart also calms down, I lean back on my pillow.

" Sleep, you need to rest!" and turns off the light, heads outside.

Panic seizes me again, I grab his hand:

" Seonghwa! Please don't leave me alone! "

" Okay, calm down, I'll stay here with you. " and he sits in the armchair next to the bed.

I manage to fall back asleep.

I'm not in the right place, I shouldn't be here.

I'm standing on a road, cars honking around me are speeding by.

Something very bright and very hot suddenly appears from behind me. I turn around.

It's a burning car.

And Jong Suk is sitting in the driver's seat and extends his hand to me:

"Soojin, help me! HELP! "

I would reach for his hands, but the flames would shoot up and he would disappear as if he had never been there.

" NO, JONG SUK, DON'T GO!!! DON'T LEAVE ME !!!!! "

" Soojin! Hey Soojin! Get up! Soojin, wake up!" I can hear it in the distance " Can you hear me? Soojin it's just a dream, wake up! "

I open my eyes and eight pairs of frightened eyes watch me in the blinding lamplight.

" Sorry, I woke you up, didn't I? " - I lowered my head, and I started crying again.

" You screamed so that even the dead woke up " Wooyoung comments, and I cringe at the comparison, and three people cut him in the neck at the same time.

" Sorry!" He remembered what he said.

" I brought some warm water with honey, it will help you calm down a bit " Yeosang hands me a mug.

" Thank you" I take it from him and take a sip.

Then I think of Yong Soo.

" Where is Yong Soo? I want to see her. Where is my baby girl?" and the panic comes again. I can't breathe again.

" Hey, don't worry, she's in the right place" Hongjoong tries to calm me down " Taehyung is taking care of her. She is safe.

" I want to see her, please, I have to see her " and I have already sunk into despair again, I am sobbing again.

" Hyung, I think you should call Namjoon hyung. " San whispers to Hongjoong. " Bring the little girl, I don't think there is a better medicine for her at the moment. We cannot be separated from another loved one. Now they need each other the most. "

" I think you're right, I'll go make a phone call." he goes out with that.

" Calm down now Jinnie " the maknae sits down next to me and takes my hand " hyung is bringing Yong Soo here."

" They are coming... all of them, they want to see Soojin." Hongjoong comes back.

" I think we should go outside now, boys, because we're going to suck out the little air in the room. We'll take turns. Jongho, if you're already there, you can start." Seonghwa led everyone out of the room" we will wait in the living room until the BTS get here. Yeosang, come and help me, let's make some tea until then, I'm sure it will be good for the arrivals as well.

Everyone was already outside, except for Jongho, who is sitting next to me and trying to calm me down by stroking my hand.

I don't know how much time passed because I lost track of time. They rang. After a few minutes, Taehyung appeared in the bedroom door with the sleeping Yong Soo in his arms.

" Come in" Jongho beckons " I'll go out to say hello to the others in the meantime" and he goes out.

V comes in, sits next to me on the bed, and puts the sleeping little girl in my arms. Then he hugs my shoulder, and I gently hold the napping baby close to me and inhale her sweet scent. Tae pats my back and makes me feel like he's here with me, but he doesn't say anything.

And I, although the pain doesn't go away, I finally calm down.

After a while, the rest of the Bangtan boys come in. They hug me one by one, I get a few kisses on my forehead, I even see a tear in one or another's eyes. Only Namjoon speaks to me:

" We're here, we're with you, call us anytime, for anything, we'll come and help in whatever way we can. Please take care of yourself, also for Yong Soo's sake. She needs you. Be strong! We love you! "

Not long after, they said goodbye and went home.

And I just sat there and inhaled Soo-ya's sweet scent.