Jordan's POV

"Fuck you!" I yell at Paxton. 

"Baby calm down, please." Paxton says with hope in his eyes. 

"No Paxton. Leave." I say with averting my eyes away from him. 

"Don't do that love." 

"Paxton please go." I say and start crying. 

Hot tears start streaming down my face. I'm embarrassed. I hate crying. 

"Don't cry, please baby. I'm right here." Paxton pleads. 

He holds his arms open for me across the room. I see the worry and the hurt on his face. I want to resist his arms so bad but he's my safe space. 

I do the stupid thing and run into his arms. 

"You lied to me." I say against his chest.

"I know, I'm so sorry baby." He says while petting my hair. 

He leans his chin on the top of my head. I continue to cry against his chest. 

He lied to me. 

"I'm so, sorry Jordan. Believe me, I will never do it again. It was so long ago. Baby I love you and only you okay?" His chin pokes me every time he lets out a word. 

Last January Paxton told me he was going to Utah to see his mom. I believed him. 

A couple of minutes ago a random girl messaged me on instagram telling me that she didn't know that we were together or she would've never done it. 

They slept together. 

Oh god, no I cant. 

I rip myself out of his arms and look at him with disgust. 

"How could you?" I ask with my voice trembling. 

"Baby I'm so sorry. It was so early in our relationship. I was a different guy. It was only one time! I haven't kissed or slept with anyone but you since then." He pleads. 

I hate this. 

He cheated on me. 

With a prettier girl. I bet she was better than me. 

"Baby-" I cut him off. 

"Paxton please leave, I can't." I say. 

The tears start rolling off of my face harder. 

"I have no where to go." He says. 

His beautiful face is scrunched up in worry. I can tell he hates himself right now. 

"Well find somewhere! Rent a hotel room I could give a fuck less. Oh you know what? You could invite her over! Yes, I'm sure she would love that!" I say with an evil laugh. 

"No baby stop. I don't love her. I love you and only you!" He raises his voice. 

"Fucking leave!" I yell. 

"Please." I whisper. 

He finally obliges and walks past me. 

"I love you." He turns around to say. 

I ignore him and walk into the bathroom and lock myself in. I slide down against the vanity and into the floor. 

He cheated. It was so long ago but he cheated. 

She's so much prettier than me. She skinny, short, and just beautiful. I'd cheat on me too. I'm nothing good to look at. 

He cheated on me. 

I hate him. 

With everything in me. 

But I need him here with me right now more than anything. I need him to look at me with those green eyes and tell me everything is going to be okay. That we're going to be okay. 

I pick myself up off the bathroom floor and walk into the bedroom to get my phone. 

He texted me. 

"I love you baby. Please don't give up on us. I was immature and stupid. Let me come back home." 

I roll my eyes at his effort. I scroll through my call list and find my best friends name 'boobae:).'

I put the phone up to my ear and it rings twice before she picks up. 

"Heyyyy bitch." She says. 

"Hey." I say sadly. 

"Oh hell naw. What's wrong?" 

"Can you come over bevy?" I cry. 

"Of course babe I'll be over in five. I love you." She says and hangs up the phone. 

Beverly has been my best friend since middle school. She's now 19 and I'm 20. She was always so butthurt that I'm older than her. 

I plop down on my bed face first and sigh. I struggle to breath with my face in the bed. Oh well, maybe it'll kill me. I groan out loud. I hate crying, especially over men. Fuck men. 

Should I give up almost three years for a mistake that happened so long ago? 

I can't give up on him, he's my everything.  

But it wasn't a mistake. He meant to do that. You can't mistakenly put your dick in someone. 

But it was so long ago. He's right, he was a different man back then. He's way more loyal now than he ever was. 

But he meant it. 

He's different now though. 

I groan aloud again. Fuck this. 

"Open up bitch I have wine coolers." I hear Beverly say while banging on my door. 

I get up and go to the front door. I probably look like shit but oh well. I see a smiling Beverly standing outside my apartment. Her curly red hair is standing still on her head and her smile seems to grow by the second. 

"You look like shit." She says while pushing me to the side and walking in the door. 

"Thanks." I say and shut the door. 

She goes to my island and sits down in one of the tall chairs. I walk over and sit on the opposite side of the island. 

"Spill." She says as she hands me a pink wine cooler. 

"He cheated on me." I say as I take a swig. 

"You're fucking joking right?" She says with her eyebrows furrowed. "No fucking way." 

"It was a long time ago. But he still did it." I say taking another swig. 

"No fuck him. I don't care how long ago it was. He did it. Knowing damn well he's in a committed relationship to you." 

"I can't give up on him Bevy. He's my heart and soul. I can't live without him." 

"Just go lesbian and date me." She winks as she takes a drink of her wine cooler. 

"Ha Ha." I say dryly. 

"No I get it. It was a long time ago and he's came a long way. If I were you though I wouldn't give him another minute of my time. But he's your lifeline. You need to talk it out with him." She explains. 

"Lets watch a movie." She says while smiling. 

Maybe it will take my mind off of him. 

okayyyy so what paxton did? what do you think? what would you do?

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