-Lucy's P.O.V-

I reach for my towel after shutting off the water. I wrapped the towel around my naked body and stepped out. I felt so relaxed; I needed that. I wrapped my hair in another towel and glanced into the mirror before leaving.

"Cold cold cold!" I said to myself as I quickly tiptoed from the bathroom to my bedroom once the air hit me. I burst through my bedroom door and closed it behind me. I looked up and screamed, covering my private areas...which seemed stupid as the towel was already doing that for me.

"I'm sorry, your grandma let me in and told me to wait in here for you" Bobby explained, shielding his eyes. Why would she do that? She knew I was in the shower? I swear sometimes that woman!! I snickered to myself.

"It's fine, let me just grab some clothes and I'll go out"

"No, this is your room. I'll wait outside" Bobby stood up and stepped out. 

I let out a breath and opened up my wardrobe. I pulled out a plain black vest top and black denim shorts. I really didn't feel like wearing a dress or a skirt today, so this will do. I quickly pulled my outfit of choice on, after pulling on a fresh set of underwear and began drying my hair with the towel. I walked over to the door and let Bobby come back in.

"So?" I dragged out, I crossed my legs, sitting opposite him on my bed.

"So" He looked nervous. "We need to talk"

"Ok..." He sounded serious. I put down the towel I was using to dry my hair and sat up straight.

"First I want to know. Do you like me, you know as more than a friend?" Bobby's question completely threw me off guard. I let out a nervous laugh.

"No way" I giggled. Bobby gave me a look to say 'Don't lie' and my giggling ceased completely. "Maybe...yes" I looked anywhere but at him. He let out a frustrating groan and I looked over at him, he looked pained.

"How long for?" He asked.

"A while now" I admitted. I began picking one of my nails. Bobby reached his hand over and placed it on top of mine.

"Don't do that, they're a nice length" I stopped and looked up at him. "Why didn't you say anything"

"Bobby, how could I? You're in a relationship. I thought it was just a stupid crush that would go away"

"Has it?" I shook my head. Bobby pursed his lips together. Hang on a damn second. This ain't right. His turn.

"What about you?" I boldly asked.

"What about me?"

"You kissed me remember. So...do you like me?" I asked confidently. I watched as he uncomfortably shifted and rubbed the back of his neck. I waited patiently.

"I do, happy? I like you Lucy and I have done for a while now" he mimicked me. "And I don't know what to do, I'm confused" Bobby quickly stood up and began pacing around my room. I could see the frustration on his face. I felt bad, I didn't mean to put Bobby in this position.

"Bobby I..." He instantly interrupted me.

"I'm trying everything to not like you because it's not fair on Lisa. But I can't! Even when I'm fucking my own girlfriend I'm thinking about you" My eyes widened and I could feel myself blushing. He came over and pulled me up, his hands gripping upper arms. "Why did you have to be you?! You just had to have the same interests as me, you had to be funny and kind and caring and beautiful. Why couldn't you just be a bitch, a nasty evil conniving bitch. Or better yet, be the quiet weirdo that I thought you were"

"Bobby I'm not going to apologise for who I am" I felt all sorts of emotions bubbling up inside me.

"I'm not asking you to" He let go of my arms and took a step back.

"Do you think it's easy for me? I'm the one that has to watch you be with someone else and wish that deep down it was me. Do you know how hard it is to want someone who can never be yours because they're already taken?" I spat, it wasn't just him suffering. I was too! My bottom lip began to tremble and a tear fell from left eye, which I quickly wiped away, but he saw. His face softened.

"I can't see you anymore" He sighed. "I'm afraid that if we keep hanging out..." Bobby didn't have to finish, I knew what he meant. "I can't do that to her. She's been great to me, despite how she's been acting lately. I'm not a cheater Lucy. Never have been and never will. I've already done something I shouldn't have. But I'm stopping it there. I'm really sorry and please don't think it's your fault"

"I understand" I whispered. I looked down and swallowed the lump that formed in my throat, I made no sound but the tears fell from my eyes like a waterfall.

"Please don't cry" Bobby pouted, he lifted my head up and wiped away my tears. But they wouldn't stop.

"I can't help it" I muttered.

"I'm sorry" We said at the same time. Bobby sighed and pulled me into a hug which I eagerly  returned, I held onto him a little too tightly.

"Obviously we'll still see each other for now until the projects finished but after that.."

"I know" I mumbled into his shoulder. My tears stained his shirt as I held onto him.

"I want you to know that I don't regret kissing you by the way. It's the best kiss I've ever had" he admitted. That didn't help. I squeezed my eyes shut.  After a while we both let go, Bobby grabbed his keys off of my bedside table and made for the door.

"Bobby" I said. He turned to look at me.

"Yeah?"

"I just have to know. If you weren't with Lisa..then would..."

"Oh trust me, everything would be so much different" he gave me a sad smile before leaving my room.

~
I had been sobbing into my pillow for the past hour. The thought of not getting to be around Bobby killed me. He had become my safe space, someone I could open up to and truly be myself around and I won't get that anymore. I knew that when we work on the project, everything will be so different.

"Sweetheart, can I come in?" My grandmas soft voice spoke from behind my door. I didn't answer. I heard my door creak open and then shut. I felt a weight on the end of my bed. I went over to her, resting my head in her lap and she ran her fingers through my hair. Just like she use to when I was a child. "Before you say anything, I heard everything that was said in here"

"What?" I sniffed. Part of me feeling a little embarrassed.

"You heard me" She chuckled. "Lucy this is just a part of life that we all have to go through. But it won't last forever"

"I love him grandma" I admitted and cried a little harder.

"I know you do dear and I know he loves you too" she told me. "I've seen how you are together, the looks you give each other. He doesn't love that other girl, he just doesn't realise that yet"

"That's not true"

"Oh really?" She challenged. "Just wait and see"

"This sucks" My crying had stopped finally.

"For now it does and I get it hurts like hell. But they say if you love something, let it go. And if it that something comes back, it's meant to be yours"

"You really think so?"

"I know so. And you mark my words, he'll be back"